Life Goes On

Not gonna blog today

2011-12-17T22:41:00.002+08:00

Just got home from PK's retreat..I will tell you more tmr okay? gonna spend time praying now cuz there is a raging inside of me for more of him..I hope everyone reading this feels the same..If youre reading this go spend time with Your Lover!! He wants you!!

Lotsa love

I miss it just being You and me

2011-12-15T02:57:00.002+08:00

Got back from the meeting this evening feeling like I'm below the ground..what else to do other than cry out to Him in the shower and just pull myself up again by His grace..

Next to the airport where i just felt like being silent and alone the whole time..found a quiet spot where i just sat and read about the life of Elisha in 1 Kings..How he got a double portion of what Elijah had all because he was faithful to God and also the man of God..what courage and determination..sounds a lot like the best friend of mine..

Flight arrives, she appears with smiles for everyone, that kinda cheers me up..n i drive silently back to Malaysia with the music on..the love birds chatting away at the back..love to see them so much in love..such an inspiration..

Dinner and got home to pack my things for camp tmr..

Finally finished and lying down to post something..but all i wanna say is i really miss being alone with my Lover..Just being me and Him all alone with no distractions..feeling His love and embrace and just loving Him back wanting nothing but to be in His presence lost in His awesome love..I hope i get that this camp..and I really pray God will speak to me clearly about what He wants for me..

Lord you see these hands? this voice? these feet? these lips? everything you created so beautifully they are for You..they belong to You..none of it belongs to me. with all my heart i willingly surrender to You my life and purpose and dreams..I just want to serve You with all I have and all I am..Let Your will alone be accomplished in my life..let not the things around me discourage me or cause me to lose focus.. All because I love you and my all? its for You..Cos nothings brings more joy than serving you.

Looking forward to the next 3 hours of sleep along with 3 beautiful days to go along with it..

My new lil friend

2011-12-14T02:01:00.002+08:00

She poses now :)

What a darling :)

Damaris Jazlyn Augustine is an angel and I <3 her..cant wait to c her again soon..

First Borns are awesome :)

2011-12-13T10:50:00.003+08:00

So this awesome guy gets back today :), Oh well he is no ordinary guy..

Before anyone of the others existed we were both alone on earth for like more than 7 months hahaha..we go back a long way..Remember when it was just the two of us fighting over who we loved more and who you wanted to be your wife hehe (my mum) haha..of cos the fun grew as the additions came along with the rest of the wacky group :)

N i remember what you said to me before Aunty Beaulah's wedding..we were pageboy and flower girl rem? and You said make sure you throw the flowers on me hehe..im not sure if you remember that but from wayyy back you loved to be appreciated and wanted and happy :)..

N you got what you wanted..everything you wanted :) a beautiful wife and 2 amazing princesses..for us we gained a beautiful sister and 2 beautiful nieces whom we adore..i remember tearing when you walked down the aisle thinking to myself omg i cant believe he is getting married.

After all we've been thru together thru the years..i think its safe to say i miss you cuz and I cant wait to c you later at the airport and give you a big hug :) and your amazing wifey and babies..its amazing that you're so far away and yet it feels like youre so close to me haha..i bet we all feel that way too..

Many things change but i guess some will just remain the way they are :) we will be the firstborns of the Augustine Family and carry a legacy of Christ to the future generations :) I love you..chat soon..

:)

2011-12-12T10:29:00.003+08:00

So much for a title :) 3 months of not blogging.. I cant believe its that long..man, no need for updates..i guess its all on twitter and FB..

Oh well i suddenly felt inspired to write this morning when i woke up but now its all gone hahaha..

I guess ill just say some things that i wanna be grateful for cuz its 20 days to 2012 and i wanna enter the new year just being thankful for all the amazing things I have in my life..here goes

My Amazing lil sister (a blessing since she was born till today..treasure her so much)
Mum and Dad (They are perfect and i think they spoil us sometimes..anyhow <3 precious)
My best friend (Best friends are almost impossible to find but God graciously gave me mine :) Thanks for being there)
My Cuzzies Cal,Chloe,Chris,Cle,Carmel and not forgetting Caleb (so much joy with them)
My darlings in KL and Penang and Kuching (you understand me when no one else does..i miss you guys heaps..Like my Shu Ern said GPS God Positioning System..I thank God i have u guys.No judging or comparing at all..just loving and caring and sincerity.Who could ever have such amazing friends?)
Chandru and Athens for being amazing friends :) (You guys rock!)
Tiny Matthew :) ( My long distance pal..She is beyond amazing)
The gals and guys from YO (You love me and encourage me its awesome)
My Job at FYH (All I can actually say is pure FAVOUR)

I Thank God for my Life and breath and everything I have because none of it belongs to me but it is all His. Tho things are not always perfect but i believe that all things work together for good to those who love him (Im getting there) and are called according to His purpose (quite sure of that).

2011has taught me many things and i guess one of those things is to be thankful. Ill never forget what my bestie told me a few months ago.. " STOP COMPLAINING, AND START BEING THANKFUL" haha i guess thats why he is my bestie.. aye aye sergeant..

Gtg get on with life now..like i always say weather you like it or not Life Goes On so you can either resent it or just Fall in love with it..

Crystal over and out

Crystaline is missing them :(

2011-08-25T22:58:00.003+08:00

I miss you guys

Shu ern
Beverly
Atiqah
Visha
Ponney
Jia Wei
Arthur
Jolyn
Ching Ching

We had so much fun together :( i miss those times when i could be nothing but me..you guys are the best n i've never felt alone when im with ul..sighhh i cant wait to c all of you again soon..

On a lighter note backpacking this Sunday..eventho its just Malaysia..its a start to many other backpacking trips we will have i believe..im gonna go mad n im gonna c my girls again yaaaay :) yahoooo..

Till the next update..

An unexplainable encounter

2011-08-08T18:37:00.003+08:00

Someone said i only update this once a month :) haha oh well sorry laa busy sangat..

Here's something that still amazes me till today..

The previous Sat I was just alone in my room after a long day, n i was reading this new manual daddy gave me..n while I was reading suddenly The Holy Spirit started speaking to me in my heart..so I decided to put the book away and just spend some time praying..

Suddenly the whole atmosphere in my room changed and the presence of God was so strong. I could hardly breathe n was crying non stop.. It felt like He was just there right beside me..literally like a person sitting next to me embracing me..and the voice of the Holy Spirit was so clear suddenly inside of me speaking things that I really needed to hear.

I din even notice how fast the time was going. All I knew is I was there in His presence n I felt so undeserving..so unrighteous n yet His loving embrace persisted till i felt a peace in me..

I told God, Lord how nice if every morning when i wake up i can encounter You like this..It was amazing..just amazing..words cant describe how awesome it felt being loved and affirmed by my Saviour.

You must be wondering why you are reading this..I mean i encountered The Holy Spirit..but lemmie tell you something, as long as you are hungry God will fill you.. and a friend of mine said this today when i was talking to her..the moment you stop being hungry for God that is the moment you stop growing in Him..

My best friend told me 3 weeks back to stop complaining and to look for that strength again which i had somehow lost thru my circumstances n lemmie tell you God has never failed to be Faithful in my persuit for Him..Im amazed and I am looking forward to more..

Did everything change after the encounter?no more temptation, no more worries, no more loneliness??NO WAYY but something did change and that was my heart towards God..More trust, more reliability, A more sensitive heart to His sweet gentle voice..A harder nudge to obey that voice and prompting and an anointing n fire i have never felt before..literally..

As I laid hands to pray for the young people on Sat i literally felt the fire of God go thru some of them..again im saying this not for any praise or glory cos IT IS NOT ME IT IS ALL ABOUT HIM..EVERYTHING!! i just desire everyone of you reading this to hunger for God..be radical about it..even if it means you give up somethings in your life..

When i quit complaining and started serving with love i discovered what true passion is all about..Am i perfect omgg NO WAY but He is and my desire is I become more and more like Him day by day..

Be Hungry for God..cuz He is willing to fill you.. lotsa lovee :) have an awesome week..

Just You and Me in my Chambers courting

2011-07-20T21:32:00.002+08:00

Just sitting in my room alone with a silence that seems so comforting.. sometimes its in this place that i feel safe, that I feel nothing can ever harm me or make me feel bad. No words could bring me down or tear me apart, Where its just You and me communing with each other, You teach me stuff and comfort me and help me realise that no matter what happens you're still there for me.. No matter how my faith dwindles Yours stays stable. Sometimes when i'm sitting there in Your presence i just don't wanna leave and go anywhere cos there's the perfect moment right there..

However the real world is still out there, my emotions are still real and people are still people. Despite knowing of your love for me, my heart strays to the past where everything seemed so prefect in my loneliness..my heart tends to give up when negative words are spoken on me, from strength to weakness i stray slowly not even realising it.. Where is that strength You built in me? Where is that women that You have chosen and given so much boldness to? why do words mean so much and relationships affect my tender heart the way it does?

Did you place love and compassion in my heart so it could be tested time and time again? How come when i love my friends and treasure them so much, they literally mean everything to me and one wrong word or action could affect me so deeply. How come when words are spoken they go right deep inside? Especially by the people I adore and treasure..Am i that fragile? did you create me that way for a reason?

Or are my weaknesses overwhelming me to a point i cant see the light? The need to be perfect in everyway is so evident even amongst the people i treasure the most..I wish i could be perfect sometimes but i guess its just not me..so Help plss my One and Only..cos I need you..

Im looking to You for an answer :( here alone with You feeling forlorn in my chambers..

I pray You will make me smile again and restore that strength i once used to have to bring that perfect moment out there to the world again.

Happy Birthday 大哥

2011-07-07T08:40:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Koko May you have the best birthday ever, full of surprises and lotsa love :)

Thanks for being such an amazing brother to me. Its been a blessing knowing someone like you. You care and love people with no intention and when we speak you listen and eventho sometimes you say ' Who Cares' but im sure you still do haha.. ur the lamest and most awesome person and im sure many ppl know that too cos thats the way you are with everybody..

My prayer for you is that you will discover the calling that God has placed in your life and you will run with it :) I pray ul grow in Him and He will be your everything.. Smile and always be happy..I know this is a surprise to you but i hope its a good one :)

God bless you

its all good

2011-07-07T08:27:00.004+08:00

Im in school now..supposed to be doing some work but its just not working ya know :) oh well no harm in a lil update..days have been amazing with alin.. I mean every day i have something exciting to look forward to..

Except for yesterday's lil manifestation by me cuz things din go as planned..i mean i really gotta try to take things easy and be flexible hmm, thus avoid wasting the time and hurting ppl.. Lord pls help me.. I need you..

Things have been crazy at work too..exam coming and i need to get this kids ready..its okay if they are submissive but argh sometimes its hard to get their attention.. Anyhow i cant help but to love them..especially the naughty ones :)

My prayer and hope for them is that each of them will find Jesus and their lives will be changed for His Glory. Lord give me more opportunities to speak to them and impact their lives.. I dont just wanna be a norm English teacher.

I told Alin yesterday beee plsss dont go back and I mean it seriously..haha.. she was like yeaa rightt hahaha... :) Anyhow i'm gonna enjoy the time I have with her as much as I can cuz I really treasure her to the maxx :)

PS- Looking forward to the road trip at the end of August :)

There you go my new Hairstyle :) i kinda like it cuz its the first time its really short haha

Finally the moment

2011-07-02T19:15:00.004+08:00

I've been waiting for this moment for God knows how long..i mean it has felt like ages to me She is finally home.. The lil joy of my heart..every time she comes home its like she brings such a joy to my heart..I really really love her so much..

Apart from all my friends Cheryline Dorcas Nagarajan is my best friend. Someone i can share my whole heart with and someone who understands me and can scold me right to my face. I appreciate her so much cuz i've learnt so much just from her life.

She never aims to be anyone else but herself and she is perfect..so pure so amazing..today when she got up there to share, I was so amazed..my eyes teared cuz to me she is God's masterpiece of purity and no one can ever be like her.

I love her so much and I am grateful to God for blessing me with such an amazing sister..All I want for her is the best and to be happy..

Looking forward to the most amazing week with her around. Just knowing she is at home is a comfort that i'm not alone..I never feel alone when she is with me..

I can't wait to spoil her and pamper her all week :)

God Thank you for bringing her back..I love you lin you're the best thing God placed in my life.The Joy God brought into my life :)

Broken

2011-07-02T00:54:00.003+08:00

The more you hurt me, the stronger i will become.
Friendship is not when you don't have anyone else..its thru thick and thin
Thru ups and downs
Be real! don't pretend to be someone you are not.
It nvr works

A perfect cuppa Coffee

2011-06-28T10:01:00.004+08:00

And i'm ready to start the day.. the pic is super blurrr..time to get a new phone ade :)

I have a ton of things to do today and i Hope i get to finish at least half of them before prayer mtg tonight..but i just wanna say a few things before i go..im not sure how many ppl actually read this blog but if you do i hope today's post encourages you or like Derrick always says drowns you and gives you no choice but to swim,.

Some weird stuff happened this morning and yesterday causing me to be utterly down and after my angry workout this morning i decided to listen to a sermon..it literally spoke to my heart and i just listened my heart breaking inside of me and tears flowing..

The question that I wanna ask you today is how much do we want to know God?how much do we desire Him? are we just seeking Him cos we have things in our lives that need to be settled or do we need Him cos we need Him to manifest His power in our situations and in our calling? how many times have we just sat alone and said God i wanna know more about you and I want to love you..show me more of you..show me more of the amazing person you are..the truth is we attempt to know everything and everyone else more than we attempt to know Him..You know what we were created for? The very pleasure of God..to please him, to commune with Him and to love Him.

On Sat morning as i awoke, The Holy Spirit gently spoke to me.. " wake up and commune with me.." Could i have just ignored that voice and went back to sleep?..definitely..but it is when we heed to that voice and obey His presence will be so real to us and we begin to get familiar with the voice of God. Our God is an amazing sweet gentle person yet so strong and mighty and worthy to receive all glory and adoration.

The only way God can mold us and make us the people He wants us to be is if He breaks us.. and He will if you would allow Him..is it painful? of cos it is but with Him right there beside you to comfort you and guide you its amazing..cuz we were not created to be mediocre.. God created everyone of us to make a distinct difference wherever He places us.

How much you wanna know God will determine how much your friends and the people around you wanna know God.. It depends on you.

Take your eyes off the things that are behind and press forward to the greater and more amazing call of God.

Just something to start your day..lotsa love...

Monday

2011-06-27T08:25:00.002+08:00

Woke up early this morning not knowing what the time or date was cuz my watch strap broke :) hahahaha..anyhow i felt super energetic and im kinda looking forward to this week..especially the end of it cos my lil sis Cheryline Dorcas Nagarajan will be back..I'm off today..on MC..gonna go service my car with daddy and we'll c what else there is to be done..

Already missing Nereeta..

Have an amazing week everyone..ill update as much as possible..

Another Beautiful day

2011-06-25T23:28:00.007+08:00

Lotsa things happen everyday reminding us of many things..everyday produces a memory for tomorrow..Today was no less..

Youth meeting was amazing..worship literally brought down the presence of God..couldn't hold the tears back even sitting at the back doing the projector all blurry eyed..Nereeta I wish you were here longer to lead many more times hunie..and Johnny preached amazing..He talked about walking in the Spirit, something really vital that many ppl have lost sight of these days..It really ministered to me personally and i was blessed. I remember 3 points :) am I right?

Obeying the voice of God (How Abraham sacrificed Issac on the altar without questioning God and God was faithful to return to him his son and bless him by making him the father of many nations.
Prayer
Fasting

Awesome awesome awesome word of God and awesome man of God. I cant wait for His first miracle crusade and His first packed revival mtg :) i hope he doesn't read this or he will kill me for saying this..Oh well i'm just telling the truth..and I hope one day when it all comes to pass he will read this again and smile hehe..

It was also Nereeta's last Sat here so we arranged a small going away party for her for all her amazing ways and the awesome person that she is. I am gonna miss her so much..she has been such an encouragement to me thru this time and im really grateful to God for placing someone like her in my life. I hope and pray that you will excel in everything that you do and that you will be a blessing to many..3 John 2 I love you NN muacks..

Im just lying down on my bed right now thinking of the conversation i had with Mr Neong all the way back..life is slowly starting to change..ppl are changing, things are changing, our own lives are changing..i just hope that everyone gets a smile in the changes and no hearts are broken..

Not really tired..i guess ill read a bit before falling asleep..kinda miss chatting with the best friend who is super duper busy :) oh well LIFE GOES ON..

Good night everyone..have an amazing Sunday..ask God to speak to you..seriously He will :) he nvr fails to..

6 days more to a week of bliss :)

NN my love this pic is for you muacks I love you

My very first dental surgery

2011-06-24T07:59:00.002+08:00

So i went to the clinic yesterday with an assumption that i'm just gonna have to pull out that wisdom tooth which has been bugging me for some time now. I mean what could go wrong right?simple procedure, just some injections to numb the pain and den some pressure and its out.

Little did i know that it was gonna be much worse than that.

Dr Charles: So are you ready for surgery?

Crystal: Yea, you meann like just pulling out my tooth right?

Dr Charles : No girl you gotta understand something, extraction and surgery are two different things.

Crystal: Okayyyyy sooo howw?

Dr Charles: Ill have to grind your tooth a little and cut out some of the bone to get to the wisdom tooth, den ill pull it out and clean up by removing the roots.

Crystal : (Squirms a lil) huh?? i guess its fine..

In my heart i was like "God pls help" already im totally freaked out whenever i go to the dentist..anyway it din take long..all the drilling and cutting took abt half an hour and I was done. I din really feel the pain till last night..it hurt so bad tears just couldn't stop flowing. Took the opportunity to manja a bit with daddy..made him feed me (grinz) but i really couldn't eat tho..this morning the pain is much better but half my face looks like a ball with the swelling :) haha..can't even talk or eat properly..

I have to go to church later cos i promised the guys..they better not laugh at me esp that Chandru and Athens..

And Theng Shu Ern your message yesterday? I felt like killing you lah but now i just feel like laughing..at the rate im going i think your right lah hehehe..i miss you so much la darling..i was just thinking of all the crazy memories we had and i mean can we pls get that back..at least for just a day or two laa..i'm the only crazy one alone here laa and ul are in KL..sighh..hope to meet ul soon..I love you and they rest of the monkeys too..

Oh well gotta rest.. Dr Charles said i gotta sleep it thru..hate all the medication btw..its messing with my tummy ahhhh..

Im back

2011-06-22T21:16:00.003+08:00

I feel like saying RIP life goes on hehehe its been dead for so long and its all my fault :) seriously blogging is time consuming and takes inspiration laa..Theng Shu Ern thanks for getting me into this hehee :) i still love it tho..okay here's a short update on how things have been..

AWESOMEEEEE

Hahahahaha yes yes i know im lamee...i did a degree course with Athens and graduated but unfortunately with no honours cos he is the only one with a honours degree in lame-ness :) oh well things are great..working and learning soo many things daily. Eventho its tiring at times but i guess i still endure cos its something im passionate about, teaching. Working hard and trusting God to be an awesome teacher as a learn each day.

Church is awesome too..I cant believe im saying this but after so long of not going for prayer meeting i feel when i went the last 2 weeks its like i was totally refreshed and it like kick started the whole week. Youth outbreak's been driving me crazy too..these guys are totally passionate about what they do and they are awesome it amazes me :) ..Sunday service?oh well sometimes in the morning im like sooo tired and i just say God pls just speak to me and He does..right to my heart..God has been so faithful every single day of my life that Ill nvr doubt His goodness.. He is always there to cover me with His love be the best friend there could ever be..

2 weeks holiday flew past like the wind..had a blast at Bandung with the 2 ppl I love the most..and I din feel like a tiang lampu at all cos i felt how much both of them loved me and accepted me..played like crazyy :) and after that church camp, play again and den it was time to get down to serious business of marking the exam papers sighhh..thanks Johnny for helping me..couldnt have finished so fast if you din help me hehe :)

Anyway school is back on and im running around again..setting the exam questions for the coming test haha..brand new experience for me and i know its all for a purpose.. For now im really happy with life and everything around me :) and i pray things will start getting clearer and better.

PS: Lord I love you so much and I thank you for the person you are making out of me. Speak to me Lord and I will listen. All I want for my life is for Your will to be done and nothing else..not my desires or dreams or purposes..you say it and I will do it. Quoted : Enlarge my heart to know your will and to do your will.

To whoever is reading this i just wanna encourage you to run this race with passion cuz Jesus ran His race on this earth with you as His passion. Yes things may get difficult at times and you feel like giving up but hang in there..dont let go of His promises cuz He will nvr let go of you. If you fall pick yourself up and move on, encourage yourself in Him. There is nothing to great He cannot understand cuz im telling you guys there is not much time for us on earth. We gotta start running with such passion so the world will c the Jesus in us.

Love you guys :) and God bless yall.

RIP Alvin : Ul always be remembered as an amazing teacher and person who cared for and loved people. Im sure great is your reward in heaven.

gtg..and best friend thanks for the inspiration to blog again hehe :) it paid off.. How on earth did God choose such amazing friends for me ar? man God really must love me like crazy hehehe..

Nothing is forever

2011-05-01T18:13:00.002+08:00

just had the most awesome sleep ever :)

I just felt lyk writing my heart today

Lord I thank You for for helping me thru this day and i know that even if the whole world lets me down You will always hold my hand. Even if the people closest people to me choose to step away You will still love me and be there for me. I dont have to worry because I have you beside me. All I need is to be secure in You and i know you will take care of the rest :)

nothing in life lasts forever so treasure it while you have it..trust me..

What do you want from me???

2011-04-28T22:12:00.003+08:00

i mean seriously

I do everything you want me to even if it doesnt make sense

and you still find fault with me

and cause trouble

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i dont wanna end up like her cos of you

ppl revere you..and still ur lyk that

I dont get it..none of it..

its hurting everytime you say things before thinking

ever felt like youre unappreciated??yeahhh..i mean after everything its like you did nothing..common..you wanna dominate??go ahead im not stopping you..im secure..i dont need all that fame to keep me going..nyhow..alin's principle..just continue loving..i guess ill do that..im not lazy i just don want to be taken advantage of!!! Im tired of feeling hurt and unwanted and used! im over all that..if im doing something its because i Love Jesus and He is the only person im serving..so like Issac (the devil) says..go ahead make my day.

I miss you guys like crazy Theng Shu Ern, Bev, Atiqah, Visha Ponney, Jolyn, Jia, Arthur..we must meet up soon okayy?

An amazing day

2011-04-14T22:45:00.007+08:00

24 years ago on this very day Daddy God brought me into this world with a big perfect picture of how my whole entire life was going to be like :) tho sometimes things get difficult i nvr fail to remember that i can only see a small part of that picture while he sees it all.. so everything that i dont understand i just have to trust it in His hands.

The last 24 years have been full of His grace and mercy from one step to another and i would have nvr made it to this point if not for His mercy and grace.. Which brings me to todayy :)

I had the most amazing day full of love and surprises..not at all what i dreamed of, but much more than that..

The kids celebrated my birthday at school..surprised me with the birthday song in 3 languages and an awsome cake :) their love touches my heart..and I've only taught for 2 months? *touched*

Lunch was with athens, Chan and Sohba..Japanese foodd :) amazing, with the awesome new room lamp that im in love with..cant believe they lied to me about renting the car and stuff hehe..anyhow im super touched..btw guys if it was just the card i still would have been overjoyed..thank you so much..im blessed to have friends lyk yall i know i can depend on..

And mummy ur crazy but seriously amazing..flowers to my school? a cake with my pic on it? and 24 ppl calling to wish me and pray for me?omgggg what else ma?I love you and thank you so much..im missing having you around so much..come home soon okayy..

To end the day i had a date with my daddy..we talked(gossipped) hehehhe and ate and daddy bought me a cute pouch for school..super sweet..I love you daddy..i know how busy you are and yet you took the time to take me out and get me a rose from the garden..it all means the world to me and I love you..

Alin, John i miss you guys like crazyy thanks for the wishes and calls it means the world..

The highlight of this years' awesome birthday of cos was the surprise party organized by my sweet darlings..I love you guyz so so much..it was the blastt..

Ending today with my Daddy God..everyone's asleep :)

if i could sum up this day i would simply call it perfect...i have so much to be grateful for and nothing to complain about..im sooo much loved and i love everyone who made me feel loved too.. Im amazed..and I just have to say Daddy God I love you and I thank You for everything you have so graciously blessed me with..my heart is overwhelmed with how much you love me..All I want is to be closer to you..lead me and guide me as I step into another year of my life once again. Let my steps and path glorify you. I love you.

To everyone who went all out to make this day special thank you so much..I love all of you..thanks for the wishes, gifts, surprises and of cos abundance of love..im blessed and touched..I love all of you so much..

I wonder..is my best friend coming back this wk-end..oh well who knows hehehe :)

Going to spend the last hour taking a love break..c yall..

The past few weeks

2011-04-10T23:35:00.008+08:00

Im just lying down and i cant sleep haha..thinking of the past few amazing weeks that have gone by so quickly..

The last time i wrote was 2 days before convo and that week-end itself was a blast.

I remember just sitting down quietly while the guest of honour was speaking, thinking omg I would have never made it even half way if it was not the grace of God.

And Thru everything situation God just came thru miraculously. I disntictively remember one day before my semantics paper crying and losing it because of some situation but in the end God just gave me the strength to pull thru and to do exceedingly well :)

Also giving me such wonderful, supportive parents who love me and care for me in every circumstance. I'm so grateful to have finished my degree and come back to a debt free career. All God's mercy and amazing parents who are so responsible. Mummy and Daddy i love yall so so much.

Anyway convo was awesome and the best part was to have my family there right beside me together with all my amazing friends. I think convo was by far the most amazing time i had..all the gifts and pampering hehe..thanks baby girl for coming back..having you around was the best thing for me..muacks..

Buddy thanks for being there too.. meant the world to me..utter crazy fun hehe :)

After convo the weeks passed so quickly with work (which By God's grace im getting used to everyday and amazingly starting to enjoy it) and everything else that i even lost track of time..just the normal everyday routine,

till yesterday..

Oh well the day started perfectly normal..i knew i had a lot to do with John and Chan both not around plus work..i was kinda mentally prepared for it and the day was like is was supposed to be..busy busy busy till finally youth meeting was over and everyone was acting a lil weird..they all left me and went 'back' haha and suddenly Johnny called..

Johnny: "Bud, what if i told you that im back and wanna hang out!"

Crystal: OMGG are you serious??

Johnny: yes yes get your ass to larkin and fetch me noww!!

Crystal: haha okok im coming now :)

And they tricked me all the way to the awesome surprise..I was so shocked and touched..they even composed a song for me smth like

OHHHHH crystaline HAPPY Birthdayy..sooo sweettt :)

All of you who worked so hard to put this together thank you so so much..

Neereta, Hannah, Shan, Derrick, Bryan, Christina, Sam, Chris, Chandru, Johnny, Issac, Gab(s) and Mark thank uuuuu..I love you guysss so so so much..

All of you are a treasure that God has placed in my life for a specific purpose and I really appreciate you guys a lot. Who would have thought that we would be so close like this right?its all God's devine appointment. You guys rock and i dont have to worry about being alone no more cos i know that wen i call ul will be there right?? ( its in the song) hahaah..muacks.. thanks again..

And Neereta, Issac, Johnny and Chan thanks for the wonderful leopard prints top..im lovin it so so much and im gonna rock it more than you know :)

Most of all Lord I thank you for your goodness and faithfullness thru all of it. You have never failed to be there for me in every circumstance and situation and I love You more than anything in this whole world..

Looking forward to an amazing week ahead and im missing mummy who has gone to be with my lil sis in Bandung for her exams :)..got to get some sleep now..promise another update soon :)

The clouds of Love

2011-03-17T02:58:00.003+08:00

How i wish I could just take it all away
and be gone in dreams with you
to the place where there's only you, me
and Love
With you alone, lost in love
I call the clouds of love
which will vanish us away from this world
to the place full of love
Oh how I long that the clouds of love
just linger between us
It makes us lose ourselves
and find the true meaning of love

When we are alone,
covered and embraced by the clouds of love
My love for you begins to ignite
when i just hold your hand and look into
your flaming eyes
I lose myself in your love
the clouds all over us
In the midst of those clouds
I would just kiss your sweet lips and make it all perfect for you

We are just lost in those clouds
just you and me all alone
making love and losing ourselves to each other
closely, intimate touch and embrace
the waves of love from you
ahh in those clouds of love

When i read this my eyes teared..so much passion and love

From a very inspired, very talented writer who inspires me every single day :)

road trip

2011-03-17T00:16:00.001+08:00

Leaving to kl tmr yahoooooo!!! cant wait hehe
I dont think im gonna sleep tonight..need to pack and im still slacking hehehe
its gonna be awesome yaaay
4 hours to go
will update soon..
Love you guyz..

And then

2011-03-14T01:24:00.002+08:00

Just got back from KL about an hour ago ;) cant sleep argh hehe..i guess i slept too much in the bus kot..

I had an amazing time with the craziest bunch that i love so dearly..was chatting and laughing and suddenly i felt so at home and accepted..guess thats what friends are supposed to feel like.

Had to collect our convo attire today and the management made the whole hall feel like it was already convo..there was such a sense of excitement and nostalgia as they played last years video over and over again..i started tearing..

Looking back at the 3 years of havoc i would have never made it outta there if not for the Grace of God and His constant hand of love and protection over me. Im in awe.
Tried on our gowns and mortar boards..registered for pics on that day and collected our guest tickets. All set for convo..all i need now is another 2 extra tickets for alin n Johnny and well be ready.

Im preety excited but at the same time mixed feelings about everything not going perfectly.silly me..God is in control remember?

As i boarded the bus back to JB so many thoughts started filling my mind..uncertainties,doubts,regrets..i mean its normal considering we're living life everyday around these things. But i just had to stop and remind myself that hey My Daddy in heaven is still in control and i have to do what he told me to and just trust.

I guess everything is going to be alright. I miss my friends already..looking forward for this wk's holiday :) and thursdayy..hope i can blog during the wk-end..ill try hehe..gtg get some sleepp..daddy wants to cycle tmr morning..depends if i can wake up hehe :)

nitezz everyone..you are very much lovedd..

Some of the recording pics

2011-03-12T07:28:00.004+08:00

The gorgeous girls with fantastic vocals
Our amazing vocal producer Patrick Leong

yess thats mee :) hehe

The whole gang..we had loads of fun

cant remember what song we were singing here hehehe

It was an amazing experience and we're looking forward for more..more pics on FB, nai's profilee

official leave :)

2011-03-12T07:20:00.002+08:00

School's out for a week yahoooo :) i know its gonna past super fast but i intend to enjoy every bit of it haha..yesterday as i was teaching the last class i could feel the anticipation rising in me..its not easy to teach when youre distracted haha..

So how do I plan to spend these few days?

Im going to kl todayyy to meet all my sweeties
Collect my convo outfit and tickets for my awesome family
start lesson planning at least for the next month
have discipleship class with the girls
spend more time reading the word and praying (man do i miss it)
clean my roommm :)

And of cos all this has to be done from monday to wed cos Thurday alin will be backkk!! yahoooo..and then its shopping and going crazyy in KL..mummy and daddy will be there too hahas :) and of cos convo's on Sat morning..

Im kinda looking forward to today's bus ride to kl..its been a while since i travelled and i miss those times where i would shut the whole world out and just worship and pray alone with my Daddy God..

Also very much looking forward to meeting those crazy friends of mine..i'll bet we have tons to talk about since we've all started working already hehehe.. its gonna be fun

speaking of.. i havent packed a thing omggg..better get going..

gonna miss the girls here and youth :( ill be back Sunday kay girls?lotsa love

Crystal

Daddy's Embrace

2011-03-10T16:21:00.003+08:00

Owh well thats so far the name of the youth album :) that should be coming out soon..

2 days of endless recording at oopss asia singapore with the amazing producer Patrick Leong. He totally amazed me with the talent, patience and amazing skill.

When we wrote those songs, never did we think that one day it would come out and be recorded as an album :) when i heard everyone singing those songs my heart leaped with joy and I thanked God for His faithfullness.. My prayer is that those songs would impact more than just our church but the generation.

Shan, neereta, naomi, chris, jon, dan you guyz were so awesome and i had so much fun with yall in the freezing recording studio.

m looking forward to more recording sessions till the album is complete..

For now its back to work and yess next week is convoo...i cant wait to c everyone again..

You were one person who encouraged me to write music and I pray that you will start doing it again too..cant you see you have so much potential?

Till next time..lotsa love guyzz

we've had the greatest of times

2011-03-06T08:28:00.003+08:00

I mean no kidding..we really outdid ourselves with the things we did..You guyz are one special bunch i could never fall outta love with..
God really blessed me and favored me by giving me such a treasure of friends :)

Now we know why Visha's car is dented everywhere hehehe

Crazy awesome, amazing days.. now its really BFF from the heart..i miss all of you and I cant wait to c you guyz again..Joe, Arthur, Jia you guyz too :(

U guyz really made me laugh my heart out and i miss laughing that way..

You guys totally won my heart hhehehee (sounds so wrong haha)

Muacks..

Life's simple pleasures

2011-02-26T22:58:00.007+08:00

A lot has been going on these past two weeks..i cant believe i went from omgg im bored to im too busy to even check my Fb profile :) my feed was totally spammed from all the updates today when i checked it haha..

Oh well cant say that im not happy with everything thats going on..remember the interview i told you guys about??the private chinese high school??i got the job and mostly thats whats been taking up my time. New work environment, new challenges, new students, new work prospects, new working hours and most of all brand new and never ending grace of God.

The best part about it is that God made it in such a way that i got everything i ever wanted. Awesome working hours where i can still serve freely, awesome salary, amazing distance from my place and tho im still getting to know them, good students and teachers :)

C what happens when you dont rush and just trust God? I mean after rushing at every crossroad i realised at some point that God is taking care of me and it doesn't make this time any different cos He knows what He is doing and its better to trust Him sometimes rather than to push on something thats not of Him. He has proven to be more than faithful time and time again.

Im learning so many new things every single day and tho it may be challenging at times, I know ill never be alone cos His hand will constantly be in mine leading me and guiding me thru each step of life. So here's to the next exciting phase of my life.I know im never going to be alone.

Working is great but more than that i find myself looking forward to spending time in His presence and serving my heart out cos there is no greater joy. Sometimes im literally out the whole day but when i get home there's a joy in my heart cos my day glorified Him.

Convo's coming up soon and i cant wait to c all my friends again..They mean the world to me and i love all of them so much..

PS- Hannah lee my darling thank you so much for helping me mark the papers today hehe..and angie too..i owe you guyzz..

Today's post is a bit long eh hee..before i go i just wanna say that i miss this (pic below) and I just cant wait till we do it again. You guyzz rock my world. I miss Kampar and how you guys always made me laugh till it hurt..ul literally brought the joy out of me..I miss that.

To everyone who is searching for the next step, i hope this encourages you to never give up and to trust God more than ever cos..

"Every letdown by man is another reason for you to trust God even more" Jia Yo

All my love
Crystal

She's back

2011-02-11T09:14:00.002+08:00

Cheryline Dorcas Nagarajan is backk!! thats what this week is about :) i've missed her so much..im just glad she's around n i get to be with her at home again after so long..

Had an awesome time with Eunice yesterday.. :)

Interview tmr morning at ten..

Discipleship class today at 2. Kinda looking forward to all the insight we will get today from the topic of courage..

Oh well life goes on..Shu ern im still missing you a lot.. need to talk to you today..sorry for being so busy..

Bev atiqah vish ponney and arthur i miss you guyz too :( convo is when we will catch up kays..

Lotsa lovee..

CNY

2011-02-04T21:59:00.003+08:00

Yes yes its finally that time of the year again :) i cant believe im actually saying i look forward to it each year :) and im indian hahah..oh well the getting together having a good time fellowshiping and joking..well priceless :)

Thanks for inviting us over Ps Boey, derrick, Athens, Shan, and Naomi hehe..lkg forward for an awesome time with you guyzz..

Im worship leading this Sunday and i have no idea how my song list is going..sighh..Lord Help plsss..

Im gonna sleep soon..Happy Chinese New year Theng Shu Ern and Beverly Jong i miss you guyzz heaps..

And to all those who think if youre single den youre a monster lemmie tell you i beg to differ, at least in some cases because you can give the best years of your life to God without any distractions..

My time??its in His hands so no one is going to rush me :) quite stern on that one..

March 19th i cant wait to c everyone again..lotsa love..nitezz

Well done

2011-01-27T10:31:00.002+08:00

OH mY Lord she got an A for her killer paper..SOCCA

Cheryline Dorcas Nagarajan im soo proud of you..We all literally stayed up praying for you while you were studying hehe..

Thank You Jesus for your favor and grace seeing her thru.

Muacks Congrats again..and I cant wait for you to get back :)

All my love..

Food poisoning

2011-01-26T05:05:00.004+08:00

Its 5.05am man and im wide awake..fell asleep peacefully about 10 ish just to be woken up at 3.45 for no particular reason. Kept tossing and turning wondering why on earth i cant sleep n suddenly the moment of truth when my tummy started hurting ;)

It has been a long night and i have visited the tolet 3 times in 1 and half hours..omgg the worst part is i still cant sleep ahhhhh..In one hour Hannah Lee will be calling to wake me up. Guess she was right :) i should have just stayed awake hehehe..

So much for that, lets just give you a brief update of the week-end..in one word?i would say fantastic..i had so much fun esp friday when we went to the junk sale and derrick's long awaited birthday dinner :) i mean these ppl are super fun to be with n i love them with their innocence and youth..Saturday rocked as well with youth mtg..Chandru omgg seriously you should take the mike more often..There was such a presence of God and im sure everyone felt it too.

Oh yeaaa did i mention my bestie came back hahaah..so yeaa preety much funn..n Sundayy instructor training course hmmmm was alright i guess..thank God Chris was there to make it a lil bearable..Everyone is so mature and smart, we mite as well shhh :).Lunch with the guyzz after church and again lots of planning and deciding and visions and dreams..It actually pays off to be with people who have vision and dreams and who are just not satisfied with what there is but want more out of God and Life..Their passion drives me to serve and Love more in the coming days.

As much as their passion drives me i hope shan,hannah,naomi,angie,christina,neereta, and Eunice you guyzz will be driven with the same passion to love God and never stop serving Him wherever you guyz are and whatever you do..Discipleship yesterday was about patience and boy do i have a lot of learning to do especially when it comes to this topic.

Kinda looking forward to today..planning nvr ceases when there is an event coming up..so Sandy Saturday is going to be amazing and we're just 3 days away..I seriously need to get some sleep..

13 days more and ul be back my lil girl..hang in there..I love you and im praying for you muacks.

I mean seriously..no kidding..time to work outt darnn.. :) i miss my jogging partner miss Jong and my swimming partner miss Theng..You guyzz rock my world.

And Shu ern you are super special to me..if i were to write a whole post abt you den i think blogspot couldnt contain the pages i'd write..lemmie just summ it up to i miss you very much and maybe once i've summarized everything i'd write one post just for you hehe..love you hunie..

I wanna sleeppp zzzzz..

Gan en

2011-01-14T10:04:00.002+08:00

This week has been an absolute bummer for me..each day with all the bullets shooting from every angle until i felt like omgg i wanna give up. If this is life den i mite as well not live it ya know?

I was so fed up and i reached my end on thursday..i told myself sternly "baby girl you gotta stop being so forlorn and start rising up above it cuz ur better than that".

I just made a decision to come out of it n i went to play the piano n worship a while before i went out job hunting again n still no relief cuz inside me was all messed up and my mind was everywhere. Suddenly The Holy Spirit promted me to just start giving thanks n thats what i started doing. For the things i had, For the things i din have and just for everything.

A lil while after that i felt soo much better ;)..there is power in giving thanks. It not only changes your situation but it also changes youu.It totally renews your passion for God and your trust in Him.

Went for 2 job interviews yesterday n trusting God for more open doors :). most of all im looking forward to today's meeting..its going to be amazing :)

God you are so Faithful and there is nothing I can't trust you for. I absolutely lovee You.

6 days??

2011-01-12T09:48:00.002+08:00

Watt?? has it been that long since my last post??oh man..i do have a lot to tell hehe..but here's something for a start..

Shannon, Naomi, Angiee, Hannah, Christina

The more i get to know you guyz the more i Love yall..

Wake up at 6am everyday..need to get used to that heheh.. But every bit is worth it if im praying for you guyz..c yall soon

Ill update more soon..soon..veryy soon.

Neong Chee Kien (Arthur)

2011-01-06T22:20:00.002+08:00

Thats what everyone calls him.. ;)

I can still remember the first time i saw him. In my mind i was like hey looks like a decent smart guy..hmm lets talk to him..and the talking never stopped since then. Everyone thought he was a freak in Year 1(except Shu ern). He talked too much, made stupid jokes,disrupted class and always wanted to know your quiz results..Oh man you must be thinking what a pain :)

Little did i know that this pain in the *&% would be one of my closest friends today. He turned out to be the most caring, most gentle, most intelligent and most precious friend anyone of us could find. When you are sick he is the first one there, when you miss class his would be the first text and when quiz results are out his first words would be "eh nvm laa results are nothing wan.I also simply do only". hahahahaha

Last week he drove down all the way from KL with beautiful Jia Wei just to spend New Year's eve with us. If you say friendship is a gift, now i know what you mean. He may say the stupidest things sometimes and if you din know him it would bug you but for us it makes us smile.

Jia Wei you are one lucky girl and Arthur we are all super lucky friends to have you. Thanks for the awfully long comment you left on Yesterday's post. Youre going to do awesome in Your masters and in your life cuz all you've sowned is goodness and kindness. We will always be friends bro. You can count on that..

This post is just for you. Thanks for all you have been.

Arthur Neong Chee Kien Ladies and Gentleman :)

The most embarassing moment of 2011 :)

2011-01-05T19:54:00.002+08:00

Went swimming today :) haha..it was awesome and super relaxing, but when i got out i think i was a bit blur and i literally walked into the men's toilet hahahah..the people outside were staring at me like what on earth are you doing..and suddenly i realised omggg im in the wrong toilett..what to do but to go out and laugh it off..lol..omggg honestly joke of the year hehehehe :)

Today was fun..had all that time to myself..but im kinda getting bored so plsss someone call me for an interview :)

A brand new dawn

2011-01-03T23:25:00.008+08:00

After a long 3rd day of 2011 im just sitting down n thinking of the past 3 weeks and smiling to myself..How on earth did so many things happen in such a short time?

10th-12th Dec- Camp Extreme

The campers were amazing..each and everyone of them participated in all the events and their talents were unleashed omg it was also an awesome experience working with Chris, Brett, John n Dan. I mean these guys are full of enthusiasm and ideas..I will forever remember this camp and the effect it had on all of us after (backache, sore knees, headache, fever) hehehehehe..and the few sessions that we had were really impactful. I mean there was literally a strong presence of God that i believe transformed the young people's lives. Thanks for allowing God to use you Johnny :). All that said i hope everyone enjoyed themselves and had something to take back after camp.

13th Dec- 27th Dec -Bandung with my family

These 2 weeks were a wonderful time of rest, spending time with my family and most importantly spending time with my beloved Daddy God.It was amazing having alin with me and laughing again with her..arguing about silly things like who is going to shower first and who is the bomb hehe..she is so amazing.the strength that she has is inspiring and she serves and loves with all her heart. Though she is gorgeous and elegant with high expectations and desires, she is super simple at heart in her relationship with God, full of wisdom and honour. I love her so much and i've gotten to know so much more about her this trip. We did so many fun things together too (putting up the christmas tree, having a christmas party, going for worship practices together, celebrating christmas day wearing the wacky hat in Bandung)omgg when the 27th came i din wanna come back :'( i miss her so much but i know she will be back soon..gotta hang in there :) I treasure her and the time spent together. When i told her she's my life this time like i always do she said "im everybody's life and I got no life" heheheehhe ok be no more life life all..ur just my baby sis.hehehe.

29th Dec 2010 - 1st Jan 2011- Shu ern, Visha, Arthur and Jia Wei came

We had so much fun omgg..cant remember the last time i did so many stupid things hehe..we were teasing Visha about how she has become an aunty ade and Shu ern about her sex change. I love this bunch and im so grateful for each of them. Meeting tee after so long was so nice too..i almost cried when she hugged me omgg rindu sangat sigh..Arthur you ass thanks for driving down all the way and Jia ur so sweet for coming too..I hope you guyz had a good time and ul will come again. I miss yall already :) the best part was the countdown to 2011 heheeh it was like we were waiting at Danga bay with probably a thousand other ppl and at minight...nothing..omgg how dissapointing hehehehe..it seems the Sultan's smth smth passed away..bummer hehe.but i was happy cuz they were all there..and derrick, sam, josh boey and jon were there too..New year rocked lots :)

1st Jan -3rd Jan

New Year Service and Sunday service both were awesome and omgg Johnny again i have to say it ur so God's precious one hehe..worship was amazing and daddy preached..really opened my eyes to many new revelations in my walk with him.

The one thing i told God a week before New year was that if i could have something this year i really want Him to intensify my intimacy with Him. We all need intimacy everyday and many times we waste it on things that dont satisfy when God is longing for us and Longing to be intimate with us. Omg im enjoying being intimate with Him till i wish everyone who reads this will come to this realisation too..He speaks to you and comforts you and like a friend He fellowships with you just longing to fall in love with you. I want more intimacy with the Holy Spirit in year 2011.

Thank You daddy God for seeing me thru year 2010..Your Faithfullness and Love is what has got me thru the year and I believe you will keep leading me step by step as I draw closer to You.

Excited to start discipleship tmr with the girls..ill update soon

Blessed New Year, All my Love

The world

2010-11-05T01:46:00.003+08:00

If you live life based on people's emotions and care towards you den i have to tell you that you will keep getting dissapointed cuz we're all human, and no one is perfect. People will love you and praise you today but they will curse you and take it out on you tmr, probably becos you failed or fell short of being a good friend. Everyone has their shortcomings but true friends stick with you thru it all. Put your hope not in man but in God. He is the only one who will never dissapoint you..No point getting hurt time and time again..learn to love and cherish the people who really care and are sincere..they will always be there for you no matter what :)

Looking forward to meeting all my darlings tmr..especially Visha and Jolyn hehe my monkey and my former housemate hehe..Of cos the rest of you guyz too :)

Missing you Ponney hehe

They keep me going

2010-11-03T19:52:00.007+08:00

Just got back home after a really really long day phew..played with the kids after school till i was sweating like mad hehehe..oh well im happy..things are good..knowing that

Their smiles and laughter will keep me going throughout the day

That this preety girl will be waiting for me every morning with a smile so sweet that it could light up my whole day..knowing that i will never be lonely if she's at school :)

Of cos i cant resist their cuteness..feel like catching them and biting them hehe

Last but not least just knowing that my baby girl is safe in Bandung, happy with her darling..I miss her..

Gotta get cleaning now :) wish me all the best

Growing up :(

2010-11-02T23:28:00.002+08:00

Finally finished my resume sigh..now its job hunting time..

man i wish i had more time to just be a kid again you know??

Lord I pray you will lead and guide my every step..my trust is in You..make something worthwhile of this life :)

Atiqah Zubir

And Theng Shu Ern

If youre reading this..i miss you guyzz like crazyy :( why do i feel lyk we're drifting..Its good that ill be seeing you this Fri Jong..im super excited..got to go get some closed eye or ill be dead at work tmr..nitey nite

Today

2010-11-01T22:53:00.006+08:00

Wow bud, i love the effect on this one :) hope it made alin smile just like it did me..thankus..

huhuhuhu i wan an iphone plssss hehehe...

Oh well what day..super busy in school the whole day from one practice to another..finally managed to clear the mess in we are the world and merge the whole group together for rehearsal..kinda liked the last part of the song where everyone sang super nice together :).. Also kinda loved the new song teacher carol choose for the 10 commandments hee..boogiee..wohooo..Cant beleive how much fun work can be..at the same time i gotta say its preety tiring..

Also tried singing captivate us with Athens just now..I have to admit it is one of the most amazing songs i've ever listened to..i mean woww it has such a sweet melody and the words are just so ministering..coolest..was thinking of doing it one of these Sundays in service..oh well we'll c how it goes..

Now im just lying down listening to sermon and thinking of this wk-end..i cant wait to c those monkeys again hehe :) miss them so much..sure hope everything goes as planned and we have the best wk end ever..

missing my alin very much..bet she is super happy..wish i could capture the look on her face right now..

Guyz, God promises that for the shame we have endured he will restore us with double honour..Our God is super faithful so quit trusting man or your own understanding cuz He has plans for you that you could never dream of..whatever ur going thru right now just remember that it is just temporary, and He will c you thru soon enough with double honour..

Love you guyzz :)

back to life again

2010-10-31T23:52:00.004+08:00

Omg im so sorry i havent written in soo long :)

I am officially back in Jb for good..after finals we went for our class trip, i got back to KL and went straight to Kampar to collect my stuff..came back to JB after and have been here ever since..I am happy to be home, with mummy and daddy and serving again. God is so faithful you guyzz..you have to hear this..

When i came home in my heart i wanted to work for about a month just so i could spend a good Christmas with my baby girl in Bandung. But i mean my human mind told me who on earth will give you a job for just a month common get real :) .. so i just took it easy..relaxed at home and enjoyed teaching some tuition to the guyzz..but on the 19th of Oct (Sunday) Teacher Carol came up to me and said, "hey..you said you wanted to work for just a month, would you like to come to me school as a creative arts teacher??" I was like, creative arts??what on earth will I teach man??common im not that talented also hehe..but obviously i said okay i will come in tmr.

Lemmie tell you something its amazing to trust God in your imposibilities cuz He always comes thru for you and in your incapabilities, God makes His strength shine thru you.. The school is awesome..what im teachin??i absolutely love it and im learning so much everyday..the students are super sweet too..oh well 3 wks to go and den im unemployed again but i know that just as God has been faithful before, He will be again hee..Did i mention how cute the lil kids are?i just wanna catch them and cuddle them..here's one of them hehe

Also recordings have started for our new album which will hopefully be launched in the beggining of next year. My first experience of stepping into a recording studio was terrifying..singing and hearing your own voice alone in the recording studio with a vocal producer there to tell you where you were pitchy omggg..scaryy..but honestly I couldnt stop thanking God all the way cuz this opporcunity would have nvr come along if not for His devine appointment. It all seems so impossible to me but again i have to remember im just human..and My Father, is God so nothing is ever impossible with him :) ..It was so awesome singing with alin and having fun just listening to our songs be recorded..we sang the song Your Grace till we din wanna sing it anymore hehehe..Hopefully others will sing it, be blessed and continue singing it :)

This morning when i heard how one of the songs ministered to my best friend i was so blessed. The thing with us is we never realise that when God gives you talent and you use it for His glory, There is a measure of anointing and grace that is released that will bless others, and God is pleased and glorified too. So dont ever keep your talent hidden inside..use to for His glory.

Im working tmr and im still awake :) oh well im not really tired yet..Being back in Jb im so grateful I have my mummy and daddy as well as my best friend and Chandru and Athens and the girls around just to be with me and make life so beautiful..I do miss my gals from Kampar and my baby girl tho..so glad Johnny is going there soon..have fun bud and give her a kiss for me :)

I love both of them :)

I love him :)

Oh well the last two pics are some recent pics we took in penang..I'll write again soon..Oh yeaa forgot to mention..im loving my new baby vaio hehee..Till next time stay blessed and dont forget to bless others..love you guyzz..

Nostalgic

2010-09-24T19:46:00.004+08:00

Officially started packing everything into boxes yesterday n now im 90% done..When Shu ern came yesterday i told her babe ur so gonna cry man hehe..we have exactly 2 days of craziness before we leave Kampar for good man thats kinda sad but exciting at the same time..

Had a silly watergun fight yesterday, all of us omgg :). we happened to see these RM 1 water guns and decided to have some fun. The result??everyone was drenched hehehe..craziness..

Arthur ur such an idiot but we're gonna miss you so much man..youre craziness and how you just talk nonsense the whole time making us laugh..and how youre so caring..dang hehe..hang in there man its all gonna be fine haha..we're always gonna be friends forever hahaha.

If not for UTAR i would have nvr heard about Kampar even hehe..thats soo weird..this small 'kampung' totally changed our lives.

Alright i got to go..Profesional Writing awaits tmr

missing you Cheryline Dorcas Nagarajan :) dada

There my all sufficient study group.. :) 9pm guyzz..Jia and Arthur will be comin too c ya :)

its all in 2's

2010-09-22T12:52:00.005+08:00

So...

I finished my thesis 2 weeks agooooo yeahhhh!!!! that was a total relief :)
2 days ago my baby girl went back to bandung..aih aih aih going mad
I am now missing the 2 most amazing wacky people who make my whole world go nuts
I have another 2 days before my next paper 'pro writing' dang
2 more papers to graduation
after that its 2 crazy nights at genting with the darlings who changed my whole world for the last three years :)
And then comes homeee with my 2 amazing parents, "mama, papa im coming homeeee!!
Last but not least i cant wait for the 2nd of Oct where we will be celebrating tee's 22nd

I cant believe how 3 years just went by like that man it still puzzles me..so many things have changed and even i have changed..hmmm not to mention alin and john and shu ern, tee bev and all my wack friends..seriously how on earth would i have survived all the drama without the love and support of my family and friends. Oh well Daddy God your faithfulness is never ending and I know i would have nvr made it thru without your love..I will love you always..

I usually hate decision making and stepping into the next phase of life but this time im kinda excited cuz i know its all in Your hands.

Anyone wanna c a crazy person??watch me this coming Monday!!omgg i cant wait.i don't even feel like studying for my last paper :) i just hope daddy doesn't read this hehehehe ill be so dead :)

So i guess its goodbye studying and hello working life for a while..I love you guyzz my darlings in Kampar..you guyz mean the world to me.

Alin n John you guyzz drive me nuts..get married soon plsss i can't wait..

Alright i will update again in 2 days??hehehe maybe :) love yall..muacks

Drama drama drama

2010-09-06T01:37:00.002+08:00

Im in jb...yes yes i am (yawn)..right now??im in mac d with alin n jon basically just doing nth or maybe trying to edit my thesis dang..kinda wish i was in Kampar tho cuz there would be more focus..Oh well make the best outta what i've got..For now im just tired and i wanna sleep..also a bit puked up about all the drama :( arghhhhhh!!! Theng Shu Ern i need you..seriously mann..anyway watever laa..

Wish i could be there for you :( Im praying for you kays? stay strong

Right i gtg real life awaits..about that post on my classmates??lets just put that on hold for now shall we? be back soon..

12 days in counting

2010-08-24T09:49:00.003+08:00

I was just thinking since there are just 12 days left of lectures and since its our last sem i'd just write something abt the 12 precious classmates i have. Lets c how well i've gotten to know them thru these years eh :) first off

Jolyn Ong Chooi Leng

She is my awesome housemate :)
She encourages me to keep my walk with Daddy going
We always talk about church and youth and things that excite us
She takes good care of me when im not feeling well
She loves all the weird things like onions and ginger yuckie
She is gorgeous
She is super commited to the love of her life edric (6 years and still going strong)
omgg how could i have forgotten.she is the class genius 4.0 gpa mind you
she is super humble n always helps us out when we need it
dont mess with her when she's cranky rawwwww!!
she wakes me up for morning classes :)
She will scold me if i ever say im stupid or cannot do it hehe
She is damn caring and sweet and just awesome
I love her soo much..there is much more but cant fit in this post laa hehe

Thats joe my darling :) next we have beverly jong the monkey

Beverly Jong Lian Pin

Bev is hawtttt..
She is fun loving and very funny at times
She loves jogging and keeping her hot body in shape
She works really hard to do well and she does
She has changed soo much for the better since year 1
She is super duper caring tho she will nvr agree with me on that
She loves mac d and fries
She would probably die without Arias
She plays the guitar and sings super well
Her poetry and writing inspire me :)
She loves apples :)
Most of all she loves mee hahahahhaha

I love you bev..ur amazing..So there you have it the two for today :) more to come..

My best friend

2010-08-23T09:32:00.003+08:00

Early this morning when i woke up i thought man

Im just really grateful for my best friend

Never thought i'd end up having such a close buddy that would stick with me

through all those years of growing n becoming the ppl we are today

Yea we've had our crazy up and down moments where sometimes i wanted to kill you ;)

but i guess its all God's Divine appointment that we stuck on

Oh well..I love you eventho ur an ass hehehehehe

I also absolutely love the way ur in love with my baby girl :)

stay cool best bud n in the process of reminding others that they are special

dont forget that you are incredibly special too

lotsa lovee :)

hope we remain best friends for life haha..

today??its not norm stuff its all in incredible stuff hehehe

sorry i just had to do it :)

6 years in counting hehe

Quoting you;

In the hour of adversity be not without hope

for Crystal rain falls from black clouds

Dang

2010-08-22T14:48:00.002+08:00

:( what an awesome way to start my super emoo post for today..arghhh i miss home super much..sigh..I cant even vaguely remember the last time i saw daddy..and no one is answering my call or replying my message from home..ahhhh what on earth are you guyz doing??How did the worship go this morning??i wanna knowww ish ish ish..

I really dont know what on earth i am still doing here..its all coming to an end soon but i really cant seem to see the end..dang..data analysis is killing me and i havent even started my final chapter yet. Daddy can I have some assistance plss :)

On a lighter note i got this cute sms from darling Collette today sayin smth lyk she dosent wanna friend me anymore cuz i din go back but i am her best sister or smth heheheheh that was damn funny..i just read it and fell back asleep..

Im tired, cranky and just emoo..wth is going on seriously..hah.. THENG SHU ERN pls come back soon..im missing your idioticity (if there is even such a word)..

This final sem is really killing me..everyone's complaining abt how they've gained weight..even Arthur can you believe it??i mean i know what they mean..no time for anything at all other than eat, sleep, do thesis, do assignments??can go mad wann..lack of sleep,lack of mee time,sometimes even find it hard to find time to pray :( i miss jogging, i miss swimming,i miss keeping fit dammit..ahhhhhhhhhhhhh..and DADDY's complaining ade..arghhh wat to doo???can someone explain to him plsss..

Oh well im just busy and really tired i guess..enough venting ade..whoever is reading this spare some time to pray for me oks?hehe..got to get back to it..

Ps-someone from home better call me soon :) dada

Norm stuff :)

2010-08-17T18:22:00.007+08:00

Im just sitting in front of my lappy finishing my slides for tmr's linguistic presentation and i cant help but to think of the amazing wk-end I had with mum,alin,carmel and Johnny..not forgetting the youths too :) i still wish i could be there in jb with her..but Lord im thankful for such an amazing time you gave us..these are just a few pics..she will upload more later hehe..

The night Carmel supposed to leave :) b4 the drama

Paintball with youth outbreak..it was fun but sakit siaa ouch

before getting trashing hahahaha

makaning some awesome food at esp

Real nice

I love this one hehe

He is a happy man after 4 months

I miss them :( love the view tho

Orchard road

Ice-creammmm

ION orchard

On the way to Orchard (I lovee the dress :) thanku lin)

Just before leaving :)

Notice the pics are all upsidedown hehehe sorry bout that.too lazy to rearrange..I had so much fun that now im lazy to get back to work darn heheh..

I wish i could go back this wk-end too sigh..oh well..if i finish everything i definately am going back :)

I miss you guyz at home,have lotsa fun okay..muacks

got to get back to work..

Lemmie go HOME

2010-08-12T20:20:00.002+08:00

She is finally homeeee...that lil brat..i cant wait to c her hehehe..

I've got a feeling this wk end is gonna be awesome yahooooooo

Ill update soon okayyy :)

Cant wait to go home n c her..kisssessss muackss

Enjoy your week-end everyone

Lotsa loveee

because they mean the world to me

2010-08-10T23:54:00.002+08:00

I Am Preety certain that

No matter how many assignments we have to finish
Or how many arguments we have

Or how much we've bitched about each other

Or if life just sucks

somehow its gonna be okay cuz they will always be there..darling friends..including Visha and ponney.I love you guyzz

Our class photoshoot was on Monday morning and after that as spontanious as we are, we ended up in Ipoh.. The best times

Wish me luck for my Thesis and Assignments ppl I really need it right now.

Never Give Up

2010-08-01T23:02:00.006+08:00

Im just thanking God for the place that i am in right now...

Its only By Your grace Lord that I've come this far

Guyz, My best friend reminded me today twice to nvr give up

So here i am telling all of you

Ur just a prayer away from your victory

Dont look at your circumstances n give up cuz what is ahead is amazing

Your blessed days and your best days are ahead of you

Just hang in there n put your trust in Jesus. He will c you thru

Trust me i've been there before

I tot better of you seriously..ur better than that. i hope you realise that soon..

How its been

2010-07-31T02:26:00.002+08:00

Typical dinner scenario

Atiqah : Guyz where are we going for dinner cuz i need to tell syafiq now la

Shu Ern: I don't care i want my fried chicken

Bev: I dont think im joining for dinner tonight..

Crystal: come la bev if not what you gonna eat

Bev: I got my apples :)

Crystal: Wowwwww apples eh bev heheheh..

Shu Ern: eh faster laaaa come lets go ghani

Visha n Ponney : eh we dont like the food there laa summo we're vege today

Crystal : okok ghani at 7 siapa nak datang datang okayyy hehehe

Thats how its been for the past 2 years

Seriously what on earth am i gonna do without you guyzz..

45 days in counting roughly that is

Amazing Love

2010-07-28T19:11:00.002+08:00

So i've been extremely busy and tied down with so many things that i havent reallly had time to focus on anything but my thesis and assignments, and when Johnny asked me to lead worship on Sunday i was like "whatttt?? no way bud im really in no position to stand up there and lead the congregation in worship.

But knowing me he just left it and eventually i said okay. My heart was totaly heavy and i was soo not in the right mood. Although sat was the best cuz i got to meet my darlings again and go handbilling (my favorite)heheheh still at the back of my mind i was thinking omgg tmr how???

On Sunday morning while i was getting ready i was just talking to God n i said "Lord seriously i cant, i'm struggling and I really need you to intervene today. And suddenly a still small prompting in my heart said "My grace is sufficient for you and my strength will be made perfect in your weakness." wooowwwwww immediately all the fear just dissapeared and there was a peace and calm in my heart.

God is really faithful and He will never leave us. Its we who sometimes falter and run away from His love and mercy.

Shan led awesome too for 2nd service..it was amazing..

Oh well im back in Kampar now tackling week 9. I really need God's grace and mercy to help me out. So if youre reading this plsss pray for meee..and my darlings in JB I love you guyz so much..have fun this wk end n ill c ul in Ipoh for United kays.

right guys i have 8 o clock class tmr morning..gtg get some sleep..love yall..

PS: I miss you alin..

Thank You Lord

2010-07-08T14:56:00.003+08:00

All i can say is that I am so happy..I cant even begin to express the joy that is in my heart

Delight yourself in the Lord and He will grant you the desires of your heart

Even the smallest most insignificant desire He takes into account..

Lord its Your faithfullness, I love you

Rushing for class ade hehe..

Byeeeeee

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2010-07-06T22:17:00.004+08:00

im tired and i need some motivation argh..am i ever going to finish this paper??

36 days in counting baby..hang in there

why are guyzz sometimes so hard to handle?? Don worry sweetheart ur gonna be just fine..

I love youu..

Theng Shu Ern, Atiqah, Visha, Joe, Ponneey, we better be going to Langkawi..im gonna miss u guyss..

okayyy im officially manifesting ade hehe

Time to get back to it..dada!

Creativity is A God given gift

2010-07-04T20:35:00.001+08:00

Isn't it beautiful? this was alin's Father's day gift to daddy..I think its so sweet..ur the best girly

Just Another Sunday

2010-07-04T20:18:00.004+08:00

Just finished talking to my baby girl..darn i miss her..talked endlessly and i cant remember how long its been since i laughed like that hehehehe..Those of you who have sisters u know what im sayin right? hehehe..CRAZYYY..

Oh well i promised her id count down for her return so its 38 days babyy hehe..

And look out yall Cheryline n Crystaline's latest song will be out soon..yeahhh!!

She called me with this beautiful melody and lyrics..need's a lil bit of work den we're ready to sing it..omgg i miss writing songs with her. In this case its mostly her song..Proud of you baby girl!!

Again all Glory to God..

PS-i miss you guyzz in JB..my sayangs..n i miss my babiiisss..guyz come back here quick we've got FYP to finish okkk hehe..

Guys never forget that ur not alone in this journey of life..The holy spirit is right there speaking to you..Be sensitive to him continue to build a love relationship with him okay?

Love all of you so much..not forgetting you my ass of a best buddy!!hehe lotsa love

There we are in our own worlds Shan looks gorgeous..miss you syg..

I love this song omgg

2010-07-03T18:03:00.003+08:00

You Are (Darlene and Ron Kenoly)

You are the Love of my Life
You are the hope that I cling to
You mean more than this world to me

I wouldnt trade you for silver or gold
I wouldnt trade you for riches untold
You are,
You are my everything

I wouldnt take one step without You
I could never go on
I couldn't live one day without You
I dont have the strength
to make it on my own

Until the world stops turning
Until the stars fade, from the sky
Until the sun stops striving
I need You in my life and here's the reason why

I miss you

2010-07-03T15:24:00.002+08:00

Hey lin..things used to be so easy with you around..nothing ever seemed to bother me..seriously why did life have to take you so far away from me?

I bet youre reading this going lyk WHAT THE HECK IS WITH THE EMO MAN!!!

But i know you miss me too..lemmie quote you in one of your letters to me okay?? ;)

"I wish I could use words to tell you how special you are"

Oh wow thats so sweet..I really admire your strength and endurance in everything you do..ur full of grace, love, excellence and values beyond what you could imagine. Despite your situation you still find time to encourage others.

I love you and yess im counting down the days till you get your hot, sexy ass back here..

I guess sisters forever is an understatement to describe our relationship..more life BFF

muaxxx.. 40 Days in counting!!

Pictures still speak the most universally spoken language

2010-07-03T14:11:00.006+08:00

Wow thats like the longest title ever hehe..i know the update's been a long overdue so let these pics tell you more abt whats been going on ayt?

14th April 2010 (I turned 23)

My awesome clasmates surprised me with more than just a wonderful cake.. haha..I love you guyz so much thank you.. I also had a birthday dinner with my awesome family at a Japanese restaurant..delicious..Daddy kinda hated it but we loved it hehe..

After that it was Prep for exams, and exams n then

On the 17th May 2010 (I left to Bandung)

I had the most amazing week with my lil sister..Im telling you just being with her i was overjoyed. Nothing can exchange that joy i felt. Shopping,eating,laughing,sharing,arguing..man She is my life :( More of the other pics on FB

The weeks after that were filled with practices for the youth xplosion concert..Although it was tiring but man it was so much fun and the whole conference was amazing too..many lives were touched and transformed. I'm looking foward for more..

Last week was syafiq's birthday at Darby park so we all went over, and again we had so much fun catching up and just going crazyy like we always do hehe..

After that i've been in Kampar, mostly stressing over my FYP and assignments sighs..I wish i could go home but i really need to finish this.. after im done ill go home..

miss mummy, daddy and alin soo much..

To my darling girls in JB i love you guys so much..ill be back soon okay? Promise..till then yall keep shining that light of yours..muaxx

Gtg..ill write more soon hehe loves..

Someone get me outta here

2010-05-10T21:12:00.004+08:00

I guess writing once a month is becoming a real bad habit. I have so many things to say but just dont have the time to update this page at all. Anyways ill update as soon as exams are over and im back from BANDUNG!!!yes yes im going to bandung to be with my girl for a wk..

For now its exams and if anyone is reading this plsss keep me in prayer tmr..its my last paper..really need His mercy and grace.

Jonathan Chandra hang in there okay?Like you said He who called you is faithful so put on that awesome smile you have and have some fun kays? ill be back to help you out with whatever i can soon haha..

missing home, mummy and daddy and my bed!! Kampar is full of insects arghhhh!!

gtg loves all..

want a pic? okay just one i guess..

Why this one Crystal??you're not even in it??

Oh well because firstly its a beautiful pic that reminds us about how wonderful love is and when youre having a bad day n you look at this pic it kinda reminds you that things are going to be alright.

Secondly i miss both of them soo much..Shu ern keeps scolding me and saying I shouldnt miss them too much but i cant help it..I love you guyss hehe..

Alright over and out..pray for me yeaa thanks..Ill update soon all the lost info..:)

Too tired to even complain

2010-04-08T00:38:00.003+08:00

Yeaa i know its been a month since my last post..im soo busy that its not funny anymore..aih tired..so lets c whats been making me lose all my energy..

My Thesis (FYP)- I love Mr Krishnan but damn its one helluva paper to write
All the miserable assignments- why cant they give us fewer subjects so we can focus on fyp? more than 10 i think..crazyy..
All the classes we have to attend..especially on Monday-haih
The travelling-no complains here JB is awesome and seeing ma and pa every week is a bonus, also the serving is wow i do enjoy it..God is so faithful im telling u..
Late nights- assignments and all..
Missing that lil girl of mine- what on earth lin?ur so far away..i need you seriously..
All the class drama-can you believe she stopped speaking and glarred?who cares weih seriously hahahha.
Life's temprimental moments- seriously its draining.

Oh well there's more but i just dont know how to put it into writing..im just exhausted..right now i want a good night's sleep and some good home cooked food for a change hahahha..Ohyeaaa we did celebrate Shu Ern and Bev's birthday despite the busy(ness) and that was rewarding. I love you guyz darlings..

My class totally rocks..i dont think i'd ever be able to find such a diverse yet close knitted group of ppl with the same crazy ideas and interests..I love you guyzz..

Okay i need to get back to my work..i guess its no sleep for the next 48 hours..i can catch up on my sleep on the way back to JB i guess..yeaaaa im going back again..so not me right.hahaha..darn that reminds me i havent bought tix yet..

Alright gtg..remember..

Thats what friends are for..

Hectic

2010-03-09T10:06:00.004+08:00

Remember when we first came to this hell hole??

Anyways, Compared to the title of my post, im just sitting in front of y lappy and staring..I dont even know where to start. Its already week 8 and we have so much going on but omg i just have no mood arghhhhhh..i even forgot about replacement class yesterday(how could I)? This is bad real bad..I really have to start bucking up man..

Oh well its crazy over here with my thesis, assignments, presentations and constant consultation hours with my lecturers (not that i hate the part of sitting in the air-cond chatting with them)but is just so much work ahhhhhh..Looking at things right now? It will only be by His grace that I am able to finish that awfully long thesis paper.. Lord Help plss..Final year man, just the thought of 'IT' ending in 6 months stresses me out.

How the heck am I gonna live without all these monkeys in my life.. With Visha constantly bugging my life all throughout class and Beverly showing me her monkey face early in the mornings, with Shu Ern and her whining all day about how sien or tired she is and atiqah complaining how much she's gained weight.And Joe knocking on my door waking me up in the mornings and just screaming my name in the middle of nowhere n Kl,Ponney and the rest oh well mostly i disturb them but still not having all of them around..omg i dont know how the heck im gonna do it seriously.. :(

I guess like I always say and i will say again 'LIFE GOES ON' but you guys if ur reading this i hope that the friendship we have will last no matter where in the world life takes us. There's always facebook and e-mails and since ur all english majors it wont hurt to do a lil bit of writing would it??and plsss LIEW KOON LENG and JOLYN ONG CHOOI LENG wedding invitations hahahhahaha.

I love you guys man..I do.. we've been thru 3 years of hell together and now its really ending..damn..

Ponney darling i hope you had lotsa fun yesterday..remember this day always kays..we wore party hats like idiots esp Shu Ern with the hannah montana hahahahahhaha so you would be happy.. WE all love you..Happy Birthday again yeaa?muaxx..

Ok I have to get my life together and start doing some organizing before i forget more things..ill write more soon..loves..

Going back to Jb this week-end hehehe..lkg forward..Buddy you owe me one hahahahhha nah im kidding..anything for friendship..

loves..

Butterfly kisses

2010-03-07T16:19:00.013+08:00

So the week with her was amazing..I couldnt even start to explain how awesome it felt to have my lil girl back and just to chat and laugh with her again without the distance..I do miss her soo much..I always wish she wasnt so far away..but like i always say life goes on yea??Let me bring you through the journey of the 1 week where the world din seem like such a terrible place..hahahahhaha..oh well she is amazing and she makes everything so simple..

Straght to Mac D after touchdown yahooo
Miss this craziness..

Finally a family meal after such a long time..

Happy Parents

Grandma and her

Uhhhhhhh time for some shopping..no one does it better than her..

yeaaa we couldnt control ourselves..mummy's an angel for following us and going crazy with us too

Uhhhhhh macam sama jer..

Food glorious food!!hehehe awesome wasnt it baby

Now thats what im talkinh about..BEAUTIFUL!!!

Before our road trip..

Retards ahahahhaha spot the plastic bag..

Lunch in Melaka awesomeeeee

OMG i bet Johnny really misses that face..

Amazing afternoon with the people i treasure and love

uhhhhh monkeyyyyy watch outtt!!!!!hehehhehehe

The family slide hehehe..i almost fell off..omg hehehehehe super funny..i bet Johnny is laughing hiss ass off now hehehe..

Talking abt life??

thats the smile I love to c..I hope she is always happy like this n nothing ever takes that gorgeous smile away..

hahhahahahahaha...crazyy fun..

After the swim..she looks so preety..man Johnny..ur one lucky guy u know that hehe..

Enjoying the sights of A Famosa..

Endless love..when I look at how they love each other it reminds me of how beautiful life realy is..i miss u guyzz..

Crazyyyyy..on the way to the airport..

Super sweet..perfect pic guyzz..

How the heck did one week go by so fast..

awwww stop fussing lil one heheehehe..

i miss her so much..sighsss..

My best girl and my best buddy..perfect match..I love you guyss..

So the week with her went by like a hurricane and now its no alin again for the next like 10 weeks?

Crystaline: I miss alin, i wish she was here, damn how come she's so far away, where's that girl when i need her..

Johnny: I miss her endlessly. I wish she was here....

Oh well those are the few sentences you will be hearing from the two emooo ppl for a while so pla bear with us..hahahahahha..baby girl I love you so much..thank you for making life so amazing for me..thank you for making me smile and look at life in a different light..ur the best and im always gonna be here for you kays? ur gonna make it bigg..

I miss you..10 weeks in counting..

Theng Shu Ern I love you so much darling..you have to remember that kays..muaxx

Hope

2010-03-07T04:10:00.006+08:00

I've found a friend in you.. An awsome, incredible friend in you..Thank you..

PS: Hey Shawty hang in there kays its gonna be alright..We are all here for you thru this..Love you so much

2010

2010-01-14T10:25:00.003+08:00

Its the 14th day of 2010 and in 2 days im going back to Kampar..usually for me Kampar means excitement and fun but this time im feeling a lil scared..see its my final year and i cant believe that in 9 months im going to graduate..kinda exciting but it suxx preety much too cuz i have to make my next big decision in life..Daddy is bugging me every single day..so are you going to work first?are you going to do your masters..man seriously I DONT KNOW..i have so many options and i dont know what to choose..oh well

"Daddy God plss plss plss lead me and guide me..You know whats best so show me whch path i should take..I'm just gonna relax,rest and put my hope in you cos I know you are always faithful and you will continue to be.."

Kampar, here I come...

My 3 wks holiday seemed pretty much longer than 3 wks..vey busy,fun, and tiring..hehe..I love holidays.somehow i wish it din have to end tho..Christmas was quiet without alin and i miss her like crazyy but i did have fun tho before christmas day shopping for everyone and wrapping the gifts..I guess its all about giving and I love that very much..I was so busy that i even forgot to give out the cards i prepared for the JB guyzz hehe..well i better do it b4 i leave this Sunday..

New year was crazyy..since it would be our last year sorta together we (atiqah,shu and me) decided to get together in KL and make it the most memorable year end celebration ever..and i have to say it was awesome..just spending time with them; And stepping into the new year with friends who have been there for you thru thick and thin is what matters the most..of cos we missed the rest of them who couldnt be there..but i bet they had an awesome time themselves too with family and friends..

The other 2 wks just went by super quickly with serving,hanging out with my darling friends and basically just going crazyy shopping for the fun of it hehe..Krisela,Nereeta,Joanne and Shann i miss you guyzz heaps..it was fun spending time together..and buddy you have been awesome heheehhe ur crazyy you know that?i nvr knew you loved shopping that much..wait till your baby girl gets back and we can go shop like mad again hehehe..thanks for going crazy with me n helping me love my baby girl more and more each day. I pray u and alin will always be happy and loving no matter what life throws at you guyzz..its beautiful..my best girl and my best friend..hee..

Its been a real blessing to be back in JB and serving with awesome ppl who are passionate about God and what gives Him glory..I nvr for a second thought that i'd be back serving but its truly an honour.. God is good..

Athens, Sarah and Sebas good meeting up with you guys too..You are awesome and ul always have a special priceless place in my heart..I love you guyzz..

I just read Shu Ern's blog and i totally agree with what she said about friends..i cant wait to see my darlings when i get back to Kampar..man I miss you guyzz so much..hehe thanks for sticking with me ppl..

When i look back thru these 2 years that have gone by, a lot of things have changed..I guess we all changed one way or another..all for the best tho..We gained some things and lost others but we will always remain precious to each other cuz thru all we've lost only the precious things sticked on..and i guess we all realise at some point or another what really matters to us.

From fighting to loving, from axiety to grace, from dependance to indepenance, from worrying to trusting, from hating to loving, from crying to laughing, from working to resting in His grace and most of all from strangers to best friends forever..I love all of you guyzz and you are so so precious to me..you will always be..all my friends..JB?Kampar? Sg?everywhere in the world?i treasure you guyzz much..

My awesome mama and daddy ,baby girl and buddy, you guyzz have been terrific and you are special to me in every way..thank you for all the abundance of love showered upon me..Im truly blessed..

Year 2010 a year of increase and abundance in rest..I know it is going to be an awesome year..

You guys believe that too kays?

PS- sorry bout the no pic part of this post..i left my camera in Kampar sigh sigh sigh hehehehe more pics to come soon.. loves..

All the Blessednesses Of God

2009-12-16T13:30:00.005+08:00

I just got back yesterday from an awsome week at penang and im amazed at how much fun we all had. Im so glad Carmel finished her exam and she enjoyed herself soo much..I really miss them so much..Thank God for such a wonderful,beautiful family I am blessed with..

On Wed night we went to the newly opened Hard Rock Cafe in Penang and after that to SS..It was awesome im telling you..the lighting,the music,the people,everything was perfect especially being there with the people you treasure so much.

The next few days everyone was busy with the conference and i managed to just stay home for a day to study (it was my study week haha). The conference was awesome and the preachers amazing..met Crystal and Dana..talked to them after damn long..spent an awesome time with mama and papa and Johnny hehe..

Den came the amazing week-end..tho mummy and daddy had to leave on Sat evening we stayed back to spend time with Calvin,Chloe and lil Damaris..The night was beyond amazing..went to Hard Rock again and it was packed..The amount of energy in that place im telling you its crazyy..

Although it was my study week i dont regret one bit going to penang and spending time with the people I love so dearly..Its exam week now and after that time to Partyyyyy.

"Its the most wonderful time of the Year" with lotsa love, sharing and giving..(I LOVE) I just miss my lil sis soo much..cant help but think abt her..

The most amazing part of my week is that i got my bestest best friend back.awesome time chatting and sharing after such a long time..it was fun..Lord I thank you so much for answering my prayer..Im so happy..

alright guyzz i got to go study..enjoy the post and pics and remember life is beautiful if you believe it is..quoted from someone haha..muaxx

The Truth lies deep inside

2009-11-26T01:01:00.003+08:00

So this morning when i clicked on my facebook profile this cute lil pic popped up with a caption by my darling Ponney..

Crystal: The one who always smiles n laughs which usually "mengegarkan" the whole cafe in uni....The beauty in her is - she always smiles no matter what....

I thought to myself wow so this is how they see me haha..oh well Daddy always says that "to rejoice is a choice". I guess its a choice I make whenever im super down..I can either just be sad and emooo which i sometimes do or i can be strong and put on that beautiful smile that God gave me and make everyone smile too.

But the truth lies deep within..

Life can be an ass sometimes but i guess its true what someone said "The beauty of life is in your eyes" so no matter how hard it gets look at life from a higher perspective...yes especially you Crystaline Deborah Nagarajan hehehe..

Im sleepy..nitezzz

Home

2009-11-25T10:50:00.004+08:00

Last post 12th Nov?OMG!! I cant believe how fast time passes man..haha..

Its been like 5 wks since i went home..arghhhhhh i could go crazy right now hehe.. anyway my proposal is done, 1st assignment done and its wk 6 of year 2 sem 3. One more week to go and year 2 is officially over *scaryy*. The good in all this is that ill be home for Christmas cuz my last paper is on the 21st yahoooooooooooooo!!

Oh well so much for that im going home tmr which is the best part of today's post hehe..i seriously cant wait just like usual.. Daddy has been super sweet to mummy these past few weeks so she says hehehehe..miss them and their crazy jokes. I wonder how they are going to wake up and 4am to fetch me all the way from Permas..Thats y i said "who asked ul to move so far??" hehehehhehehe kidding laa..love my new home..

Okay i gtg meet up with Mr Krishnan for the final proposal check..You guys have an awesome day and remember nothing can separate you from His love..No matter how messed up your situation may look He will provide an awesome way out. Been telling myself that too..Love you guyzz..

oh yea one more thing..Shann baby ur gonna do awesome this Sunday..ill be praying for you kays? be urself darling its what God created and its beautiful..love you n I cant wait to c you muaxxx..

Ok loves..byezzz..

la la la

2009-11-12T19:49:00.009+08:00

Just got back from an hour long jog with bev..we were both extremely lazy cos of the weather lately..Its been pouring non stop..its so bad to the extent that one of the blocks in UNI almost got flooded by the lake overflow..haih UTAR..wassap weih hahahaha..

Anyways its been soo cold and comfy in bed that we just feel like staying there the whole day haha..attempt to stay up late and study? FAIL man hehehehe..we are terrible actually..when its hot we complain, when it rains we also complain apa la humans..never satisfied hehe..oh well im thankful that we got to jog in the cool wind this evening..*grinz*

Today's devotional was awesome..it was abt how God blesses our going out as well as our coming in. We are super blessed by our Father and there is nothing that He knows we want and will not give it to us unless He knows we deserve better :) His love for us is unconditional and when we realise that; every mountain, every situation, every sickness becomes so small, and we become more that conquerers thru Christ. Im really encouraged..you guys wanna read more? just click on http://www.newcreation.org.sg/index.phpoption=com_content&view=category&layout=blog&id=25&Itemid=47

I also went to see Mr Krishnan about my final year project today. He is awesome im telling you. I had so many ideas on what research i wanted to study but he miraculously narrowed the whole thing down to a specific topic that i personally love. So i guess all I have to do now is focus, read and write a whole lot on my topic. Its related to public speaking btw hehe..a topic that is very close to my heart..ala yea laaa I cakap banyak maa hehehehhe..

Cheers to a very fulfilling day and also cheers to my latest obsession...

My Beautiful pair of Gladiators

I love them hehehe..

Seriously I never thought i would ever get a pair for such a reasonable price at MidValley.. Thank you Daddy..you love me so much that you know every detailed desire of my heart..

alright i wanna shower..waiting for Tee's call..Miss that Cina babi..she is enjoying like mad in KL..hehe..

PS- Visha and Ponney you guys are the best..you know what? honestly friends= both of you..thanks for always being there for me, nevr failing to make me smile, lending me a shoulder to cry on and just loving me despite the babi that I sometimes am. You guys are special and very precious to my heart..I know you hate emooo but here you go..I love you guyzz..muaxx..

super tired

2009-11-11T18:12:00.004+08:00

Just got home from class..dunno why today i feel extra tired..darn..maybe its cuz i was up till 4 last night..hmmm..it was worth it tho haha..today was really boring..whatever was going on during lecture was just not going thru my brain..i wonder if it gets worse as the weeks go by..haha..hopefully it improves cuz i seriously need to focus or im toast haha..

we still had fun during break tho as usual..lying down at the 'yoga place' and with Atiqah and Bev dancing while Visha and Shu had their constant quarrels with each other..I had nothing to do but to just sit and smile to myself at what a wonderful gift God has blessed me with..The gift of friendship..

Tee, Shu,Bev,KL,Vish, Ponneey I love you guyzz man..hehe..stay crazy okay cuz you guyz make my day anytime..loves

There we are..all comfy in the middle of UNI hahahaha..crazy bunch..

hmmmmm

2009-11-11T09:18:00.004+08:00

Cant even find a proper title as to all the crap im gonna put into this post..

I left off like soo long ago..i bet everyone thinks that my blog 'dah mati' or something hehe..well im back..just been too busy with life to actually sit down and write whats been going on hehe..

Honestly i've been having a real good time with the people that I love so dearly..

Tell you what?im gonna let the pics tell the story kays? enjoy..

The Start of my 3 wk long Sem break

Celebrated Daddy's birthday at CG..Im so glad i made it back on time..

Doulous 2009 hehe..They look super cute

My new Cheryline look haircut :)

Awesome week-end partying with Chris. Bek, Abi and all my long lost cousinz..I had a blast..

The 3 wks just flew by so fast..I really enjoyed myself spending time with my awesome friends and family, serving again and of cos watching ONE TREE HILL hahahah..day and night..you have no idea what a tv series can actually do to you haha..

After that it was back to Kampar again with my beloved babi's...The begining of the sem is usually the most relaxing so we decided to kick it off with a..

Movie night!! In Atiqah's house..

Melayu and Cinaa hehe

hehehe look at their faces..we were watching a horror movie and being the girls that we are..screams followed every few seconds..

Look at the amount of snacks everyone brought..man..

Its now wk 4 of Y2S3 and yes the assignments are definately pilling up..Chinese is super challenging man..with the pronunciation and strokes..Thank God i have all these babi's around to help me out..Im lovin every bit of Malaysian lit..Im thinking i should have done a major in Lit..oh well there is still Masters right?

There's the other headache of my Final year project/ Thesis which scares the hell out of me..The proposal is due end of this month and im still deciding what topic to choose.if you wanna know more abt the FYP you can go to http://www.shuern.blogspot.com/ that babi has written everything there haha..I cant believe time passed so fast and we're all almost in final year..haix better enjoy it while we still can..

Anyways..i gtg ade..class in an hour..

I promise to be more consistent from now on hahahaha..to all of you reading this remember to love life and live it to the fullest..I read a quote by someone recently saying that 'Life can be great if we focus on the good things and try to make the bad things better'..I have to agree..so dont be SAD..enjoy all the good things life gives you and turn those bad things into good enjoyable lessons..

I miss you baby girl..come home soon!! life is no fun without u!!

Bits and Pieces

2009-09-11T22:43:00.005+08:00

Soooo last week-end was totally awesome..it was everything i expected it to be and so much more..When Chris arrived in Kampar, man I cannot express the excitement i felt it me..I havent felt this way for super long and its probably cos life has been an ass lately hehehhe..after super long I finally got to meet my darling cousins and of cos the lil baby niece of mine who trust me is super adorable.

Her 1st birthday and Caleb's 8th birthday were both awesome. The best part about the whole thing was the spending time with the people I love and cherish so much.

Honestly without the constant prayer,love and support of my familly and dear friend's I would have never made it thru these 9 months..

So i love all of you soo much..the week-end itself was totally awesome and I had a time of my life hehe..lkg forward for more guyzz..Carmel baby plzzz finish your exam quickly so we can partyyy!!

I miss all of them so much now hehe especially that little dolly..

Damaris 1st Birthday

Can't Believe how fast he has grown..Super sweet boy..

My precious Darlingzzz..what would life be without u guys?? :)

Din I tell you that she is gorgeous? arghhhh..geram..

So that was the week-end and Now???im in my room..this morning was the first paper for examination Y2S2 and what an awesome way to start it with History of English Language or what me and my friends call HELL..man the paper was hell..

"Lord im totaly relying on your grace and mercy."

Anyways one down and 4 more to go!! Jia Yo everyone!! I still have 4 days before my next paper so i beta dont waste anymore time..

Daddy i miss youuuu..come back from Brunei quick kays?

oks gonna go study now!! tc ppl..smile as life keeps going on kays?

"Get a life girl"

2009-09-04T02:43:00.004+08:00

Its 3am and im still up..just got back from Ghani and i havent packed for this week-end..Im seriously thinking of getting a life..Oh well till i do so I have to go on living this one..

Its the last day of Year 2 sem 2 and i know that im always saying this but man time does fly..haix..after im done with the final presentation tmr there is a briefing for the final year project..OMG i cant believe im gonna be a final year and graduating student 2010..First i have to finish that THESIS paper..owwwww..

This sem has been the most eventful out of all the semesters..a lots has been going on..and last week-end was merdeka so again i packed my stuff and headed back to JB..spent friday with Atiqah in sg with her parents. Sat and Sunday was with mama and papa..Papa is soo sweet..he planned a surprise getaway for the week-end so yup enjoyyyy.The saddest part was that i din have the time to hang with Shann..darn..she din come to church too cuz she was in Batu Pahat..sad..Next time kays babe..I promise..

Now another week has passed and its the week-end again..i think its gonna be the best of all cuzz im headed up to penang for the birthdays of the two youngest sweethearts of our family..im also excited abt catching up with my darling cousins..man do i miss them a whole lot..Thanks Chris for coming all the way here to pick me up..I love youuu.

Now for the dreaded news..my first paper is next friday..HISTORY of English Language..somebody kill me plsss..and exams drag until the 28th..so thats preety much of my life for now..blehh..

Told you im planning to get a life..so till then here it is..haha..

better get packing or Chris is gonna kill me tmr..

and Alin you little brat i miss you..you better come back quick okay?and stop using my phrase plss..'Life Goes On' is meeee..hehehehhe I love you..

Ill post pics once im back guys look out..

Exhausted

2009-08-24T01:24:00.003+08:00

Just got back from Klang..All of us were invited for Visha's sister's wedding and honestly it was preety awesome..the richness of the culture and tradition kinda brings families closer to each other..Her dad and mum are soo sweet..so are her sibblings..

I had lotsa fun with all my awesome friends too..Thank you Lord for blessin me with such incredible friends..haha..

I wanna Zzzzzzz now hehehe..need to wake up early and finish my language teaching assignment tmr..aih..

Miss mummy,daddy and alin very much..

Thats all of us after the wedding..

alright thats all for now..got to go..be back soon

People Always leave

2009-08-21T11:53:00.005+08:00

But the problem is.. She is not PEOPLE!! she is my life..Haixx.. WHAT IM GONNA DO??!! haha

Oh well the the sun still goes on shining and the world still goes on turning so i guess there is only one thing left to say..LIFE GOES ON!

My baby girl left on monday for Indonesia..University Padjajaran and i do miss her a lot but i know that she is happy and persuing her dream and im so proud of her..I love you baby girl..

She is my best friend and she has never failed to be there for me..I miss her..

Thru the years people have come and gone but youre the one who has stuck with me through it all..Baby i miss you so much and all those precious times we shared..cant wait till you get back

You are the best..I love you

Update time

2009-08-21T09:11:00.005+08:00

I guess since im kinda free now an update would be good haha..I can't believe its going to be a month since the Zone Conference. Man it was super awesome im telling you..every bit of it..I got to catch up with my awesome cg tho they were all busy serving that day..man i miss them..Shu Ern darling was with me along with a few of the JB young ppl..The bummer was that alin and John couldnt come..The indonesian embassy was having her passport..so aih first concert without her...

For the first time I actually drove to the Expo alone..that was kinda scary but we actually made it there and back in one piece after getting lost once?or maybe twice hehehehe..i was really happy laa..felt kinda good to be independant and capable haha..Oh well we are all growing up aren't we haha..

The conference was superb..The presence of God just enveloped the whole place as young ppl lifted their hands all over the audi and worshiped..Ps Judah was right on dot speaking on the innocence of sexuality and God's love for us..really awesome message for the hour..

I had an awesome time all together and Shu Ern darling im so glad you came along..love u..

After zone it was all really hard work back here in Kampar..i cant believe that for the past 3 weeks i have only been sleeping for 2 hours every night and the week just seems to fly by..The week is packed with submissions and presentations (formal attire everyday mind you) and before you know it, friday arrives and its time to go back to JB..of course i love that part the best but its Sunday night that I hate..coming back here..What to do? LIFE _ _ _ _ _ _..fill in the blanks.. ;-)

Anyways while I was at JB we also had alin's farewell party and youth friendship day which was so exciting. To see the young one's rising up to the purpose and call that they have been destined to really touches my heart..They are all super awesome people haha..they helped me plan alin's farewell and eventho everyone was soo tired, they all still made it a blast for her, leaving a smile on her face that we will all remember for a long long time..she deserves it for being such an awesome person.

I guess thats what has been going on basically..look out for my next post..its the most important one..before i go here are some pics for u to enjoy..

The Zone Concert..Shu me and Shan..love you babes muacks

Presentation Week Arghhh..The most beautiful indian girl Visha..

Baby girl's farewell party..All the awesome ppl who made it happen..

They Rock my world

2009-08-05T23:48:00.003+08:00

Was doing my assignment..but hands got a lil itchy and started checking out some old pics..I found this hahahha..

My gosh they are soooo cute..wow..Who could ever ask for better parents..I know i wouldnt hehe..
Im super blessed..
Daddy's gonna kill me when he sees this..oh that is if he sees it..
Im sure whoever is reading this will have tons of comments haha..so share them with me..
i wanna know what ul think..
ok im so dead..i have to get back to my assignments..
Shann and Shuern this is for u guys haha muacks

Slack slack slack

2009-08-04T12:01:00.003+08:00

I know..i know i seriously need to update this thing!! got so many things to talk about hehe

but now??I really dont have the time

so many assignments to catch up with haha

so give me about 1 week okays?

Love you guys..

Back to assignments.. dada

Oh gosh

2009-07-12T19:03:00.003+08:00

I just read Shu Ern's blog and I realised that im starting to write like her

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and I din even notice it hehehehhe

THENG SHU ERN ur such a bad influence on me

hahaha im kidding..I guess the more you hang out with people the more you

become like them heheh..

Love you Shu

Alright going for dinner now..

Have fun reading

Your faithfulness is my Victory

2009-07-12T11:32:00.003+08:00

Last night in the midst of doing my assignments i decided to take a short break and check out my facebook profile..while browsing I came across something that really kinda got to me..

Immediately tears started streaming down my face and i wanted to call mum just to talk to her about it, but deep inside my heart i knew Daddy God was just beside me waiting for me to tell Him about it.

I left my desk and sat on my bed (where I usually talk to Him) crying out to Him, asking him to strengthen me and help me thru what i was going thru..

My exact words were "Lord I feel so hurt right now. teach me what to do..how to deal with this..I need your love right now so I can love the way you do"

Immediately i felt a warm sense of His peace come all over me and the fear, hurt and dissapointment seem to just fade away..

A gentle voice spoke on the inside of me saying "sweetheart read Isa 49:3-4"
I din know what that scripture said so immediately i opened up my bible and this is what it said;

He said to me, "You are my servant Israel,

in whom I will display my splendor."

But i said," I have laboured to no purpose;

I have spent my strength in vain and for nothing;

Yet what is due me is in the Lord's hand

and my reward is with God.

Wow how comforting is that? It is just awesome to know that we have a saviour who cares for us and loves us the way He does. Sometimes its unbelievable His way of drawing us closer to Him and showing us His Faithfullness..

Every little detail in our lives are accounted for because we are so special to Him. He never misses anything out. and He is the person who knows us best and who has the best in store for us.

Sometimes life can really get tiring and frustrating but if we just put our hope and trust in Him, He will see us thru victoriously and we will definately find joy in His presence.

No one can ever comfort us or tell us the things He does...The best person to talk to when we are down is Him.

Guys..I hope you are encouraged by this..we have the best things in life because we are in Him..So never forget how loved you are alright?

Loves

another week gone by

2009-07-12T11:02:00.004+08:00

I cant believe how time keeps going by faster and faster each day..sometimes i wish there was an extra hour or two in a day so more things could be done haha..

So its been what?a week since my last post..

Last week was cultural night and wow it was sure colourful..to be honest I was not crazy about going laa but since a few of my friends were going and I had nothing to do that night i decided to go.I loved the deco and lighting. Everyone was all dressed up in their beautiful colourful outfits..mostly traditional.The presentations were just okay i guess but overall I had an awesome time with my friends..

Btw Visha forced me to wear a saree hahaha..so for the first time in my life I wore this beautiful white saree..I found it such a chore to walk and sit and stand...man hahah..but surprisingly Jia Wei had no problem at all hmmm probably if she marries an Indian she would have no problem ahhaha..kidding Jia muacks..

We managed to take a few pics of the night hehe..here they are..

I look..hmmm different?

They look beautiful haha..Vish,ponney and Jia

The sweetest girl in my class

right now im beat..there are so many assignments to complete and I cant seem to finish any one of them..whyyyy do we have to do assignments?haih..from this week onwards its gonna be non stop..

On a lighter note i cant wait to get back home for the united concert..My darling Shu is coming back with me haha i love you darling muacks and for the invite??no problem..I hope we'll have an awesome time together..

I miss that lil one so much..and mummy and daddy..Argh hate being so far away from home..

You know what i really want right now?

I wanna go to NCC
I wanna go for Arrow this coming sat
I wanna meet my cg..i miss them much

Ala its okay i guess..two more weeks to go..and I can take it..hmm I can do ALL things thru Christ who gives me strength hehe..

Got to go now..Sociolinguistics assignment to complete

Love and treasure all of you so much..muacks

Cant stop myself from missing you..hope ur doing okay...

Precious Friends

2009-07-04T09:46:00.004+08:00

Woke up this morning with thoughts of my dearest long lost friends..really felt like i missed them and those awesome times we shared together so much..right now,looking back i dont even know how we managed to lose contact and end up like this..the only thing I remember is how I hated the fact that I had to leave Jb because of how much I loved them..

We had gotten like soo close and they were truly my inspiritaion and encouragement in my walk with Daddy God..Especially Crystal..she was like my big sister..

I really miss them Lord..Could you make a way again?

Crystal, Dana, Samantha, Sarah, Shaun, Athens, Sebas..I miss you guys like wayyy much..

It all seems like decades ago but in my heart it was like it all happened just yesterday. Lord its all in your hands..You know how much I love them..

I miss you guys n ul forever be precious friends to me

Thoughts

2009-07-04T00:15:00.002+08:00

The other day in the train on the way to KL as i was listening to some music and starring out of the window I noticed a little girl who was so comfortably lying on her fathers shoulder as He moved about back and forth the train..Suddenly I had this awesome revelation of The Father's love..
We dont realise it sometimes but we are just like that little girl in her fathers arms.All we need to do is to rest and be confident that it is going to be alright because it is not us walking but Him. When we gave our lives to our beloved Father, he picked us up and started walking thru the journey of life together with us.
We worry about tomorrow, about how our future is going to be like. Sometimes we even worry if we are in His will or not but the truth is if we can realise that He is walking this journey for us and with us then we wont be so worried anymore.
Every step is carefully guided by a God that is so big and strong,yet so gentle and loving. Nothing happens in life without a reason if you know that He is the Lord of your life.Good and bad things will all work together to become a beautiful picture in the end. A picture he saw when He first created you.
Never look down on your mistakes or failures because they are a stepping stone to your Victory. Every weakness is a chance for God to Display His greatness in your life.
He loves us so much that even if we feel like climbing down His shoulder and walking by ourselves cos we think we have figured it out He never lets us go. He holds our hands and guides us gently and patienly.
The world and people may give up on you but i know one person who will never ever give up on you and thats my Daddy God. Because He sees many different pictures in your life that you cant yet see.
If your earthly parents love you so much and always want the best for you, what more the person who created you.
So common Smile and remember how loved and precious and beautiful u are to Him.
Crystal over and out

Here I am again

2009-07-03T19:21:00.003+08:00

Oh man i just cycled back from Visha's place..trying to catch my breath now..Seriously i have to post something before my blog becomes extinct.

Lets c where do I start?

Its already week 5 of classes and i havent bolgged for what 6 weeks?man i'm terrible..I have Shu ern telling me to update my blog and others telling me they have read my blog..man I din even know that people actually read this thing haha..Oh well this post is for you guys than..esp you Theng Shu Ern..

Other than the fact that we're almost half way thru the sem and as usual assignments are pilling up, I've been back and forth JB, Ive been going crazy shopping,and most of all I've had the most awesome time with my baby girl..

She is damn sweet im telling you..she came here to spend a week with me..just to spend a week with me!!thats my lil sister hehe..wow am I blessed..she is precious, damn hot and sexy,caring,kind and most of all she is the best part of me..whoa..im so bravely saying all this becos she dosen't read my blog..according to her, she dosent need to read my blog cos she knows all abt me hahahahha..take that baby girl..

Well there you have it a quick recap of this 6 weeks that i did not blog..hehe.wanna know more??read on.

holidays were awesome..just the fact that I was home and able to sleep in my own bed, and eat some healthy home cooked food and of cos the best part of it was church and Arrow..wow awesomeeee..the launch of the Zone was superb..super comcert in Sentosa and an awesome day of games and fun..NCC is the best laa thats all I can say..awsome cg members and wonderful leader who really cares for and loves all of us despite our shortcomings..Im blessed..haha..

Oh well so now Im back here again and its the week-end..All my friends have gone back, leaving me and Arthur here alone hahah..I guess im gonna burry myself under my large load of assignments..

I miss mummy and daddy wayyyy much..can I go home now??ahhhhhh..

Gotta be strong girl..thats what Daddy always says...hmmm alright daddy im gonna finish this and come home den im never leaving again..If i leave to do my masters??im taking you with me cos ur too precious for me to leave behind.

Ilove you mummy and papa..muackss..

going for dinner now..Arthur's on his way ade..bleh..

some pics for you to enjoy..

Kl and me

just for the heck of it..hehe

Baby girl and I

Love my mummy so much

Daddy love..check out how hot he is haha

Goodbye exams Hello holidays

2009-05-08T12:54:00.004+08:00

I just got back to my room after the last paper for this sem yahooooo..I can feel the excitement rising in me to go back home..hehe

Come to think of it exams this semester were not as stressful as last semester..overall I think other than morphology I did fairly well..Just trusting God for the best hehehe..

Thank God its over tho.so sick of this place that I cant wait to get home

hahahaha..in 16 hours ill be in Daddy and mummy's arms, ill be on my comfy bed, ill be able to watch TV and most importantly ill be able to spend time with my lil baby sister.

I miss those babi's so much..first time im in Kampar all alone hehehe..they are all on their way back ade..anyways we got plans the whole 3 weeks hehehehhe..by the end of the hols we're gonna be so sick of each other.

I cant wait for arrow and caregroup also hahahaha..yeah baby..miss all of them so much

Ill update no worries..while reading this pls remember how awesomely loved and favored you are By your Daddy in heaven..

love all of you..

JB Im coming backk wohoooooooo

Yup im excited cant help it..sorry for any disturbance caused heheheeh..

crystal over and out

My birthday pics

2009-04-15T12:02:00.009+08:00

My first Surprise..David Archuleta..totally awesome

Look at the crowd..thats just one half..

thanks soo much tee I love you muacks

Lovely candlelight dinner by Uncle and aunty hehe thank you so much

Man do they smell awesome.. I love..

The best aunt in the whole world hehehe

My awesome gifts..lets c..roses, body shop set,almond chocs and famous amos cookies with a bear haha..jealous?hee

After cutting my first cake with mummy, daddy and my darlings.baru bangun tido btw thats y i look like hell hahahaha..

left 4 dead afterwards yay!!!

My second cake and gile surprise while i was facial masking hehehehehhe..

soft toy by Jia, Joyce,joe,ching, vish,poni and arthur..I love it..thanks guys

I love yall

darling shu after class.spot the outfit..was given by her..thanks shu I love you muacks

Bev baby, domukun and me haha

Visha after converting to Islam, me and Tee hahahahhahaha

The three babi's I love so much

Teee hahahaha muacks darling

muacks

well thats the awesome time i had on my birthday..all smiles and full of joy and laughter..thanks everyone who made this day an awesome one for me..u guys are precious God bless u abundantly.mama and papa i din even get a pic with ul..must have one this week-end..plss..i love you so much..you were the best part of my day..muacks.

A brand new chapter in my life

2009-04-15T10:47:00.003+08:00

Well yesterday was the 14th of April.. and again one more year of my life came to an end and a brand new year started haha..I had a beautiful day full of surprises and laughter. I will never ever forget this birthday..so many things to tell you guys..hmmm i dont care..im gonna torture you with this awfully long post haha..

It all started on Sat...

Well On fri night during good friday service Tee texted me asking if I like David Archuleta..hmmm lets c..OF COS I DO!!! hahaha im not all crazy over him laa but he is damn good and cute also hehehe..She told me that for my birthday she was bringing me for his concert ahhhhhhhhhhhhh..i was damn excited..call me lame but it was my first concert and man did i enjoy myself..David was damn good and he totally gave it his all in the performance..I also got to c JJ and ian from the hitz FM morning crew and Natalie from Hitz FM too..wow i was damn jakun lo hehehhehehe..after the concert we lepak at pyramid for a while..its been a while since i spent time with Tee and i had a good time..thanks so much darling I lovee you hehe muacks..

next Surprise came when i got home from the concert.. Aunty Beaulah and uncle Adrian had prepared a sorta like candle light pizza dinner for me..hehe..they were damn damn sweet la.. It din end there..the next day wa full of surprises also..I got so many gifts from them,had an awesome lunch and cut a walnut carrot cake which was delicious..Aunty beaulah bought me some really pretty roses..I was really smitten..It felt so awesome to be loved like that hehehe..thank you so much uncle and aunty..i love ul like crazyy..muackss..

To me i thought that was all i was getting for my birthday, but I was soo wrong hehehe..the day itself was crazyy..mummy and daddy came all the way to Kampar to celebrate my day with me. they got a cake and waited till 12 just to sing for me. My crazy friends too, they cut like 2 cakes for me, and got me some wonderful gifts which i totally love, played left 4 dead with me, and finally to end the day, the whole CF celebrated my birthday..Honestly im very very happy and im so grateful for awesome family and friends who love me and care for me this much..

My baby girl gave me this beautiful gift along with a sweet touching card..hehehe..she is the sweetest muacks baby girl..thank you so so much..

well that was the end of my awesome day..thank you so so much mummy and daddy for making a whole lot of sacrifices to make me happy and put a smile on my face..a big thank you to my friends for everything you guys have done. Alin ur the best baby..youre so precious to me and I cant wait to c you soon..To all of you who wished me and called me, thank you so so much heheh..i love all you guys to death hehehe..

I thought i lost something but the truth is i gained so much more..Im starting this new year with confidence that you have a good plans for me Daddy. Im 22 now and im going to enjoy it to the max hahahahhaha..look out here I come heheheh..

hmm how should I start?? Maybe my morphology report would be a good place hehehheheheh..lame ass crystal hehehe..

bye bye.

hey i forgot to mention a damn funny part of my day.hehehe well since it was my day i decided to pamper myself a bit with my facial mask but to my horor, while i was enjoying myself my wacko friends stormed into my room with a cake singing the birthday song hehehehehhe i was damn malu laaa..heheheh looking like a monster with a white face hehehehehe..ill never forget that ehehhe..

k i better go get that report done ehhe..

a quick recap

2009-04-15T09:59:00.006+08:00

Well for the past 2 weeks ive been back and forth KL for different reasons..Assignments and tests aside all of us have been having an awesome time..

Bev's Birthday

Since Bev's birthday was on a Thu this year, all of us decided to spend the week-end in KL just to give her an extra awesome time haha..On fri we had a delicious dinner at Williams (a western food place damn near to aunty beaulah's place) which all of us enjoyed to the max, but Sat was the highlight of the whole week-end..we had planned to have dinner at Laundry bar and celebrate that babi's birthday. Laundry was awesome..so happened that DJ Fuzz was on that night and the music was solid..Bev was treated to a flaming lambo and a few drinks..For some reason the people there were damn nice to us haha.. we had an incredible night and I hope that bev baby, you had a good time hehe..me and Shu got bev this Domukun soft toy(which she is crazy abt). she dosent look like it right? hahaha..Bev once again happy birthday..we all love you so much muacks.

Shu's Birthday

The following week was darling shu's birthday so once again we left Kampar at 5 am like totally crazy ppl back to KL. Sat night celebration was at Porto Romano some damn good mediteranian,italian, something something restaurant laa hahahahah. The food was crazy awesome and if you gave me a chance id be talking abt it for the next ten years heheheh.. I actually took down the names of all the dishes so I could give an update to uncle Adrian and aunty Beaulah hehehehheh..anyways again we had a superb time chatting,eating and of cos embarassing shu ern by singing happy birthday to her loudly and getting her to cut a cake in front of so many ppl..heheh..Love you so much shuuu..after that it was time to Kill some Zombies at the CC..played left 4 dead ehehe..I love that game man.. well Shu ur 21 now so I guess legally free? jangan nakal ok hehehe kidding muacks.. and Bev get that choc off your teeth..man..heheh

so many birthdays this sem and firstly im damn broke ade and secondly im forced to eat all this food damn hehehehhe..well you guys i love all of you so so much and love spending time with you all..lkg forward for moree hehe..

Breathe Again

2009-04-08T08:39:00.002+08:00

Artist: Juwita Suwito
Song: Breathe Again

Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew
Never knowing where you're going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and say

*I just want to breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little , cry a little
Live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little
Try a little more
I`ll breathe again*

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of grace
It's a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Don`t want to live on life replay

Repeat

*Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn
Repeat *

How could I have forgotten to put this in?

2009-03-17T16:03:00.003+08:00

Oh my goodness how could I have forgotten to mention that mummy and alin were so so sweeet haih..check out the pic above..Beautiful??of course it is right? when i came back to Jb the last trip they had this beautiful basket of flowers waiting for me in my room just to wish me a happy valentines haha..I know its wayyy past valentines but it was really really sweet and im so blessed to be in this family who loves and cares for me this much.. While I was there they also followed me patiently to shop for some clothes before i came back here waaaaa touched touched *sobs* hehehehe..ma, lin you are the best hehe..Always love you muacks.. Thanks again..hahahahhaha..

Daddy and alin are coming here tomorrow ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. *jumping up and down* cant wait hehe..

k k gtg back to reality where I have to sit thru a killing 2 hours of JR lecture..darn hehehe..

byee.

Officially hell of a week

2009-03-14T17:53:00.003+08:00

Alright so lets c. I havent written in so long because im just malas la hehehehhe..the internet connection is so slow man..by the time it says create a new post I would have washed my clothes, had my shower and finished eating my dinner hahahahha..welll im exagerating but its STILL SLOW!!! Crystal!! be thankful common..Alright alright im thankful at least I have a connection unlike the westlake ppl who had theirs disconnected due to the lighting haha..kesian..

Anyway its week 10 of year 2 sem 1 and officially hell has started for all of us..Assignments and mid-terms and just a heck of a lot of things to do. Seriously when one assignment is completed ill be wondering did I actually finish that..man i've totally lost track of time.Its just passing too fast..aih.

Somehow thru all this rush and emotional torture all of us actually manage to smile and have a good time with each other hehe.go swimming and jogging,lepak by the lake,go mamaking,and pasar malam,its kinda fun haha and i love all of these babi's so much.I guess as the saying goes all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy *grinz*.Shu's motto?play first die later..quite interesting and I tried it once but that would be the first and last for me hehehehhe..tak boleh laa..i rather mampus today den enjoy later cos stress bah hehehehhehhe.. Love you shu..

For the updates on whats been going on??

The previous week-end was the undergraduate seminar and all of us were forced to go so we decided why not make the best of it? we went there for like 3 thesis presentations and off we went to shop at the Curve, lepak at Tee's place and had an awesome night at lounge. By the time we reached Kampar on Sunday night I was dead tired hahahha could not function at all heheheheh..I also managed to have a wonderful time with aunty Beaulah and uncle Adrian whom i love soo much.

Also my awesome trip back to Jb last week-end..I had an awesome time man heheheheheh..mummy missed me so much that she said she even forgot how i looked and I had not gone back for like what? 3 weeks?got to spend an awesome time with my baby sis watching movies and ONE TREE HILL(my current obsession) and eating awesome food hehehehehhe..Also got to play futsal with the girls..that was really one heck of a day haha..girls out there who have not played before,you have to try it cos ul love it haha..i sucked la but someone told me not to worry and that I would improve eventually heheh..thanks for the encouragement haha. Payed Left 4 dead with Johnny and alin haha..never thought I would grow to love computer games but I did so thanks my babi's who taught me and got me into this hehehe..Johnny must play again ah??Lkg forward..make alin love it also..The bummer was that I din get to c daddy ahhhhhhhhhhhh..when he arrived from aukland i was on my way back here damn.i miss him..

I kinda find myself doing so much more these days and things that i have never tried doing before and always wanted to do? im actually doing them and totally enjoying myself at it..I guess there's much more that I havent completely discovered about myself and im sure an awesome future is ahead of me.Hopefully I get thru this faster than I think and just start doing the things i've always loved to to again.Life is good and im enjoying every bit of it..The secret is to just look at every situation positively and tell yourself that you could learn something from this instead of being angry and bitter which would only cause you to get older hehe. Smiles always help me to move on haha. Well i guess i just have to say that LIFE GOES ON...hehehehhe.

Daddy you've been awesome thank you so much for everything you've done.I will rejoice because of your faithfullness!!!

k la got to go finish up that morph assignment now ahhhhhh..till next time dont forget to smile ppl love yall.

I forgot to mention that Daddy's coming here on wed..ahhhhhhhhhhh im going crazy..cant wait!!

PS:havent been taking a lot of pics lately so the next post will be with pics i promise heheh..byee

Fall to Pieces by Krystal Meyers

2009-03-14T17:30:00.003+08:00

All the twisted lies and all the empty promises
That let me down
All this time I've compromised and tried to find
The easy way out

Im letting go of all I've known
Never thought i'd say there's gotta be a better way

When everything around me falls to pieces
I've got something more in my life
When im broken i see only You complete me
Yeah without You by my side, I fall to pieces every time

All my hopes and dreams and all my selfish plans
That crumble in my hands
Made me realise I've gotta trust in something
Bigger than I am

I'm standing strong when all goes wrong
It's gonna be okay. I've finally found a better way

When everything around me falls to pieces
I've got something more in my life
When im broken I see only You complete me
Yeah, without You by my side, I fall to pieces every time

I fall to pieces, yeah
Without You, yeah, I fall to pieces
Without You by my side, I fall to pieces everytime

The beautiful miracle of friendship

2009-02-13T15:21:00.005+08:00

Just a few moments ago as I was busy busy busy doing my things and keeping myself busy a few of my darling friends dropped by with this beautiful rose. Just to say that they love me and are there for me.. I remember asking God a few days ago, Lord will I receive anything this Valentines? At least one red rose? and true enough i got one today.. I almost burst into tears..

Im so blessed to have this group of friends by my side to love me and stand with me thru this tough time..Truly the gift of friendship is a miracle..

Jia, Joyce, Poni, Visha and Arthur thank you so much for the beautiful flower..you guys really touched my heart..I love ul so much..Shu Ern, Bev, Atiqah, KL you guys have been a tremendous support to me thru this tough time.. Shu i know that sometimes you do miss Ian but you dont show it just to be strong for me. All of you specially take time to be with me and make sure im not alone n Joe thanks for being an awesome housemate..u being there makes me feel good too..

Wow im just totally amazed and grateful to be in the midst of you guys..Lord I thank you for such awesome friends..I pray that we will remain this close Forever..

You guys..Valentines is not only a time for couples but it is a day to be grateful for your friends..so Happy Valentines all of you..I love ul so much..

And Lord I know that this is your way of saying that you love me.. Thank you..

muack
Crystal

All because you loved me

2009-02-13T12:00:00.004+08:00

I never stood out in a crowd but you always managed to notice me and pick me out
I am not sexy or hot but you always appreciated me for who I was and said that i was beautiful.
I never had much self confidence but you kept on reminding me how much im worth and that there is more to life than just this
We used to share the same passion and desire to see young people's lives transformed by Our Father
When I was down and felt like giving up you were always only a phone call away
You always took responsibility as a man in every circumstance even tho it was tough on you
Your drive and determination in lfe always amazed me and caused me to do better.
You laughed and played with me as if we were children again just to make me happy
When i lost my temper you would hold my hand and calm me down
You always forgave my mistakes
When i was crying you always held me close and assured me that it was going to be alright
You never despised me or looked down on me no matter what people said abt me
You made me become the better person I am today

Tho the pause button has been hit on our song i will always be grateful to my Father because of such a precious gift he gave me. Tho you may regret this relationship and feel it was a mistake I never ever regreted it. It was the best four years of my life and I've learnt and grown so much because of your love. Father thank you so much for him..I will never know if the play button will ever be pressed again for our song but for now i have to be strong and continue moving on because I know that You have an awsome plan for my life.

My brand new love? My Father in heaven..

over and out

Crystal

First week of year 2

2009-01-17T16:50:00.011+08:00

Monday was the first day of a new semester and by Sunday mostly everyone was already back in Kampar..some totally hating it and others well were kinda ok with the idea..everyone had one thing in common tho, we were all really excited to see one another and to be back in UNI after 3 long months..five torturing subjects this sem..well not too bad for a start but i guess no matter how hard it gets we're all there for each other..hmmm..

First lecture was Academic writing and to our surprise we had gotten the same lecturer as last sem for literature..my goodness..hopefully everything goes okay tho..the other subjects were okay as well apart from morphology and syntax as well as psycholinguistics..hmmm for the first week i would say all is well and we're all catching up with each other but being in Kampar we do get a lil bored so what do we do when we get bored well c for yourself haha..we

Make stupid faces

Sleep

Watch Movies on Joe's Lap top hahaha

Disturb our ppl while they are sleeping

and not forgetting of cos smsing boyfriends haha

Thats basically whats been happening for the past one week..im glad to be back with all these crazy ppl..Guys I really love all of you so much..thanks for being there for me..and you out there yea thats right you in Sg..im missing you like crazy..sms soon alright hehe..alright im going to wash my clothes now..no more washing machine sigh..byeeee..God bless.

crystal over and out!!!

a wrap up of my 3 month long break

2009-01-16T13:01:00.002+08:00

After three months of havoc i caused at home and with my poor darling its finally time to say goodbye to JB..ive had a totally awesome time with everyone and im so glad to be able to make ppl happy..

what did I actually do this 3 months?? lets c..

worked at AO for one month hahaha utter torture
cooked at home
diet to the max and excercised
made loud noises in the house by screaming for no good reason
played the piano till I got bored
had an awesome week with carmel
had preety fantastic week-ends with my darling minus the arguing
went crazy waiting for him to come back from Austrailia
celebrated alin and darling's birthday
went to the singapore zoo
went house carroling and came out in the papers hahahaha
christmas banquet
new year's eve service and party afterwards
finally the best of all was Phuket 2008 haha totally awesome
had an awesome time with my sweet baby sis
shopping like crazy everywhere hahahaha

well thats preety much of what i did..im sure JB is missing me now..esp the fishes in the tank..hhehe..cos daddy underfeeds them so i always give them extra food hahahahhaha..i miss JB too esp mummy, daddy, alin and my darling..well life has to go on and im so happy to say im glad to be back to classes and Uni and with my darlings again..Thank you pa and ma for making these 3 months so enjoyable..Carmel baby I loved your company so much and make sure you study hard for SPM kie?Darling you've been a prince and youve made so many sacrifices just for me..ill forever be grateful I love you..

Goodbye year 2008 and welcome year 2009..a year of new purpose, new determination and a year of new challenges..im looking forward to a brand new me..till next time..love all of you who have never failed to be there for me..muack and i will keep you in prayer constantly..

byeee..Crystal

The best date ever

2009-01-16T12:29:00.004+08:00

Well after a million years here's my next post..finally hahaha..ive been like so busy wil the new year and getting back to Uni that i dont even have time for this blog hahah..today's post is gonna be a bit emoo haha hope you dont mind..

well after being in a relationship for so long you never really care abt official dress up sort of dates and porsh restaurants but come to think of it we've never been on that kind of date b4 haha..its always jeans and t-shirts or the basic casuals and macds or food court. Its become such a norm that every going out experience is a date..well little did i know that my whole mind set was abt to change in just one night..without me knowing, darling had asked permission from mum and dad to actually take me out on an official date.Of cos they knew all the details and I was told to pick out my best dress, shoes and to make sure I looked perfect for the night..whoa i actually panicked hahahha..

im always used to being myself around darling and im never afraid of anything cos he knows me in and out but somehow this time i felt really nervous and i was freaking out at the thought of an official date..suddenly questions like what should i say to him? and how do i react? came to my mind..never in all this while have I ever thought of these things..i just say what i want and do what I like cos he loves me for who I am and im feeling so stupid for thinking these things..

well moving on i just calmed myself down and started getting ready at the right time..the nervous feeling just never left and well i just had to get over it slowly..when i came downstairs he was already waiting for me and boy did he look stunning..once again i felt like i had a huge crush on this man haha..its such a weird feeling..my tummy was doing summersaults and and i was kinda shaking when i first came down hhehehe damn i felt like a kid again hee..

Of course he told me how stunning i looked but then again beauty lies in the eys of its beholder so im proud to be his girl..shortly after that we were in the car on the way to the restaurant and i was totally blur to where he was taking me..it was a surprise..and we finally reached our destination..hmmm TGIF..I loved that place honestly and i've only been there like once..its expensive..i was excited..

The night was like a fairytale and I felt myself falling deeper and deeper in love with the man..it was like I just got to know him today and already im so deeply in love with him..it was beautiful..the lighting, the food, and of cos the endless chats we had thru the night..

unfortunately all good things come to an end but that night was so beautiful and i will never ever forget anything that happened..it will always be fresh in my memory..thank you darling for the awesome time..you are so precious to me..

well thats it for now..should i post a pic??hmmm maybe just two..hahah..enjoy