Just You and Me in my Chambers courting

Just sitting in my room alone with a silence that seems so comforting.. sometimes its in this place that i feel safe, that I feel nothing can ever harm me or make me feel bad. No words could bring me down or tear me apart, Where its just You and me communing with each other, You teach me stuff and comfort me and help me realise that no matter what happens you're still there for me.. No matter how my faith dwindles Yours stays stable. Sometimes when i'm sitting there in Your presence i just don't wanna leave and go anywhere cos there's the perfect moment right there..

However the real world is still out there, my emotions are still real and people are still people. Despite knowing of your love for me, my heart strays to the past where everything seemed so prefect in my loneliness..my heart tends to give up when negative words are spoken on me, from strength to weakness i stray slowly not even realising it.. Where is that strength You built in me? Where is that women that You have chosen and given so much boldness to? why do words mean so much and relationships affect my tender heart the way it does?

Did you place love and compassion in my heart so it could be tested time and time again? How come when i love my friends and treasure them so much, they literally mean everything to me and one wrong word or action could affect me so deeply. How come when words are spoken they go right deep inside? Especially by the people I adore and treasure..Am i that fragile? did you create me that way for a reason?

Or are my weaknesses overwhelming me to a point i cant see the light? The need to be perfect in everyway is so evident even amongst the people i treasure the most..I wish i could be perfect sometimes but i guess its just not me..so Help plss my One and Only..cos I need you..

Im looking to You for an answer :( here alone with You feeling forlorn in my chambers..

I pray You will make me smile again and restore that strength i once used to have to bring that perfect moment out there to the world again.

Broken

The more you hurt me, the stronger i will become.
Friendship is not when you don't have anyone else..its thru thick and thin
Thru ups and downs
Be real! don't pretend to be someone you are not.
It nvr works

Nothing is forever

just had the most awesome sleep ever :)

I just felt lyk writing my heart today

Lord I thank You for for helping me thru this day and i know that even if the whole world lets me down You will always hold my hand. Even if the people closest people to me choose to step away You will still love me and be there for me. I dont have to worry because I have you beside me. All I need is to be secure in You and i know you will take care of the rest :)

nothing in life lasts forever so treasure it while you have it..trust me..

Drama drama drama

Im in jb...yes yes i am (yawn)..right now??im in mac d with alin n jon basically just doing nth or maybe trying to edit my thesis dang..kinda wish i was in Kampar tho cuz there would be more focus..Oh well make the best outta what i've got..For now im just tired and i wanna sleep..also a bit puked up about all the drama :( arghhhhhh!!! Theng Shu Ern i need you..seriously mann..anyway watever laa..

Wish i could be there for you :( Im praying for you kays? stay strong

Right i gtg real life awaits..about that post on my classmates??lets just put that on hold for now shall we? be back soon..

Dang

:( what an awesome way to start my super emoo post for today..arghhh i miss home super much..sigh..I cant even vaguely remember the last time i saw daddy..and no one is answering my call or replying my message from home..ahhhh what on earth are you guyz doing??How did the worship go this morning??i wanna knowww ish ish ish..

I really dont know what on earth i am still doing here..its all coming to an end soon but i really cant seem to see the end..dang..data analysis is killing me and i havent even started my final chapter yet. Daddy can I have some assistance plss :)

On a lighter note i got this cute sms from darling Collette today sayin smth lyk she dosent wanna friend me anymore cuz i din go back but i am her best sister or smth heheheheh that was damn funny..i just read it and fell back asleep..

Im tired, cranky and just emoo..wth is going on seriously..hah.. THENG SHU ERN pls come back soon..im missing your idioticity (if there is even such a word)..

This final sem is really killing me..everyone's complaining abt how they've gained weight..even Arthur can you believe it??i mean i know what they mean..no time for anything at all other than eat, sleep, do thesis, do assignments??can go mad wann..lack of sleep,lack of mee time,sometimes even find it hard to find time to pray :( i miss jogging, i miss swimming,i miss keeping fit dammit..ahhhhhhhhhhhhh..and DADDY's complaining ade..arghhh wat to doo???can someone explain to him plsss..

Oh well im just busy and really tired i guess..enough venting ade..whoever is reading this spare some time to pray for me oks?hehe..got to get back to it..

Ps-someone from home better call me soon :) dada

People Always leave

But the problem is.. She is not PEOPLE!! she is my life..Haixx.. WHAT IM GONNA DO??!! haha

Oh well the the sun still goes on shining and the world still goes on turning so i guess there is only one thing left to say..LIFE GOES ON!

My baby girl left on monday for Indonesia..University Padjajaran and i do miss her a lot but i know that she is happy and persuing her dream and im so proud of her..I love you baby girl..

She is my best friend and she has never failed to be there for me..I miss her..

Thru the years people have come and gone but youre the one who has stuck with me through it all..Baby i miss you so much and all those precious times we shared..cant wait till you get back

You are the best..I love you

Precious Friends

Woke up this morning with thoughts of my dearest long lost friends..really felt like i missed them and those awesome times we shared together so much..right now,looking back i dont even know how we managed to lose contact and end up like this..the only thing I remember is how I hated the fact that I had to leave Jb because of how much I loved them..

We had gotten like soo close and they were truly my inspiritaion and encouragement in my walk with Daddy God..Especially Crystal..she was like my big sister..

I really miss them Lord..Could you make a way again?

Crystal, Dana, Samantha, Sarah, Shaun, Athens, Sebas..I miss you guys like wayyy much..

It all seems like decades ago but in my heart it was like it all happened just yesterday. Lord its all in your hands..You know how much I love them..

I miss you guys n ul forever be precious friends to me

All because you loved me

• I never stood out in a crowd but you always managed to notice me and pick me out
• I am not sexy or hot but you always appreciated me for who I was and said that i was beautiful.
• I never had much self confidence but you kept on reminding me how much im worth and that there is more to life than just this
• We used to share the same passion and desire to see young people's lives transformed by Our Father
• When I was down and felt like giving up you were always only a phone call away
• You always took responsibility as a man in every circumstance even tho it was tough on you
• Your drive and determination in lfe always amazed me and caused me to do better.
• You laughed and played with me as if we were children again just to make me happy
• When i lost my temper you would hold my hand and calm me down
• You always forgave my mistakes
• When i was crying you always held me close and assured me that it was going to be alright
• You never despised me or looked down on me no matter what people said abt me
• You made me become the better person I am today

Tho the pause button has been hit on our song i will always be grateful to my Father because of such a precious gift he gave me. Tho you may regret this relationship and feel it was a mistake I never ever regreted it. It was the best four years of my life and I've learnt and grown so much because of your love. Father thank you so much for him..I will never know if the play button will ever be pressed again for our song but for now i have to be strong and continue moving on because I know that You have an awsome plan for my life.

My brand new love? My Father in heaven..

over and out

Crystal

Leaving on a jet plane

Two very important people in my life have left..one to continue studying and the other for military training. I miss both of them so much and everyday i think of the memories we shared, the good and bad times.the times we fought and the times we embraced each other..im talking about firstly my darling cousin Chris who has left for Romania and my darling Daniel who just went to Austrailia for training..haih I really hate distance and im missing both of them right now..just last week was chris farewell and birthday party and i really felt it at the last point where he gave his speech..

Chris I love you and ill always keep you in my prayer..thank you for being the worlds best cousin to me. You will always be in my heart..remember dear life is short so make it sweet!!..I love you..




And Darling im missing you very much right now..I cant wait for you to come back..you're my precious prince charming and everyday youre in my prayers and heart..im counting down the days.take care and I really really miss you.

The moments we will cherish forever

I really miss you very much and everyday I remember the beautiful times we spent together..

I remember...

The first time you booked out from camp and we spent the day together. It was super fun laughing in the mrt and having dinner with you at Ramen..

After church you had to go back to singapore and we wanted to just be alone with each other and we went to sds just sharing and talking dreading the parting moment..

We were stuck in the stupid Jam cos of Mat Selamat and we were so bored that we started playing the fool and taking pics and everyone was staring at us cos they were so stressed and we were playing like crazy...

The time you came to fetch me from KL all the way to JB..you're so sweet darling..I'll always be grateful for the sacrifices you make just to make me happy..that was the happiest day of my life getting to spend 4 hours just talking to you..I dont know how we always have so much to talk about..hehe

Our first official long distance trip with mummy and daddy to penang hill. It was awesome just being with you and again just enjoying every moment with u beside me. I remember the canopy walk and how you were so scared hehe..i love you darling..

Our first official movie alone hehe. I cant believe that we did that so late..I guess both of us prefer to be outside rather than inside..it was really fun. I ennjoyed it like any other time spent with you..

There are so many memories we shared together and more to come that I will never ever forget. I cherish everyone of them and when im not with you I always recall how beautiful each moment is..YOU ARE EXTRA SPECIAL and I LOVE YOU..I cant wait to see you soon ..thank you for loving me the way that you do.I want you to know I love you too..

I MISS YOU HONEY!!

I miss my baby

I dont get it sometimes..why does life have to be so unfair..im so far away from you

• I miss your smile
• I miss your sweet kind voice
• I miss spending time with you
• I miss laughing and playing with you
• I miss holding your gentle hands
• I miss being loved by you

I just miss every single thing abt you. One of my friends said that if we're far away from each other we would love and appreciate each other more. Maybe I agree but its not easy laa..I want you by my side.I guess life just has to go on.and I hope it gets better and the distance shortens..I want you to know that you're so precious to me I love you and we're gonna go thru this and come out strong.well got to go assignment calling out to me hehe..sien like crazy..bye bye