Just You and Me in my Chambers courting

Just sitting in my room alone with a silence that seems so comforting.. sometimes its in this place that i feel safe, that I feel nothing can ever harm me or make me feel bad. No words could bring me down or tear me apart, Where its just You and me communing with each other, You teach me stuff and comfort me and help me realise that no matter what happens you're still there for me.. No matter how my faith dwindles Yours stays stable. Sometimes when i'm sitting there in Your presence i just don't wanna leave and go anywhere cos there's the perfect moment right there..

However the real world is still out there, my emotions are still real and people are still people. Despite knowing of your love for me, my heart strays to the past where everything seemed so prefect in my loneliness..my heart tends to give up when negative words are spoken on me, from strength to weakness i stray slowly not even realising it.. Where is that strength You built in me? Where is that women that You have chosen and given so much boldness to? why do words mean so much and relationships affect my tender heart the way it does?

Did you place love and compassion in my heart so it could be tested time and time again? How come when i love my friends and treasure them so much, they literally mean everything to me and one wrong word or action could affect me so deeply. How come when words are spoken they go right deep inside? Especially by the people I adore and treasure..Am i that fragile? did you create me that way for a reason?

Or are my weaknesses overwhelming me to a point i cant see the light? The need to be perfect in everyway is so evident even amongst the people i treasure the most..I wish i could be perfect sometimes but i guess its just not me..so Help plss my One and Only..cos I need you..

Im looking to You for an answer :( here alone with You feeling forlorn in my chambers..

I pray You will make me smile again and restore that strength i once used to have to bring that perfect moment out there to the world again.

Happy Birthday 大哥

Happy Birthday Koko May you have the best birthday ever, full of surprises and lotsa love :)

Thanks for being such an amazing brother to me. Its been a blessing knowing someone like you. You care and love people with no intention and when we speak you listen and eventho sometimes you say ' Who Cares' but im sure you still do haha.. ur the lamest and most awesome person and im sure many ppl know that too cos thats the way you are with everybody..

My prayer for you is that you will discover the calling that God has placed in your life and you will run with it :) I pray ul grow in Him and He will be your everything.. Smile and always be happy..I know this is a surprise to you but i hope its a good one :)

God bless you

its all good

Im in school now..supposed to be doing some work but its just not working ya know :) oh well no harm in a lil update..days have been amazing with alin.. I mean every day i have something exciting to look forward to..

Except for yesterday's lil manifestation by me cuz things din go as planned..i mean i really gotta try to take things easy and be flexible hmm, thus avoid wasting the time and hurting ppl.. Lord pls help me.. I need you..

Things have been crazy at work too..exam coming and i need to get this kids ready..its okay if they are submissive but argh sometimes its hard to get their attention.. Anyhow i cant help but to love them..especially the naughty ones :)

My prayer and hope for them is that each of them will find Jesus and their lives will be changed for His Glory. Lord give me more opportunities to speak to them and impact their lives.. I dont just wanna be a norm English teacher.

I told Alin yesterday beee plsss dont go back and I mean it seriously..haha.. she was like yeaa rightt hahaha... :) Anyhow i'm gonna enjoy the time I have with her as much as I can cuz I really treasure her to the maxx :)

PS- Looking forward to the road trip at the end of August :)

There you go my new Hairstyle :) i kinda like it cuz its the first time its really short haha

Finally the moment

I've been waiting for this moment for God knows how long..i mean it has felt like ages to me She is finally home.. The lil joy of my heart..every time she comes home its like she brings such a joy to my heart..I really really love her so much..

Apart from all my friends Cheryline Dorcas Nagarajan is my best friend. Someone i can share my whole heart with and someone who understands me and can scold me right to my face. I appreciate her so much cuz i've learnt so much just from her life.

She never aims to be anyone else but herself and she is perfect..so pure so amazing..today when she got up there to share, I was so amazed..my eyes teared cuz to me she is God's masterpiece of purity and no one can ever be like her.

I love her so much and I am grateful to God for blessing me with such an amazing sister..All I want for her is the best and to be happy..

Looking forward to the most amazing week with her around. Just knowing she is at home is a comfort that i'm not alone..I never feel alone when she is with me..

I can't wait to spoil her and pamper her all week :)

God Thank you for bringing her back..I love you lin you're the best thing God placed in my life.The Joy God brought into my life :)

Broken

The more you hurt me, the stronger i will become.
Friendship is not when you don't have anyone else..its thru thick and thin
Thru ups and downs
Be real! don't pretend to be someone you are not.
It nvr works