A perfect cuppa Coffee

And i'm ready to start the day.. the pic is super blurrr..time to get a new phone ade :)

I have a ton of things to do today and i Hope i get to finish at least half of them before prayer mtg tonight..but i just wanna say a few things before i go..im not sure how many ppl actually read this blog but if you do i hope today's post encourages you or like Derrick always says drowns you and gives you no choice but to swim,.

Some weird stuff happened this morning and yesterday causing me to be utterly down and after my angry workout this morning i decided to listen to a sermon..it literally spoke to my heart and i just listened my heart breaking inside of me and tears flowing..

The question that I wanna ask you today is how much do we want to know God?how much do we desire Him? are we just seeking Him cos we have things in our lives that need to be settled or do we need Him cos we need Him to manifest His power in our situations and in our calling? how many times have we just sat alone and said God i wanna know more about you and I want to love you..show me more of you..show me more of the amazing person you are..the truth is we attempt to know everything and everyone else more than we attempt to know Him..You know what we were created for? The very pleasure of God..to please him, to commune with Him and to love Him.

On Sat morning as i awoke, The Holy Spirit gently spoke to me.. " wake up and commune with me.." Could i have just ignored that voice and went back to sleep?..definitely..but it is when we heed to that voice and obey His presence will be so real to us and we begin to get familiar with the voice of God. Our God is an amazing sweet gentle person yet so strong and mighty and worthy to receive all glory and adoration.

The only way God can mold us and make us the people He wants us to be is if He breaks us.. and He will if you would allow Him..is it painful? of cos it is but with Him right there beside you to comfort you and guide you its amazing..cuz we were not created to be mediocre.. God created everyone of us to make a distinct difference wherever He places us.

How much you wanna know God will determine how much your friends and the people around you wanna know God.. It depends on you.

Take your eyes off the things that are behind and press forward to the greater and more amazing call of God.

Just something to start your day..lotsa love...

Monday

Woke up early this morning not knowing what the time or date was cuz my watch strap broke :) hahahaha..anyhow i felt super energetic and im kinda looking forward to this week..especially the end of it cos my lil sis Cheryline Dorcas Nagarajan will be back..I'm off today..on MC..gonna go service my car with daddy and we'll c what else there is to be done..

Already missing Nereeta..

Have an amazing week everyone..ill update as much as possible..

Another Beautiful day

Lotsa things happen everyday reminding us of many things..everyday produces a memory for tomorrow..Today was no less..

Youth meeting was amazing..worship literally brought down the presence of God..couldn't hold the tears back even sitting at the back doing the projector all blurry eyed..Nereeta I wish you were here longer to lead many more times hunie..and Johnny preached amazing..He talked about walking in the Spirit, something really vital that many ppl have lost sight of these days..It really ministered to me personally and i was blessed. I remember 3 points :) am I right?

1. Obeying the voice of God (How Abraham sacrificed Issac on the altar without questioning God and God was faithful to return to him his son and bless him by making him the father of many nations.
2. Prayer
3. Fasting

Awesome awesome awesome word of God and awesome man of God. I cant wait for His first miracle crusade and His first packed revival mtg :) i hope he doesn't read this or he will kill me for saying this..Oh well i'm just telling the truth..and I hope one day when it all comes to pass he will read this again and smile hehe..

It was also Nereeta's last Sat here so we arranged a small going away party for her for all her amazing ways and the awesome person that she is. I am gonna miss her so much..she has been such an encouragement to me thru this time and im really grateful to God for placing someone like her in my life. I hope and pray that you will excel in everything that you do and that you will be a blessing to many..3 John 2 I love you NN muacks..

Im just lying down on my bed right now thinking of the conversation i had with Mr Neong all the way back..life is slowly starting to change..ppl are changing, things are changing, our own lives are changing..i just hope that everyone gets a smile in the changes and no hearts are broken..

Not really tired..i guess ill read a bit before falling asleep..kinda miss chatting with the best friend who is super duper busy :) oh well LIFE GOES ON..

Good night everyone..have an amazing Sunday..ask God to speak to you..seriously He will :) he nvr fails to..

6 days more to a week of bliss :)

NN my love this pic is for you muacks I love you

My very first dental surgery

So i went to the clinic yesterday with an assumption that i'm just gonna have to pull out that wisdom tooth which has been bugging me for some time now. I mean what could go wrong right?simple procedure, just some injections to numb the pain and den some pressure and its out.

Little did i know that it was gonna be much worse than that.

Dr Charles: So are you ready for surgery?

Crystal: Yea, you meann like just pulling out my tooth right?

Dr Charles : No girl you gotta understand something, extraction and surgery are two different things.

Crystal: Okayyyyy sooo howw?

Dr Charles: Ill have to grind your tooth a little and cut out some of the bone to get to the wisdom tooth, den ill pull it out and clean up by removing the roots.

Crystal : (Squirms a lil) huh?? i guess its fine..

In my heart i was like "God pls help" already im totally freaked out whenever i go to the dentist..anyway it din take long..all the drilling and cutting took abt half an hour and I was done. I din really feel the pain till last night..it hurt so bad tears just couldn't stop flowing. Took the opportunity to manja a bit with daddy..made him feed me (grinz) but i really couldn't eat tho..this morning the pain is much better but half my face looks like a ball with the swelling :) haha..can't even talk or eat properly..

I have to go to church later cos i promised the guys..they better not laugh at me esp that Chandru and Athens..

And Theng Shu Ern your message yesterday? I felt like killing you lah but now i just feel like laughing..at the rate im going i think your right lah hehehe..i miss you so much la darling..i was just thinking of all the crazy memories we had and i mean can we pls get that back..at least for just a day or two laa..i'm the only crazy one alone here laa and ul are in KL..sighh..hope to meet ul soon..I love you and they rest of the monkeys too..

Oh well gotta rest.. Dr Charles said i gotta sleep it thru..hate all the medication btw..its messing with my tummy ahhhh..

Im back

I feel like saying RIP life goes on hehehe its been dead for so long and its all my fault :) seriously blogging is time consuming and takes inspiration laa..Theng Shu Ern thanks for getting me into this hehee :) i still love it tho..okay here's a short update on how things have been..

AWESOMEEEEE

Hahahahaha yes yes i know im lamee...i did a degree course with Athens and graduated but unfortunately with no honours cos he is the only one with a honours degree in lame-ness :) oh well things are great..working and learning soo many things daily. Eventho its tiring at times but i guess i still endure cos its something im passionate about, teaching. Working hard and trusting God to be an awesome teacher as a learn each day.

Church is awesome too..I cant believe im saying this but after so long of not going for prayer meeting i feel when i went the last 2 weeks its like i was totally refreshed and it like kick started the whole week. Youth outbreak's been driving me crazy too..these guys are totally passionate about what they do and they are awesome it amazes me :) ..Sunday service?oh well sometimes in the morning im like sooo tired and i just say God pls just speak to me and He does..right to my heart..God has been so faithful every single day of my life that Ill nvr doubt His goodness.. He is always there to cover me with His love be the best friend there could ever be..

2 weeks holiday flew past like the wind..had a blast at Bandung with the 2 ppl I love the most..and I din feel like a tiang lampu at all cos i felt how much both of them loved me and accepted me..played like crazyy :) and after that church camp, play again and den it was time to get down to serious business of marking the exam papers sighhh..thanks Johnny for helping me..couldnt have finished so fast if you din help me hehe :)

Anyway school is back on and im running around again..setting the exam questions for the coming test haha..brand new experience for me and i know its all for a purpose.. For now im really happy with life and everything around me :) and i pray things will start getting clearer and better.

PS: Lord I love you so much and I thank you for the person you are making out of me. Speak to me Lord and I will listen. All I want for my life is for Your will to be done and nothing else..not my desires or dreams or purposes..you say it and I will do it. Quoted : Enlarge my heart to know your will and to do your will.

To whoever is reading this i just wanna encourage you to run this race with passion cuz Jesus ran His race on this earth with you as His passion. Yes things may get difficult at times and you feel like giving up but hang in there..dont let go of His promises cuz He will nvr let go of you. If you fall pick yourself up and move on, encourage yourself in Him. There is nothing to great He cannot understand cuz im telling you guys there is not much time for us on earth. We gotta start running with such passion so the world will c the Jesus in us.

Love you guys :) and God bless yall.

RIP Alvin : Ul always be remembered as an amazing teacher and person who cared for and loved people. Im sure great is your reward in heaven.

gtg..and best friend thanks for the inspiration to blog again hehe :) it paid off.. How on earth did God choose such amazing friends for me ar? man God really must love me like crazy hehehe..