Not gonna blog today

Just got home from PK's retreat..I will tell you more tmr okay? gonna spend time praying now cuz there is a raging inside of me for more of him..I hope everyone reading this feels the same..If youre reading this go spend time with Your Lover!! He wants you!!

Lotsa love

I miss it just being You and me

Got back from the meeting this evening feeling like I'm below the ground..what else to do other than cry out to Him in the shower and just pull myself up again by His grace..

Next to the airport where i just felt like being silent and alone the whole time..found a quiet spot where i just sat and read about the life of Elisha in 1 Kings..How he got a double portion of what Elijah had all because he was faithful to God and also the man of God..what courage and determination..sounds a lot like the best friend of mine..

Flight arrives, she appears with smiles for everyone, that kinda cheers me up..n i drive silently back to Malaysia with the music on..the love birds chatting away at the back..love to see them so much in love..such an inspiration..

Dinner and got home to pack my things for camp tmr..

Finally finished and lying down to post something..but all i wanna say is i really miss being alone with my Lover..Just being me and Him all alone with no distractions..feeling His love and embrace and just loving Him back wanting nothing but to be in His presence lost in His awesome love..I hope i get that this camp..and I really pray God will speak to me clearly about what He wants for me..

Lord you see these hands? this voice? these feet? these lips? everything you created so beautifully they are for You..they belong to You..none of it belongs to me. with all my heart i willingly surrender to You my life and purpose and dreams..I just want to serve You with all I have and all I am..Let Your will alone be accomplished in my life..let not the things around me discourage me or cause me to lose focus.. All because I love you and my all? its for You..Cos nothings brings more joy than serving you.

Looking forward to the next 3 hours of sleep along with 3 beautiful days to go along with it..

My new lil friend

She poses now :)

What a darling :)

Damaris Jazlyn Augustine is an angel and I <3 her..cant wait to c her again soon..

First Borns are awesome :)

So this awesome guy gets back today :), Oh well he is no ordinary guy..

Before anyone of the others existed we were both alone on earth for like more than 7 months hahaha..we go back a long way..Remember when it was just the two of us fighting over who we loved more and who you wanted to be your wife hehe (my mum) haha..of cos the fun grew as the additions came along with the rest of the wacky group :)

N i remember what you said to me before Aunty Beaulah's wedding..we were pageboy and flower girl rem? and You said make sure you throw the flowers on me hehe..im not sure if you remember that but from wayyy back you loved to be appreciated and wanted and happy :)..

N you got what you wanted..everything you wanted :) a beautiful wife and 2 amazing princesses..for us we gained a beautiful sister and 2 beautiful nieces whom we adore..i remember tearing when you walked down the aisle thinking to myself omg i cant believe he is getting married.

After all we've been thru together thru the years..i think its safe to say i miss you cuz and I cant wait to c you later at the airport and give you a big hug :) and your amazing wifey and babies..its amazing that you're so far away and yet it feels like youre so close to me haha..i bet we all feel that way too..

Many things change but i guess some will just remain the way they are :) we will be the firstborns of the Augustine Family and carry a legacy of Christ to the future generations :) I love you..chat soon..

:)

So much for a title :) 3 months of not blogging.. I cant believe its that long..man, no need for updates..i guess its all on twitter and FB..

Oh well i suddenly felt inspired to write this morning when i woke up but now its all gone hahaha..

I guess ill just say some things that i wanna be grateful for cuz its 20 days to 2012 and i wanna enter the new year just being thankful for all the amazing things I have in my life..here goes

• My Amazing lil sister (a blessing since she was born till today..treasure her so much)
• Mum and Dad (They are perfect and i think they spoil us sometimes..anyhow <3 precious)
  
• My best friend (Best friends are almost impossible to find but God graciously gave me mine :) Thanks for being there)
• My Cuzzies Cal,Chloe,Chris,Cle,Carmel and not forgetting Caleb (so much joy with them)
  
• My darlings in KL and Penang and Kuching (you understand me when no one else does..i miss you guys heaps..Like my Shu Ern said GPS God Positioning System..I thank God i have u guys.No judging or comparing at all..just loving and caring and sincerity.Who could ever have such amazing friends?)
  
• Chandru and Athens for being amazing friends :) (You guys rock!)
• Tiny Matthew :) ( My long distance pal..She is beyond amazing)
  
• The gals and guys from YO (You love me and encourage me its awesome)
• My Job at FYH (All I can actually say is pure FAVOUR)

I Thank God for my Life and breath and everything I have because none of it belongs to me but it is all His. Tho things are not always perfect but i believe that all things work together for good to those who love him (Im getting there) and are called according to His purpose (quite sure of that).

2011has taught me many things and i guess one of those things is to be thankful. Ill never forget what my bestie told me a few months ago.. " STOP COMPLAINING, AND START BEING THANKFUL" haha i guess thats why he is my bestie.. aye aye sergeant..

Gtg get on with life now..like i always say weather you like it or not Life Goes On so you can either resent it or just Fall in love with it..

Crystal over and out

Crystaline is missing them :(

I miss you guys

• Shu ern
• Beverly
  
• Atiqah
• Visha
• Ponney
• Jia Wei
• Arthur
• Jolyn
• Ching Ching

We had so much fun together :( i miss those times when i could be nothing but me..you guys are the best n i've never felt alone when im with ul..sighhh i cant wait to c all of you again soon..

On a lighter note backpacking this Sunday..eventho its just Malaysia..its a start to many other backpacking trips we will have i believe..im gonna go mad n im gonna c my girls again yaaaay :) yahoooo..

Till the next update..

An unexplainable encounter

Someone said i only update this once a month :) haha oh well sorry laa busy sangat..

Here's something that still amazes me till today..

The previous Sat I was just alone in my room after a long day, n i was reading this new manual daddy gave me..n while I was reading suddenly The Holy Spirit started speaking to me in my heart..so I decided to put the book away and just spend some time praying..

Suddenly the whole atmosphere in my room changed and the presence of God was so strong. I could hardly breathe n was crying non stop.. It felt like He was just there right beside me..literally like a person sitting next to me embracing me..and the voice of the Holy Spirit was so clear suddenly inside of me speaking things that I really needed to hear.

I din even notice how fast the time was going. All I knew is I was there in His presence n I felt so undeserving..so unrighteous n yet His loving embrace persisted till i felt a peace in me..

I told God, Lord how nice if every morning when i wake up i can encounter You like this..It was amazing..just amazing..words cant describe how awesome it felt being loved and affirmed by my Saviour.

You must be wondering why you are reading this..I mean i encountered The Holy Spirit..but lemmie tell you something, as long as you are hungry God will fill you.. and a friend of mine said this today when i was talking to her..the moment you stop being hungry for God that is the moment you stop growing in Him..

My best friend told me 3 weeks back to stop complaining and to look for that strength again which i had somehow lost thru my circumstances n lemmie tell you God has never failed to be Faithful in my persuit for Him..Im amazed and I am looking forward to more..

Did everything change after the encounter?no more temptation, no more worries, no more loneliness??NO WAYY but something did change and that was my heart towards God..More trust, more reliability, A more sensitive heart to His sweet gentle voice..A harder nudge to obey that voice and prompting and an anointing n fire i have never felt before..literally..

As I laid hands to pray for the young people on Sat i literally felt the fire of God go thru some of them..again im saying this not for any praise or glory cos IT IS NOT ME IT IS ALL ABOUT HIM..EVERYTHING!! i just desire everyone of you reading this to hunger for God..be radical about it..even if it means you give up somethings in your life..

When i quit complaining and started serving with love i discovered what true passion is all about..Am i perfect omgg NO WAY but He is and my desire is I become more and more like Him day by day..

Be Hungry for God..cuz He is willing to fill you.. lotsa lovee :) have an awesome week..