Miracles

Woke up this morning and got to talk to these 2 :). Its nothing short of a miracle how close we have become after living together for about a year and almost killing each other multiple times. 

I cry now that we are so far apart. Every time I get to talk to the both of them I feel so much joy within me and just the feeling of satisfaction that I get to be myself and not in any way be judged by it. 

Just to laugh at the silly things we used to do and now be able to make sense of it ( not everything tho).

I love you both and all you are to me. Thank you for your friendship,sincerity and love! We are family and, family don't ever lose each other. Keep listening to Him and speaking to me because that encouragement you bring? it is beyond imagination the best words that I just sometimes need to hear.

A great man once said "Show me your friends and I will show you your future". Remember that?? Well if these legends are my friends, then I don't have to worry about what my future holds because even if I lose sight of what God has showed me and I walk away from His leading for some reason, I know they will be there looking me straight in the eye and this is what Bobby would say " Crystal you're just stubborn and you don't want to hear the voice of God, now get back on track!!" Alyssa would say " I don't know if I'm on the rails about this but I think you really need to let that go!!" Tough love but I LOVE IT!!

Thank you Lord for Godly friends who love you and cherish Your word and Your will :) Thank you for friends who tell the truth and only want the best for me.

PS: To all my amazing friends out there, thank you for being all you are to me. I am glad God placed you in my life for such a time as this and for forever :) I pray as we continue building this friendship, we will encourage each other to be all God has called us to be and even more.

First Borns are awesome :)

So this awesome guy gets back today :), Oh well he is no ordinary guy..

Before anyone of the others existed we were both alone on earth for like more than 7 months hahaha..we go back a long way..Remember when it was just the two of us fighting over who we loved more and who you wanted to be your wife hehe (my mum) haha..of cos the fun grew as the additions came along with the rest of the wacky group :)

N i remember what you said to me before Aunty Beaulah's wedding..we were pageboy and flower girl rem? and You said make sure you throw the flowers on me hehe..im not sure if you remember that but from wayyy back you loved to be appreciated and wanted and happy :)..

N you got what you wanted..everything you wanted :) a beautiful wife and 2 amazing princesses..for us we gained a beautiful sister and 2 beautiful nieces whom we adore..i remember tearing when you walked down the aisle thinking to myself omg i cant believe he is getting married.

After all we've been thru together thru the years..i think its safe to say i miss you cuz and I cant wait to c you later at the airport and give you a big hug :) and your amazing wifey and babies..its amazing that you're so far away and yet it feels like youre so close to me haha..i bet we all feel that way too..

Many things change but i guess some will just remain the way they are :) we will be the firstborns of the Augustine Family and carry a legacy of Christ to the future generations :) I love you..chat soon..

A perfect cuppa Coffee

And i'm ready to start the day.. the pic is super blurrr..time to get a new phone ade :)

I have a ton of things to do today and i Hope i get to finish at least half of them before prayer mtg tonight..but i just wanna say a few things before i go..im not sure how many ppl actually read this blog but if you do i hope today's post encourages you or like Derrick always says drowns you and gives you no choice but to swim,.

Some weird stuff happened this morning and yesterday causing me to be utterly down and after my angry workout this morning i decided to listen to a sermon..it literally spoke to my heart and i just listened my heart breaking inside of me and tears flowing..

The question that I wanna ask you today is how much do we want to know God?how much do we desire Him? are we just seeking Him cos we have things in our lives that need to be settled or do we need Him cos we need Him to manifest His power in our situations and in our calling? how many times have we just sat alone and said God i wanna know more about you and I want to love you..show me more of you..show me more of the amazing person you are..the truth is we attempt to know everything and everyone else more than we attempt to know Him..You know what we were created for? The very pleasure of God..to please him, to commune with Him and to love Him.

On Sat morning as i awoke, The Holy Spirit gently spoke to me.. " wake up and commune with me.." Could i have just ignored that voice and went back to sleep?..definitely..but it is when we heed to that voice and obey His presence will be so real to us and we begin to get familiar with the voice of God. Our God is an amazing sweet gentle person yet so strong and mighty and worthy to receive all glory and adoration.

The only way God can mold us and make us the people He wants us to be is if He breaks us.. and He will if you would allow Him..is it painful? of cos it is but with Him right there beside you to comfort you and guide you its amazing..cuz we were not created to be mediocre.. God created everyone of us to make a distinct difference wherever He places us.

How much you wanna know God will determine how much your friends and the people around you wanna know God.. It depends on you.

Take your eyes off the things that are behind and press forward to the greater and more amazing call of God.

Just something to start your day..lotsa love...

An amazing day

24 years ago on this very day Daddy God brought me into this world with a big perfect picture of how my whole entire life was going to be like :) tho sometimes things get difficult i nvr fail to remember that i can only see a small part of that picture while he sees it all.. so everything that i dont understand i just have to trust it in His hands.

The last 24 years have been full of His grace and mercy from one step to another and i would have nvr made it to this point if not for His mercy and grace.. Which brings me to todayy :)

I had the most amazing day full of love and surprises..not at all what i dreamed of, but much more than that..

The kids celebrated my birthday at school..surprised me with the birthday song in 3 languages and an awsome cake :) their love touches my heart..and I've only taught for 2 months? *touched*

Lunch was with athens, Chan and Sohba..Japanese foodd :) amazing, with the awesome new room lamp that im in love with..cant believe they lied to me about renting the car and stuff hehe..anyhow im super touched..btw guys if it was just the card i still would have been overjoyed..thank you so much..im blessed to have friends lyk yall i know i can depend on..

And mummy ur crazy but seriously amazing..flowers to my school? a cake with my pic on it? and 24 ppl calling to wish me and pray for me?omgggg what else ma?I love you and thank you so much..im missing having you around so much..come home soon okayy..

To end the day i had a date with my daddy..we talked(gossipped) hehehhe and ate and daddy bought me a cute pouch for school..super sweet..I love you daddy..i know how busy you are and yet you took the time to take me out and get me a rose from the garden..it all means the world to me and I love you..

Alin, John i miss you guys like crazyy thanks for the wishes and calls it means the world..

The highlight of this years' awesome birthday of cos was the surprise party organized by my sweet darlings..I love you guyz so so much..it was the blastt..

Ending today with my Daddy God..everyone's asleep :)

if i could sum up this day i would simply call it perfect...i have so much to be grateful for and nothing to complain about..im sooo much loved and i love everyone who made me feel loved too.. Im amazed..and I just have to say Daddy God I love you and I thank You for everything you have so graciously blessed me with..my heart is overwhelmed with how much you love me..All I want is to be closer to you..lead me and guide me as I step into another year of my life once again. Let my steps and path glorify you. I love you.

To everyone who went all out to make this day special thank you so much..I love all of you..thanks for the wishes, gifts, surprises and of cos abundance of love..im blessed and touched..I love all of you so much..

I wonder..is my best friend coming back this wk-end..oh well who knows hehehe :)

Going to spend the last hour taking a love break..c yall..

The clouds of Love

How i wish I could just take it all away
and be gone in dreams with you
to the place where there's only you, me
and Love
With you alone, lost in love
I call the clouds of love
which will vanish us away from this world
to the place full of love
Oh how I long that the clouds of love
just linger between us
It makes us lose ourselves
and find the true meaning of love

When we are alone,
covered and embraced by the clouds of love
My love for you begins to ignite
when i just hold your hand and look into
your flaming eyes
I lose myself in your love
the clouds all over us
In the midst of those clouds
I would just kiss your sweet lips and make it all perfect for you

We are just lost in those clouds
just you and me all alone
making love and losing ourselves to each other
closely, intimate touch and embrace
the waves of love from you
ahh in those clouds of love


When i read this my eyes teared..so much passion and love

From a very inspired, very talented writer who inspires me every single day :)

And then

Just got back from KL about an hour ago ;) cant sleep argh hehe..i guess i slept too much in the bus kot..

I had an amazing time with the craziest bunch that i love so dearly..was chatting and laughing and suddenly i felt so at home and accepted..guess thats what friends are supposed to feel like.

Had to collect our convo attire today and the management made the whole hall feel like it was already convo..there was such a sense of excitement and nostalgia as they played last years video over and over again..i started tearing..

Looking back at the 3 years of havoc i would have never made it outta there if not for the Grace of God and His constant hand of love and protection over me. Im in awe.
Tried on our gowns and mortar boards..registered for pics on that day and collected our guest tickets. All set for convo..all i need now is another 2 extra tickets for alin n Johnny and well be ready.

Im preety excited but at the same time mixed feelings about everything not going perfectly.silly me..God is in control remember?

As i boarded the bus back to JB so many thoughts started filling my mind..uncertainties,doubts,regrets..i mean its normal considering we're living life everyday around these things. But i just had to stop and remind myself that hey My Daddy in heaven is still in control and i have to do what he told me to and just trust.

I guess everything is going to be alright. I miss my friends already..looking forward for this wk's holiday :) and thursdayy..hope i can blog during the wk-end..ill try hehe..gtg get some sleepp..daddy wants to cycle tmr morning..depends if i can wake up hehe :)

nitezz everyone..you are very much lovedd..

we've had the greatest of times

I mean no kidding..we really outdid ourselves with the things we did..You guyz are one special bunch i could never fall outta love with..
God really blessed me and favored me by giving me such a treasure of friends :)

Now we know why Visha's car is dented everywhere hehehe

Crazy awesome, amazing days.. now its really BFF from the heart..i miss all of you and I cant wait to c you guyz again..Joe, Arthur, Jia you guyz too :(

U guyz really made me laugh my heart out and i miss laughing that way..

You guys totally won my heart hhehehee (sounds so wrong haha)

Muacks..

Well done

OH mY Lord she got an A for her killer paper..SOCCA

Cheryline Dorcas Nagarajan im soo proud of you..We all literally stayed up praying for you while you were studying hehe..

Thank You Jesus for your favor and grace seeing her thru.

Muacks Congrats again..and I cant wait for you to get back :)

All my love..

Gan en

This week has been an absolute bummer for me..each day with all the bullets shooting from every angle until i felt like omgg i wanna give up. If this is life den i mite as well not live it ya know?

I was so fed up and i reached my end on thursday..i told myself sternly "baby girl you gotta stop being so forlorn and start rising up above it cuz ur better than that".

I just made a decision to come out of it n i went to play the piano n worship a while before i went out job hunting again n still no relief cuz inside me was all messed up and my mind was everywhere. Suddenly The Holy Spirit promted me to just start giving thanks n thats what i started doing. For the things i had, For the things i din have and just for everything.

A lil while after that i felt soo much better ;)..there is power in giving thanks. It not only changes your situation but it also changes youu.It totally renews your passion for God and your trust in Him.

Went for 2 job interviews yesterday n trusting God for more open doors :). most of all im looking forward to today's meeting..its going to be amazing :)

God you are so Faithful and there is nothing I can't trust you for. I absolutely lovee You.

6 days??

Watt?? has it been that long since my last post??oh man..i do have a lot to tell hehe..but here's something for a start..

Shannon, Naomi, Angiee, Hannah, Christina

The more i get to know you guyz the more i Love yall..

Wake up at 6am everyday..need to get used to that heheh.. But every bit is worth it if im praying for you guyz..c yall soon

Ill update more soon..soon..veryy soon.

Neong Chee Kien (Arthur)

Thats what everyone calls him.. ;)

I can still remember the first time i saw him. In my mind i was like hey looks like a decent smart guy..hmm lets talk to him..and the talking never stopped since then. Everyone thought he was a freak in Year 1(except Shu ern). He talked too much, made stupid jokes,disrupted class and always wanted to know your quiz results..Oh man you must be thinking what a pain :)

Little did i know that this pain in the *&% would be one of my closest friends today. He turned out to be the most caring, most gentle, most intelligent and most precious friend anyone of us could find. When you are sick he is the first one there, when you miss class his would be the first text and when quiz results are out his first words would be "eh nvm laa results are nothing wan.I also simply do only". hahahahaha

Last week he drove down all the way from KL with beautiful Jia Wei just to spend New Year's eve with us. If you say friendship is a gift, now i know what you mean. He may say the stupidest things sometimes and if you din know him it would bug you but for us it makes us smile.

Jia Wei you are one lucky girl and Arthur we are all super lucky friends to have you. Thanks for the awfully long comment you left on Yesterday's post. Youre going to do awesome in Your masters and in your life cuz all you've sowned is goodness and kindness. We will always be friends bro. You can count on that..

This post is just for you. Thanks for all you have been.

Arthur Neong Chee Kien Ladies and Gentleman :)

My best friend

Early this morning when i woke up i thought man

Im just really grateful for my best friend

Never thought i'd end up having such a close buddy that would stick with me

through all those years of growing n becoming the ppl we are today

Yea we've had our crazy up and down moments where sometimes i wanted to kill you ;)

but i guess its all God's Divine appointment that we stuck on

Oh well..I love you eventho ur an ass hehehehehe

I also absolutely love the way ur in love with my baby girl :)

stay cool best bud n in the process of reminding others that they are special

dont forget that you are incredibly special too

lotsa lovee :)

hope we remain best friends for life haha..

today??its not norm stuff its all in incredible stuff hehehe

sorry i just had to do it :)

6 years in counting hehe

Quoting you;

In the hour of adversity be not without hope

for Crystal rain falls from black clouds

Amazing Love

So i've been extremely busy and tied down with so many things that i havent reallly had time to focus on anything but my thesis and assignments, and when Johnny asked me to lead worship on Sunday i was like "whatttt?? no way bud im really in no position to stand up there and lead the congregation in worship.

But knowing me he just left it and eventually i said okay. My heart was totaly heavy and i was soo not in the right mood. Although sat was the best cuz i got to meet my darlings again and go handbilling (my favorite)heheheh still at the back of my mind i was thinking omgg tmr how???

On Sunday morning while i was getting ready i was just talking to God n i said "Lord seriously i cant, i'm struggling and I really need you to intervene today. And suddenly a still small prompting in my heart said "My grace is sufficient for you and my strength will be made perfect in your weakness." wooowwwwww immediately all the fear just dissapeared and there was a peace and calm in my heart.

God is really faithful and He will never leave us. Its we who sometimes falter and run away from His love and mercy.

Shan led awesome too for 2nd service..it was amazing..

Oh well im back in Kampar now tackling week 9. I really need God's grace and mercy to help me out. So if youre reading this plsss pray for meee..and my darlings in JB I love you guyz so much..have fun this wk end n ill c ul in Ipoh for United kays.

right guys i have 8 o clock class tmr morning..gtg get some sleep..love yall..

PS: I miss you alin..

Thank You Lord

All i can say is that I am so happy..I cant even begin to express the joy that is in my heart

Delight yourself in the Lord and He will grant you the desires of your heart

Even the smallest most insignificant desire He takes into account..

Lord its Your faithfullness, I love you

Rushing for class ade hehe..

Byeeeeee

Creativity is A God given gift

Isn't it beautiful? this was alin's Father's day gift to daddy..I think its so sweet..ur the best girly

Your faithfulness is my Victory

Last night in the midst of doing my assignments i decided to take a short break and check out my facebook profile..while browsing I came across something that really kinda got to me..

Immediately tears started streaming down my face and i wanted to call mum just to talk to her about it, but deep inside my heart i knew Daddy God was just beside me waiting for me to tell Him about it.

I left my desk and sat on my bed (where I usually talk to Him) crying out to Him, asking him to strengthen me and help me thru what i was going thru..

My exact words were "Lord I feel so hurt right now. teach me what to do..how to deal with this..I need your love right now so I can love the way you do"

Immediately i felt a warm sense of His peace come all over me and the fear, hurt and dissapointment seem to just fade away..

A gentle voice spoke on the inside of me saying "sweetheart read Isa 49:3-4"
I din know what that scripture said so immediately i opened up my bible and this is what it said;

He said to me, "You are my servant Israel,

in whom I will display my splendor."

But i said," I have laboured to no purpose;

I have spent my strength in vain and for nothing;

Yet what is due me is in the Lord's hand

and my reward is with God.

Wow how comforting is that? It is just awesome to know that we have a saviour who cares for us and loves us the way He does. Sometimes its unbelievable His way of drawing us closer to Him and showing us His Faithfullness..

Every little detail in our lives are accounted for because we are so special to Him. He never misses anything out. and He is the person who knows us best and who has the best in store for us.

Sometimes life can really get tiring and frustrating but if we just put our hope and trust in Him, He will see us thru victoriously and we will definately find joy in His presence.

No one can ever comfort us or tell us the things He does...The best person to talk to when we are down is Him.

Guys..I hope you are encouraged by this..we have the best things in life because we are in Him..So never forget how loved you are alright?

Loves

Thoughts

The other day in the train on the way to KL as i was listening to some music and starring out of the window I noticed a little girl who was so comfortably lying on her fathers shoulder as He moved about back and forth the train..Suddenly I had this awesome revelation of The Father's love..
We dont realise it sometimes but we are just like that little girl in her fathers arms.All we need to do is to rest and be confident that it is going to be alright because it is not us walking but Him. When we gave our lives to our beloved Father, he picked us up and started walking thru the journey of life together with us.
We worry about tomorrow, about how our future is going to be like. Sometimes we even worry if we are in His will or not but the truth is if we can realise that He is walking this journey for us and with us then we wont be so worried anymore.
Every step is carefully guided by a God that is so big and strong,yet so gentle and loving. Nothing happens in life without a reason if you know that He is the Lord of your life.Good and bad things will all work together to become a beautiful picture in the end. A picture he saw when He first created you.
Never look down on your mistakes or failures because they are a stepping stone to your Victory. Every weakness is a chance for God to Display His greatness in your life.
He loves us so much that even if we feel like climbing down His shoulder and walking by ourselves cos we think we have figured it out He never lets us go. He holds our hands and guides us gently and patienly.
The world and people may give up on you but i know one person who will never ever give up on you and thats my Daddy God. Because He sees many different pictures in your life that you cant yet see.
If your earthly parents love you so much and always want the best for you, what more the person who created you.
So common Smile and remember how loved and precious and beautiful u are to Him.
Crystal over and out

The beautiful miracle of friendship

Just a few moments ago as I was busy busy busy doing my things and keeping myself busy a few of my darling friends dropped by with this beautiful rose. Just to say that they love me and are there for me.. I remember asking God a few days ago, Lord will I receive anything this Valentines? At least one red rose? and true enough i got one today.. I almost burst into tears..

Im so blessed to have this group of friends by my side to love me and stand with me thru this tough time..Truly the gift of friendship is a miracle..

Jia, Joyce, Poni, Visha and Arthur thank you so much for the beautiful flower..you guys really touched my heart..I love ul so much..Shu Ern, Bev, Atiqah, KL you guys have been a tremendous support to me thru this tough time.. Shu i know that sometimes you do miss Ian but you dont show it just to be strong for me. All of you specially take time to be with me and make sure im not alone n Joe thanks for being an awesome housemate..u being there makes me feel good too..

Wow im just totally amazed and grateful to be in the midst of you guys..Lord I thank you for such awesome friends..I pray that we will remain this close Forever..

You guys..Valentines is not only a time for couples but it is a day to be grateful for your friends..so Happy Valentines all of you..I love ul so much..

And Lord I know that this is your way of saying that you love me.. Thank you..

muack
Crystal