Not gonna blog today

Just got home from PK's retreat..I will tell you more tmr okay? gonna spend time praying now cuz there is a raging inside of me for more of him..I hope everyone reading this feels the same..If youre reading this go spend time with Your Lover!! He wants you!!

Lotsa love

I miss it just being You and me

Got back from the meeting this evening feeling like I'm below the ground..what else to do other than cry out to Him in the shower and just pull myself up again by His grace..

Next to the airport where i just felt like being silent and alone the whole time..found a quiet spot where i just sat and read about the life of Elisha in 1 Kings..How he got a double portion of what Elijah had all because he was faithful to God and also the man of God..what courage and determination..sounds a lot like the best friend of mine..

Flight arrives, she appears with smiles for everyone, that kinda cheers me up..n i drive silently back to Malaysia with the music on..the love birds chatting away at the back..love to see them so much in love..such an inspiration..

Dinner and got home to pack my things for camp tmr..

Finally finished and lying down to post something..but all i wanna say is i really miss being alone with my Lover..Just being me and Him all alone with no distractions..feeling His love and embrace and just loving Him back wanting nothing but to be in His presence lost in His awesome love..I hope i get that this camp..and I really pray God will speak to me clearly about what He wants for me..

Lord you see these hands? this voice? these feet? these lips? everything you created so beautifully they are for You..they belong to You..none of it belongs to me. with all my heart i willingly surrender to You my life and purpose and dreams..I just want to serve You with all I have and all I am..Let Your will alone be accomplished in my life..let not the things around me discourage me or cause me to lose focus.. All because I love you and my all? its for You..Cos nothings brings more joy than serving you.

Looking forward to the next 3 hours of sleep along with 3 beautiful days to go along with it..

My new lil friend

She poses now :)

What a darling :)

Damaris Jazlyn Augustine is an angel and I <3 her..cant wait to c her again soon..

First Borns are awesome :)

So this awesome guy gets back today :), Oh well he is no ordinary guy..

Before anyone of the others existed we were both alone on earth for like more than 7 months hahaha..we go back a long way..Remember when it was just the two of us fighting over who we loved more and who you wanted to be your wife hehe (my mum) haha..of cos the fun grew as the additions came along with the rest of the wacky group :)

N i remember what you said to me before Aunty Beaulah's wedding..we were pageboy and flower girl rem? and You said make sure you throw the flowers on me hehe..im not sure if you remember that but from wayyy back you loved to be appreciated and wanted and happy :)..

N you got what you wanted..everything you wanted :) a beautiful wife and 2 amazing princesses..for us we gained a beautiful sister and 2 beautiful nieces whom we adore..i remember tearing when you walked down the aisle thinking to myself omg i cant believe he is getting married.

After all we've been thru together thru the years..i think its safe to say i miss you cuz and I cant wait to c you later at the airport and give you a big hug :) and your amazing wifey and babies..its amazing that you're so far away and yet it feels like youre so close to me haha..i bet we all feel that way too..

Many things change but i guess some will just remain the way they are :) we will be the firstborns of the Augustine Family and carry a legacy of Christ to the future generations :) I love you..chat soon..

:)

So much for a title :) 3 months of not blogging.. I cant believe its that long..man, no need for updates..i guess its all on twitter and FB..

Oh well i suddenly felt inspired to write this morning when i woke up but now its all gone hahaha..

I guess ill just say some things that i wanna be grateful for cuz its 20 days to 2012 and i wanna enter the new year just being thankful for all the amazing things I have in my life..here goes

• My Amazing lil sister (a blessing since she was born till today..treasure her so much)
• Mum and Dad (They are perfect and i think they spoil us sometimes..anyhow <3 precious)
  
• My best friend (Best friends are almost impossible to find but God graciously gave me mine :) Thanks for being there)
• My Cuzzies Cal,Chloe,Chris,Cle,Carmel and not forgetting Caleb (so much joy with them)
  
• My darlings in KL and Penang and Kuching (you understand me when no one else does..i miss you guys heaps..Like my Shu Ern said GPS God Positioning System..I thank God i have u guys.No judging or comparing at all..just loving and caring and sincerity.Who could ever have such amazing friends?)
  
• Chandru and Athens for being amazing friends :) (You guys rock!)
• Tiny Matthew :) ( My long distance pal..She is beyond amazing)
  
• The gals and guys from YO (You love me and encourage me its awesome)
• My Job at FYH (All I can actually say is pure FAVOUR)

I Thank God for my Life and breath and everything I have because none of it belongs to me but it is all His. Tho things are not always perfect but i believe that all things work together for good to those who love him (Im getting there) and are called according to His purpose (quite sure of that).

2011has taught me many things and i guess one of those things is to be thankful. Ill never forget what my bestie told me a few months ago.. " STOP COMPLAINING, AND START BEING THANKFUL" haha i guess thats why he is my bestie.. aye aye sergeant..

Gtg get on with life now..like i always say weather you like it or not Life Goes On so you can either resent it or just Fall in love with it..

Crystal over and out

Crystaline is missing them :(

I miss you guys

• Shu ern
• Beverly
  
• Atiqah
• Visha
• Ponney
• Jia Wei
• Arthur
• Jolyn
• Ching Ching

We had so much fun together :( i miss those times when i could be nothing but me..you guys are the best n i've never felt alone when im with ul..sighhh i cant wait to c all of you again soon..

On a lighter note backpacking this Sunday..eventho its just Malaysia..its a start to many other backpacking trips we will have i believe..im gonna go mad n im gonna c my girls again yaaaay :) yahoooo..

Till the next update..

An unexplainable encounter

Someone said i only update this once a month :) haha oh well sorry laa busy sangat..

Here's something that still amazes me till today..

The previous Sat I was just alone in my room after a long day, n i was reading this new manual daddy gave me..n while I was reading suddenly The Holy Spirit started speaking to me in my heart..so I decided to put the book away and just spend some time praying..

Suddenly the whole atmosphere in my room changed and the presence of God was so strong. I could hardly breathe n was crying non stop.. It felt like He was just there right beside me..literally like a person sitting next to me embracing me..and the voice of the Holy Spirit was so clear suddenly inside of me speaking things that I really needed to hear.

I din even notice how fast the time was going. All I knew is I was there in His presence n I felt so undeserving..so unrighteous n yet His loving embrace persisted till i felt a peace in me..

I told God, Lord how nice if every morning when i wake up i can encounter You like this..It was amazing..just amazing..words cant describe how awesome it felt being loved and affirmed by my Saviour.

You must be wondering why you are reading this..I mean i encountered The Holy Spirit..but lemmie tell you something, as long as you are hungry God will fill you.. and a friend of mine said this today when i was talking to her..the moment you stop being hungry for God that is the moment you stop growing in Him..

My best friend told me 3 weeks back to stop complaining and to look for that strength again which i had somehow lost thru my circumstances n lemmie tell you God has never failed to be Faithful in my persuit for Him..Im amazed and I am looking forward to more..

Did everything change after the encounter?no more temptation, no more worries, no more loneliness??NO WAYY but something did change and that was my heart towards God..More trust, more reliability, A more sensitive heart to His sweet gentle voice..A harder nudge to obey that voice and prompting and an anointing n fire i have never felt before..literally..

As I laid hands to pray for the young people on Sat i literally felt the fire of God go thru some of them..again im saying this not for any praise or glory cos IT IS NOT ME IT IS ALL ABOUT HIM..EVERYTHING!! i just desire everyone of you reading this to hunger for God..be radical about it..even if it means you give up somethings in your life..

When i quit complaining and started serving with love i discovered what true passion is all about..Am i perfect omgg NO WAY but He is and my desire is I become more and more like Him day by day..

Be Hungry for God..cuz He is willing to fill you.. lotsa lovee :) have an awesome week..

Just You and Me in my Chambers courting

Just sitting in my room alone with a silence that seems so comforting.. sometimes its in this place that i feel safe, that I feel nothing can ever harm me or make me feel bad. No words could bring me down or tear me apart, Where its just You and me communing with each other, You teach me stuff and comfort me and help me realise that no matter what happens you're still there for me.. No matter how my faith dwindles Yours stays stable. Sometimes when i'm sitting there in Your presence i just don't wanna leave and go anywhere cos there's the perfect moment right there..

However the real world is still out there, my emotions are still real and people are still people. Despite knowing of your love for me, my heart strays to the past where everything seemed so prefect in my loneliness..my heart tends to give up when negative words are spoken on me, from strength to weakness i stray slowly not even realising it.. Where is that strength You built in me? Where is that women that You have chosen and given so much boldness to? why do words mean so much and relationships affect my tender heart the way it does?

Did you place love and compassion in my heart so it could be tested time and time again? How come when i love my friends and treasure them so much, they literally mean everything to me and one wrong word or action could affect me so deeply. How come when words are spoken they go right deep inside? Especially by the people I adore and treasure..Am i that fragile? did you create me that way for a reason?

Or are my weaknesses overwhelming me to a point i cant see the light? The need to be perfect in everyway is so evident even amongst the people i treasure the most..I wish i could be perfect sometimes but i guess its just not me..so Help plss my One and Only..cos I need you..

Im looking to You for an answer :( here alone with You feeling forlorn in my chambers..

I pray You will make me smile again and restore that strength i once used to have to bring that perfect moment out there to the world again.

Happy Birthday 大哥

Happy Birthday Koko May you have the best birthday ever, full of surprises and lotsa love :)

Thanks for being such an amazing brother to me. Its been a blessing knowing someone like you. You care and love people with no intention and when we speak you listen and eventho sometimes you say ' Who Cares' but im sure you still do haha.. ur the lamest and most awesome person and im sure many ppl know that too cos thats the way you are with everybody..

My prayer for you is that you will discover the calling that God has placed in your life and you will run with it :) I pray ul grow in Him and He will be your everything.. Smile and always be happy..I know this is a surprise to you but i hope its a good one :)

God bless you

its all good

Im in school now..supposed to be doing some work but its just not working ya know :) oh well no harm in a lil update..days have been amazing with alin.. I mean every day i have something exciting to look forward to..

Except for yesterday's lil manifestation by me cuz things din go as planned..i mean i really gotta try to take things easy and be flexible hmm, thus avoid wasting the time and hurting ppl.. Lord pls help me.. I need you..

Things have been crazy at work too..exam coming and i need to get this kids ready..its okay if they are submissive but argh sometimes its hard to get their attention.. Anyhow i cant help but to love them..especially the naughty ones :)

My prayer and hope for them is that each of them will find Jesus and their lives will be changed for His Glory. Lord give me more opportunities to speak to them and impact their lives.. I dont just wanna be a norm English teacher.

I told Alin yesterday beee plsss dont go back and I mean it seriously..haha.. she was like yeaa rightt hahaha... :) Anyhow i'm gonna enjoy the time I have with her as much as I can cuz I really treasure her to the maxx :)

PS- Looking forward to the road trip at the end of August :)

There you go my new Hairstyle :) i kinda like it cuz its the first time its really short haha

Finally the moment

I've been waiting for this moment for God knows how long..i mean it has felt like ages to me She is finally home.. The lil joy of my heart..every time she comes home its like she brings such a joy to my heart..I really really love her so much..

Apart from all my friends Cheryline Dorcas Nagarajan is my best friend. Someone i can share my whole heart with and someone who understands me and can scold me right to my face. I appreciate her so much cuz i've learnt so much just from her life.

She never aims to be anyone else but herself and she is perfect..so pure so amazing..today when she got up there to share, I was so amazed..my eyes teared cuz to me she is God's masterpiece of purity and no one can ever be like her.

I love her so much and I am grateful to God for blessing me with such an amazing sister..All I want for her is the best and to be happy..

Looking forward to the most amazing week with her around. Just knowing she is at home is a comfort that i'm not alone..I never feel alone when she is with me..

I can't wait to spoil her and pamper her all week :)

God Thank you for bringing her back..I love you lin you're the best thing God placed in my life.The Joy God brought into my life :)

Broken

The more you hurt me, the stronger i will become.
Friendship is not when you don't have anyone else..its thru thick and thin
Thru ups and downs
Be real! don't pretend to be someone you are not.
It nvr works

A perfect cuppa Coffee

And i'm ready to start the day.. the pic is super blurrr..time to get a new phone ade :)

I have a ton of things to do today and i Hope i get to finish at least half of them before prayer mtg tonight..but i just wanna say a few things before i go..im not sure how many ppl actually read this blog but if you do i hope today's post encourages you or like Derrick always says drowns you and gives you no choice but to swim,.

Some weird stuff happened this morning and yesterday causing me to be utterly down and after my angry workout this morning i decided to listen to a sermon..it literally spoke to my heart and i just listened my heart breaking inside of me and tears flowing..

The question that I wanna ask you today is how much do we want to know God?how much do we desire Him? are we just seeking Him cos we have things in our lives that need to be settled or do we need Him cos we need Him to manifest His power in our situations and in our calling? how many times have we just sat alone and said God i wanna know more about you and I want to love you..show me more of you..show me more of the amazing person you are..the truth is we attempt to know everything and everyone else more than we attempt to know Him..You know what we were created for? The very pleasure of God..to please him, to commune with Him and to love Him.

On Sat morning as i awoke, The Holy Spirit gently spoke to me.. " wake up and commune with me.." Could i have just ignored that voice and went back to sleep?..definitely..but it is when we heed to that voice and obey His presence will be so real to us and we begin to get familiar with the voice of God. Our God is an amazing sweet gentle person yet so strong and mighty and worthy to receive all glory and adoration.

The only way God can mold us and make us the people He wants us to be is if He breaks us.. and He will if you would allow Him..is it painful? of cos it is but with Him right there beside you to comfort you and guide you its amazing..cuz we were not created to be mediocre.. God created everyone of us to make a distinct difference wherever He places us.

How much you wanna know God will determine how much your friends and the people around you wanna know God.. It depends on you.

Take your eyes off the things that are behind and press forward to the greater and more amazing call of God.

Just something to start your day..lotsa love...

Monday

Woke up early this morning not knowing what the time or date was cuz my watch strap broke :) hahahaha..anyhow i felt super energetic and im kinda looking forward to this week..especially the end of it cos my lil sis Cheryline Dorcas Nagarajan will be back..I'm off today..on MC..gonna go service my car with daddy and we'll c what else there is to be done..

Already missing Nereeta..

Have an amazing week everyone..ill update as much as possible..

Another Beautiful day

Lotsa things happen everyday reminding us of many things..everyday produces a memory for tomorrow..Today was no less..

Youth meeting was amazing..worship literally brought down the presence of God..couldn't hold the tears back even sitting at the back doing the projector all blurry eyed..Nereeta I wish you were here longer to lead many more times hunie..and Johnny preached amazing..He talked about walking in the Spirit, something really vital that many ppl have lost sight of these days..It really ministered to me personally and i was blessed. I remember 3 points :) am I right?

1. Obeying the voice of God (How Abraham sacrificed Issac on the altar without questioning God and God was faithful to return to him his son and bless him by making him the father of many nations.
2. Prayer
3. Fasting

Awesome awesome awesome word of God and awesome man of God. I cant wait for His first miracle crusade and His first packed revival mtg :) i hope he doesn't read this or he will kill me for saying this..Oh well i'm just telling the truth..and I hope one day when it all comes to pass he will read this again and smile hehe..

It was also Nereeta's last Sat here so we arranged a small going away party for her for all her amazing ways and the awesome person that she is. I am gonna miss her so much..she has been such an encouragement to me thru this time and im really grateful to God for placing someone like her in my life. I hope and pray that you will excel in everything that you do and that you will be a blessing to many..3 John 2 I love you NN muacks..

Im just lying down on my bed right now thinking of the conversation i had with Mr Neong all the way back..life is slowly starting to change..ppl are changing, things are changing, our own lives are changing..i just hope that everyone gets a smile in the changes and no hearts are broken..

Not really tired..i guess ill read a bit before falling asleep..kinda miss chatting with the best friend who is super duper busy :) oh well LIFE GOES ON..

Good night everyone..have an amazing Sunday..ask God to speak to you..seriously He will :) he nvr fails to..

6 days more to a week of bliss :)

NN my love this pic is for you muacks I love you

My very first dental surgery

So i went to the clinic yesterday with an assumption that i'm just gonna have to pull out that wisdom tooth which has been bugging me for some time now. I mean what could go wrong right?simple procedure, just some injections to numb the pain and den some pressure and its out.

Little did i know that it was gonna be much worse than that.

Dr Charles: So are you ready for surgery?

Crystal: Yea, you meann like just pulling out my tooth right?

Dr Charles : No girl you gotta understand something, extraction and surgery are two different things.

Crystal: Okayyyyy sooo howw?

Dr Charles: Ill have to grind your tooth a little and cut out some of the bone to get to the wisdom tooth, den ill pull it out and clean up by removing the roots.

Crystal : (Squirms a lil) huh?? i guess its fine..

In my heart i was like "God pls help" already im totally freaked out whenever i go to the dentist..anyway it din take long..all the drilling and cutting took abt half an hour and I was done. I din really feel the pain till last night..it hurt so bad tears just couldn't stop flowing. Took the opportunity to manja a bit with daddy..made him feed me (grinz) but i really couldn't eat tho..this morning the pain is much better but half my face looks like a ball with the swelling :) haha..can't even talk or eat properly..

I have to go to church later cos i promised the guys..they better not laugh at me esp that Chandru and Athens..

And Theng Shu Ern your message yesterday? I felt like killing you lah but now i just feel like laughing..at the rate im going i think your right lah hehehe..i miss you so much la darling..i was just thinking of all the crazy memories we had and i mean can we pls get that back..at least for just a day or two laa..i'm the only crazy one alone here laa and ul are in KL..sighh..hope to meet ul soon..I love you and they rest of the monkeys too..

Oh well gotta rest.. Dr Charles said i gotta sleep it thru..hate all the medication btw..its messing with my tummy ahhhh..

Im back

I feel like saying RIP life goes on hehehe its been dead for so long and its all my fault :) seriously blogging is time consuming and takes inspiration laa..Theng Shu Ern thanks for getting me into this hehee :) i still love it tho..okay here's a short update on how things have been..

AWESOMEEEEE

Hahahahaha yes yes i know im lamee...i did a degree course with Athens and graduated but unfortunately with no honours cos he is the only one with a honours degree in lame-ness :) oh well things are great..working and learning soo many things daily. Eventho its tiring at times but i guess i still endure cos its something im passionate about, teaching. Working hard and trusting God to be an awesome teacher as a learn each day.

Church is awesome too..I cant believe im saying this but after so long of not going for prayer meeting i feel when i went the last 2 weeks its like i was totally refreshed and it like kick started the whole week. Youth outbreak's been driving me crazy too..these guys are totally passionate about what they do and they are awesome it amazes me :) ..Sunday service?oh well sometimes in the morning im like sooo tired and i just say God pls just speak to me and He does..right to my heart..God has been so faithful every single day of my life that Ill nvr doubt His goodness.. He is always there to cover me with His love be the best friend there could ever be..

2 weeks holiday flew past like the wind..had a blast at Bandung with the 2 ppl I love the most..and I din feel like a tiang lampu at all cos i felt how much both of them loved me and accepted me..played like crazyy :) and after that church camp, play again and den it was time to get down to serious business of marking the exam papers sighhh..thanks Johnny for helping me..couldnt have finished so fast if you din help me hehe :)

Anyway school is back on and im running around again..setting the exam questions for the coming test haha..brand new experience for me and i know its all for a purpose.. For now im really happy with life and everything around me :) and i pray things will start getting clearer and better.

PS: Lord I love you so much and I thank you for the person you are making out of me. Speak to me Lord and I will listen. All I want for my life is for Your will to be done and nothing else..not my desires or dreams or purposes..you say it and I will do it. Quoted : Enlarge my heart to know your will and to do your will.

To whoever is reading this i just wanna encourage you to run this race with passion cuz Jesus ran His race on this earth with you as His passion. Yes things may get difficult at times and you feel like giving up but hang in there..dont let go of His promises cuz He will nvr let go of you. If you fall pick yourself up and move on, encourage yourself in Him. There is nothing to great He cannot understand cuz im telling you guys there is not much time for us on earth. We gotta start running with such passion so the world will c the Jesus in us.

Love you guys :) and God bless yall.

RIP Alvin : Ul always be remembered as an amazing teacher and person who cared for and loved people. Im sure great is your reward in heaven.

gtg..and best friend thanks for the inspiration to blog again hehe :) it paid off.. How on earth did God choose such amazing friends for me ar? man God really must love me like crazy hehehe..

Nothing is forever

just had the most awesome sleep ever :)

I just felt lyk writing my heart today

Lord I thank You for for helping me thru this day and i know that even if the whole world lets me down You will always hold my hand. Even if the people closest people to me choose to step away You will still love me and be there for me. I dont have to worry because I have you beside me. All I need is to be secure in You and i know you will take care of the rest :)

nothing in life lasts forever so treasure it while you have it..trust me..

What do you want from me???

i mean seriously

• I do everything you want me to even if it doesnt make sense


• and you still find fault with me


• and cause trouble


• arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


• i dont wanna end up like her cos of you


• ppl revere you..and still ur lyk that


• I dont get it..none of it..


• its hurting everytime you say things before thinking

ever felt like youre unappreciated??yeahhh..i mean after everything its like you did nothing..common..you wanna dominate??go ahead im not stopping you..im secure..i dont need all that fame to keep me going..nyhow..alin's principle..just continue loving..i guess ill do that..im not lazy i just don want to be taken advantage of!!! Im tired of feeling hurt and unwanted and used! im over all that..if im doing something its because i Love Jesus and He is the only person im serving..so like Issac (the devil) says..go ahead make my day.

I miss you guys like crazy Theng Shu Ern, Bev, Atiqah, Visha Ponney, Jolyn, Jia, Arthur..we must meet up soon okayy?

An amazing day

24 years ago on this very day Daddy God brought me into this world with a big perfect picture of how my whole entire life was going to be like :) tho sometimes things get difficult i nvr fail to remember that i can only see a small part of that picture while he sees it all.. so everything that i dont understand i just have to trust it in His hands.

The last 24 years have been full of His grace and mercy from one step to another and i would have nvr made it to this point if not for His mercy and grace.. Which brings me to todayy :)

I had the most amazing day full of love and surprises..not at all what i dreamed of, but much more than that..

The kids celebrated my birthday at school..surprised me with the birthday song in 3 languages and an awsome cake :) their love touches my heart..and I've only taught for 2 months? *touched*

Lunch was with athens, Chan and Sohba..Japanese foodd :) amazing, with the awesome new room lamp that im in love with..cant believe they lied to me about renting the car and stuff hehe..anyhow im super touched..btw guys if it was just the card i still would have been overjoyed..thank you so much..im blessed to have friends lyk yall i know i can depend on..

And mummy ur crazy but seriously amazing..flowers to my school? a cake with my pic on it? and 24 ppl calling to wish me and pray for me?omgggg what else ma?I love you and thank you so much..im missing having you around so much..come home soon okayy..

To end the day i had a date with my daddy..we talked(gossipped) hehehhe and ate and daddy bought me a cute pouch for school..super sweet..I love you daddy..i know how busy you are and yet you took the time to take me out and get me a rose from the garden..it all means the world to me and I love you..

Alin, John i miss you guys like crazyy thanks for the wishes and calls it means the world..

The highlight of this years' awesome birthday of cos was the surprise party organized by my sweet darlings..I love you guyz so so much..it was the blastt..

Ending today with my Daddy God..everyone's asleep :)

if i could sum up this day i would simply call it perfect...i have so much to be grateful for and nothing to complain about..im sooo much loved and i love everyone who made me feel loved too.. Im amazed..and I just have to say Daddy God I love you and I thank You for everything you have so graciously blessed me with..my heart is overwhelmed with how much you love me..All I want is to be closer to you..lead me and guide me as I step into another year of my life once again. Let my steps and path glorify you. I love you.

To everyone who went all out to make this day special thank you so much..I love all of you..thanks for the wishes, gifts, surprises and of cos abundance of love..im blessed and touched..I love all of you so much..

I wonder..is my best friend coming back this wk-end..oh well who knows hehehe :)

Going to spend the last hour taking a love break..c yall..

The past few weeks

Im just lying down and i cant sleep haha..thinking of the past few amazing weeks that have gone by so quickly..

The last time i wrote was 2 days before convo and that week-end itself was a blast.

I remember just sitting down quietly while the guest of honour was speaking, thinking omg I would have never made it even half way if it was not the grace of God.

And Thru everything situation God just came thru miraculously. I disntictively remember one day before my semantics paper crying and losing it because of some situation but in the end God just gave me the strength to pull thru and to do exceedingly well :)

Also giving me such wonderful, supportive parents who love me and care for me in every circumstance. I'm so grateful to have finished my degree and come back to a debt free career. All God's mercy and amazing parents who are so responsible. Mummy and Daddy i love yall so so much.

Anyway convo was awesome and the best part was to have my family there right beside me together with all my amazing friends. I think convo was by far the most amazing time i had..all the gifts and pampering hehe..thanks baby girl for coming back..having you around was the best thing for me..muacks..

Buddy thanks for being there too.. meant the world to me..utter crazy fun hehe :)

After convo the weeks passed so quickly with work (which By God's grace im getting used to everyday and amazingly starting to enjoy it) and everything else that i even lost track of time..just the normal everyday routine,

till yesterday..

Oh well the day started perfectly normal..i knew i had a lot to do with John and Chan both not around plus work..i was kinda mentally prepared for it and the day was like is was supposed to be..busy busy busy till finally youth meeting was over and everyone was acting a lil weird..they all left me and went 'back' haha and suddenly Johnny called..

Johnny: "Bud, what if i told you that im back and wanna hang out!"

Crystal: OMGG are you serious??

Johnny: yes yes get your ass to larkin and fetch me noww!!

Crystal: haha okok im coming now :)

And they tricked me all the way to the awesome surprise..I was so shocked and touched..they even composed a song for me smth like

OHHHHH crystaline HAPPY Birthdayy..sooo sweettt :)

All of you who worked so hard to put this together thank you so so much..

Neereta, Hannah, Shan, Derrick, Bryan, Christina, Sam, Chris, Chandru, Johnny, Issac, Gab(s) and Mark thank uuuuu..I love you guysss so so so much..

All of you are a treasure that God has placed in my life for a specific purpose and I really appreciate you guys a lot. Who would have thought that we would be so close like this right?its all God's devine appointment. You guys rock and i dont have to worry about being alone no more cos i know that wen i call ul will be there right?? ( its in the song) hahaah..muacks.. thanks again..

And Neereta, Issac, Johnny and Chan thanks for the wonderful leopard prints top..im lovin it so so much and im gonna rock it more than you know :)

Most of all Lord I thank you for your goodness and faithfullness thru all of it. You have never failed to be there for me in every circumstance and situation and I love You more than anything in this whole world..

Looking forward to an amazing week ahead and im missing mummy who has gone to be with my lil sis in Bandung for her exams :)..got to get some sleep now..promise another update soon :)

The clouds of Love

How i wish I could just take it all away
and be gone in dreams with you
to the place where there's only you, me
and Love
With you alone, lost in love
I call the clouds of love
which will vanish us away from this world
to the place full of love
Oh how I long that the clouds of love
just linger between us
It makes us lose ourselves
and find the true meaning of love

When we are alone,
covered and embraced by the clouds of love
My love for you begins to ignite
when i just hold your hand and look into
your flaming eyes
I lose myself in your love
the clouds all over us
In the midst of those clouds
I would just kiss your sweet lips and make it all perfect for you

We are just lost in those clouds
just you and me all alone
making love and losing ourselves to each other
closely, intimate touch and embrace
the waves of love from you
ahh in those clouds of love


When i read this my eyes teared..so much passion and love

From a very inspired, very talented writer who inspires me every single day :)

road trip

Leaving to kl tmr yahoooooo!!! cant wait hehe
I dont think im gonna sleep tonight..need to pack and im still slacking hehehe
its gonna be awesome yaaay
4 hours to go
will update soon..
Love you guyz..

And then

Just got back from KL about an hour ago ;) cant sleep argh hehe..i guess i slept too much in the bus kot..

I had an amazing time with the craziest bunch that i love so dearly..was chatting and laughing and suddenly i felt so at home and accepted..guess thats what friends are supposed to feel like.

Had to collect our convo attire today and the management made the whole hall feel like it was already convo..there was such a sense of excitement and nostalgia as they played last years video over and over again..i started tearing..

Looking back at the 3 years of havoc i would have never made it outta there if not for the Grace of God and His constant hand of love and protection over me. Im in awe.
Tried on our gowns and mortar boards..registered for pics on that day and collected our guest tickets. All set for convo..all i need now is another 2 extra tickets for alin n Johnny and well be ready.

Im preety excited but at the same time mixed feelings about everything not going perfectly.silly me..God is in control remember?

As i boarded the bus back to JB so many thoughts started filling my mind..uncertainties,doubts,regrets..i mean its normal considering we're living life everyday around these things. But i just had to stop and remind myself that hey My Daddy in heaven is still in control and i have to do what he told me to and just trust.

I guess everything is going to be alright. I miss my friends already..looking forward for this wk's holiday :) and thursdayy..hope i can blog during the wk-end..ill try hehe..gtg get some sleepp..daddy wants to cycle tmr morning..depends if i can wake up hehe :)

nitezz everyone..you are very much lovedd..

Some of the recording pics

The gorgeous girls with fantastic vocals
Our amazing vocal producer Patrick Leong

yess thats mee :) hehe

The whole gang..we had loads of fun

cant remember what song we were singing here hehehe

It was an amazing experience and we're looking forward for more..more pics on FB, nai's profilee

official leave :)

School's out for a week yahoooo :) i know its gonna past super fast but i intend to enjoy every bit of it haha..yesterday as i was teaching the last class i could feel the anticipation rising in me..its not easy to teach when youre distracted haha..

So how do I plan to spend these few days?

• Im going to kl todayyy to meet all my sweeties
• Collect my convo outfit and tickets for my awesome family
• start lesson planning at least for the next month
• have discipleship class with the girls
• spend more time reading the word and praying (man do i miss it)
• clean my roommm :)

And of cos all this has to be done from monday to wed cos Thurday alin will be backkk!! yahoooo..and then its shopping and going crazyy in KL..mummy and daddy will be there too hahas :) and of cos convo's on Sat morning..

Im kinda looking forward to today's bus ride to kl..its been a while since i travelled and i miss those times where i would shut the whole world out and just worship and pray alone with my Daddy God..

Also very much looking forward to meeting those crazy friends of mine..i'll bet we have tons to talk about since we've all started working already hehehe.. its gonna be fun

speaking of.. i havent packed a thing omggg..better get going..

gonna miss the girls here and youth :( ill be back Sunday kay girls?lotsa love

Crystal

Daddy's Embrace

Owh well thats so far the name of the youth album :) that should be coming out soon..

2 days of endless recording at oopss asia singapore with the amazing producer Patrick Leong. He totally amazed me with the talent, patience and amazing skill.

When we wrote those songs, never did we think that one day it would come out and be recorded as an album :) when i heard everyone singing those songs my heart leaped with joy and I thanked God for His faithfullness.. My prayer is that those songs would impact more than just our church but the generation.

Shan, neereta, naomi, chris, jon, dan you guyz were so awesome and i had so much fun with yall in the freezing recording studio.

m looking forward to more recording sessions till the album is complete..

For now its back to work and yess next week is convoo...i cant wait to c everyone again..

You were one person who encouraged me to write music and I pray that you will start doing it again too..cant you see you have so much potential?

Till next time..lotsa love guyzz

we've had the greatest of times

I mean no kidding..we really outdid ourselves with the things we did..You guyz are one special bunch i could never fall outta love with..
God really blessed me and favored me by giving me such a treasure of friends :)

Now we know why Visha's car is dented everywhere hehehe

Crazy awesome, amazing days.. now its really BFF from the heart..i miss all of you and I cant wait to c you guyz again..Joe, Arthur, Jia you guyz too :(

U guyz really made me laugh my heart out and i miss laughing that way..

You guys totally won my heart hhehehee (sounds so wrong haha)

Muacks..

Life's simple pleasures

A lot has been going on these past two weeks..i cant believe i went from omgg im bored to im too busy to even check my Fb profile :) my feed was totally spammed from all the updates today when i checked it haha..

Oh well cant say that im not happy with everything thats going on..remember the interview i told you guys about??the private chinese high school??i got the job and mostly thats whats been taking up my time. New work environment, new challenges, new students, new work prospects, new working hours and most of all brand new and never ending grace of God.

The best part about it is that God made it in such a way that i got everything i ever wanted. Awesome working hours where i can still serve freely, awesome salary, amazing distance from my place and tho im still getting to know them, good students and teachers :)

C what happens when you dont rush and just trust God? I mean after rushing at every crossroad i realised at some point that God is taking care of me and it doesn't make this time any different cos He knows what He is doing and its better to trust Him sometimes rather than to push on something thats not of Him. He has proven to be more than faithful time and time again.

Im learning so many new things every single day and tho it may be challenging at times, I know ill never be alone cos His hand will constantly be in mine leading me and guiding me thru each step of life. So here's to the next exciting phase of my life.I know im never going to be alone.

Working is great but more than that i find myself looking forward to spending time in His presence and serving my heart out cos there is no greater joy. Sometimes im literally out the whole day but when i get home there's a joy in my heart cos my day glorified Him.

Convo's coming up soon and i cant wait to c all my friends again..They mean the world to me and i love all of them so much..

PS- Hannah lee my darling thank you so much for helping me mark the papers today hehe..and angie too..i owe you guyzz..

Today's post is a bit long eh hee..before i go i just wanna say that i miss this (pic below) and I just cant wait till we do it again. You guyzz rock my world. I miss Kampar and how you guys always made me laugh till it hurt..ul literally brought the joy out of me..I miss that.

To everyone who is searching for the next step, i hope this encourages you to never give up and to trust God more than ever cos..

"Every letdown by man is another reason for you to trust God even more" Jia Yo

All my love
Crystal

She's back

Cheryline Dorcas Nagarajan is backk!! thats what this week is about :) i've missed her so much..im just glad she's around n i get to be with her at home again after so long..

Had an awesome time with Eunice yesterday.. :)

Interview tmr morning at ten..

Discipleship class today at 2. Kinda looking forward to all the insight we will get today from the topic of courage..

Oh well life goes on..Shu ern im still missing you a lot.. need to talk to you today..sorry for being so busy..

Bev atiqah vish ponney and arthur i miss you guyz too :( convo is when we will catch up kays..

Lotsa lovee..

CNY

Yes yes its finally that time of the year again :) i cant believe im actually saying i look forward to it each year :) and im indian hahah..oh well the getting together having a good time fellowshiping and joking..well priceless :)

Thanks for inviting us over Ps Boey, derrick, Athens, Shan, and Naomi hehe..lkg forward for an awesome time with you guyzz..

Im worship leading this Sunday and i have no idea how my song list is going..sighh..Lord Help plsss..

Im gonna sleep soon..Happy Chinese New year Theng Shu Ern and Beverly Jong i miss you guyzz heaps..

And to all those who think if youre single den youre a monster lemmie tell you i beg to differ, at least in some cases because you can give the best years of your life to God without any distractions..

My time??its in His hands so no one is going to rush me :) quite stern on that one..

March 19th i cant wait to c everyone again..lotsa love..nitezz

Well done

OH mY Lord she got an A for her killer paper..SOCCA

Cheryline Dorcas Nagarajan im soo proud of you..We all literally stayed up praying for you while you were studying hehe..

Thank You Jesus for your favor and grace seeing her thru.

Muacks Congrats again..and I cant wait for you to get back :)

All my love..

Food poisoning

Its 5.05am man and im wide awake..fell asleep peacefully about 10 ish just to be woken up at 3.45 for no particular reason. Kept tossing and turning wondering why on earth i cant sleep n suddenly the moment of truth when my tummy started hurting ;)

It has been a long night and i have visited the tolet 3 times in 1 and half hours..omgg the worst part is i still cant sleep ahhhhh..In one hour Hannah Lee will be calling to wake me up. Guess she was right :) i should have just stayed awake hehehe..

So much for that, lets just give you a brief update of the week-end..in one word?i would say fantastic..i had so much fun esp friday when we went to the junk sale and derrick's long awaited birthday dinner :) i mean these ppl are super fun to be with n i love them with their innocence and youth..Saturday rocked as well with youth mtg..Chandru omgg seriously you should take the mike more often..There was such a presence of God and im sure everyone felt it too.

Oh yeaaa did i mention my bestie came back hahaah..so yeaa preety much funn..n Sundayy instructor training course hmmmm was alright i guess..thank God Chris was there to make it a lil bearable..Everyone is so mature and smart, we mite as well shhh :).Lunch with the guyzz after church and again lots of planning and deciding and visions and dreams..It actually pays off to be with people who have vision and dreams and who are just not satisfied with what there is but want more out of God and Life..Their passion drives me to serve and Love more in the coming days.

As much as their passion drives me i hope shan,hannah,naomi,angie,christina,neereta, and Eunice you guyzz will be driven with the same passion to love God and never stop serving Him wherever you guyz are and whatever you do..Discipleship yesterday was about patience and boy do i have a lot of learning to do especially when it comes to this topic.

Kinda looking forward to today..planning nvr ceases when there is an event coming up..so Sandy Saturday is going to be amazing and we're just 3 days away..I seriously need to get some sleep..

13 days more and ul be back my lil girl..hang in there..I love you and im praying for you muacks.

I mean seriously..no kidding..time to work outt darnn.. :) i miss my jogging partner miss Jong and my swimming partner miss Theng..You guyzz rock my world.

And Shu ern you are super special to me..if i were to write a whole post abt you den i think blogspot couldnt contain the pages i'd write..lemmie just summ it up to i miss you very much and maybe once i've summarized everything i'd write one post just for you hehe..love you hunie..

I wanna sleeppp zzzzz..

Gan en

This week has been an absolute bummer for me..each day with all the bullets shooting from every angle until i felt like omgg i wanna give up. If this is life den i mite as well not live it ya know?

I was so fed up and i reached my end on thursday..i told myself sternly "baby girl you gotta stop being so forlorn and start rising up above it cuz ur better than that".

I just made a decision to come out of it n i went to play the piano n worship a while before i went out job hunting again n still no relief cuz inside me was all messed up and my mind was everywhere. Suddenly The Holy Spirit promted me to just start giving thanks n thats what i started doing. For the things i had, For the things i din have and just for everything.

A lil while after that i felt soo much better ;)..there is power in giving thanks. It not only changes your situation but it also changes youu.It totally renews your passion for God and your trust in Him.

Went for 2 job interviews yesterday n trusting God for more open doors :). most of all im looking forward to today's meeting..its going to be amazing :)

God you are so Faithful and there is nothing I can't trust you for. I absolutely lovee You.

6 days??

Watt?? has it been that long since my last post??oh man..i do have a lot to tell hehe..but here's something for a start..

Shannon, Naomi, Angiee, Hannah, Christina

The more i get to know you guyz the more i Love yall..

Wake up at 6am everyday..need to get used to that heheh.. But every bit is worth it if im praying for you guyz..c yall soon

Ill update more soon..soon..veryy soon.

Neong Chee Kien (Arthur)

Thats what everyone calls him.. ;)

I can still remember the first time i saw him. In my mind i was like hey looks like a decent smart guy..hmm lets talk to him..and the talking never stopped since then. Everyone thought he was a freak in Year 1(except Shu ern). He talked too much, made stupid jokes,disrupted class and always wanted to know your quiz results..Oh man you must be thinking what a pain :)

Little did i know that this pain in the *&% would be one of my closest friends today. He turned out to be the most caring, most gentle, most intelligent and most precious friend anyone of us could find. When you are sick he is the first one there, when you miss class his would be the first text and when quiz results are out his first words would be "eh nvm laa results are nothing wan.I also simply do only". hahahahaha

Last week he drove down all the way from KL with beautiful Jia Wei just to spend New Year's eve with us. If you say friendship is a gift, now i know what you mean. He may say the stupidest things sometimes and if you din know him it would bug you but for us it makes us smile.

Jia Wei you are one lucky girl and Arthur we are all super lucky friends to have you. Thanks for the awfully long comment you left on Yesterday's post. Youre going to do awesome in Your masters and in your life cuz all you've sowned is goodness and kindness. We will always be friends bro. You can count on that..

This post is just for you. Thanks for all you have been.

Arthur Neong Chee Kien Ladies and Gentleman :)

The most embarassing moment of 2011 :)

Went swimming today :) haha..it was awesome and super relaxing, but when i got out i think i was a bit blur and i literally walked into the men's toilet hahahah..the people outside were staring at me like what on earth are you doing..and suddenly i realised omggg im in the wrong toilett..what to do but to go out and laugh it off..lol..omggg honestly joke of the year hehehehe :)

Today was fun..had all that time to myself..but im kinda getting bored so plsss someone call me for an interview :)

A brand new dawn

After a long 3rd day of 2011 im just sitting down n thinking of the past 3 weeks and smiling to myself..How on earth did so many things happen in such a short time?

10th-12th Dec- Camp Extreme

The campers were amazing..each and everyone of them participated in all the events and their talents were unleashed omg it was also an awesome experience working with Chris, Brett, John n Dan. I mean these guys are full of enthusiasm and ideas..I will forever remember this camp and the effect it had on all of us after (backache, sore knees, headache, fever) hehehehehe..and the few sessions that we had were really impactful. I mean there was literally a strong presence of God that i believe transformed the young people's lives. Thanks for allowing God to use you Johnny :). All that said i hope everyone enjoyed themselves and had something to take back after camp.

13th Dec- 27th Dec -Bandung with my family

These 2 weeks were a wonderful time of rest, spending time with my family and most importantly spending time with my beloved Daddy God.It was amazing having alin with me and laughing again with her..arguing about silly things like who is going to shower first and who is the bomb hehe..she is so amazing.the strength that she has is inspiring and she serves and loves with all her heart. Though she is gorgeous and elegant with high expectations and desires, she is super simple at heart in her relationship with God, full of wisdom and honour. I love her so much and i've gotten to know so much more about her this trip. We did so many fun things together too (putting up the christmas tree, having a christmas party, going for worship practices together, celebrating christmas day wearing the wacky hat in Bandung)omgg when the 27th came i din wanna come back :'( i miss her so much but i know she will be back soon..gotta hang in there :) I treasure her and the time spent together. When i told her she's my life this time like i always do she said "im everybody's life and I got no life" heheheehhe ok be no more life life all..ur just my baby sis.hehehe.

29th Dec 2010 - 1st Jan 2011- Shu ern, Visha, Arthur and Jia Wei came

We had so much fun omgg..cant remember the last time i did so many stupid things hehe..we were teasing Visha about how she has become an aunty ade and Shu ern about her sex change. I love this bunch and im so grateful for each of them. Meeting tee after so long was so nice too..i almost cried when she hugged me omgg rindu sangat sigh..Arthur you ass thanks for driving down all the way and Jia ur so sweet for coming too..I hope you guyz had a good time and ul will come again. I miss yall already :) the best part was the countdown to 2011 heheeh it was like we were waiting at Danga bay with probably a thousand other ppl and at minight...nothing..omgg how dissapointing hehehehe..it seems the Sultan's smth smth passed away..bummer hehe.but i was happy cuz they were all there..and derrick, sam, josh boey and jon were there too..New year rocked lots :)

1st Jan -3rd Jan

New Year Service and Sunday service both were awesome and omgg Johnny again i have to say it ur so God's precious one hehe..worship was amazing and daddy preached..really opened my eyes to many new revelations in my walk with him.

The one thing i told God a week before New year was that if i could have something this year i really want Him to intensify my intimacy with Him. We all need intimacy everyday and many times we waste it on things that dont satisfy when God is longing for us and Longing to be intimate with us. Omg im enjoying being intimate with Him till i wish everyone who reads this will come to this realisation too..He speaks to you and comforts you and like a friend He fellowships with you just longing to fall in love with you. I want more intimacy with the Holy Spirit in year 2011.

Thank You daddy God for seeing me thru year 2010..Your Faithfullness and Love is what has got me thru the year and I believe you will keep leading me step by step as I draw closer to You.

Excited to start discipleship tmr with the girls..ill update soon

Blessed New Year, All my Love